Chapter 19 Tattoo by. Loreen
Will
Is it possible to lose something before you have it?
I guess I was about to find out. After Fai’s dramatic exit, I made sure Sarah was okay and headed home.
I couldn’t be there knowing that he was going to take any chance with Jackie I had away from me.
It was too painful. I knew he needed to know, I knew it was inevitable.
Jackie loved her people hard and Fai was one of her people, not me.
I sighed as I sat on my front porch and watched the rain. Even the weather felt like I did. It had begun pouring on my drive home and it was fitting. I hadn’t even gone inside yet. It was easier to ignore reality here.
Just as I was getting ready to head inside I heard a car head down my driveway, which was odd.
No one visited me here but Sarah and I knew she would be going after Fai, not me.
I truly couldn't comprehend how he pulled her.
She deserved better than him, at least the version of himself he was tonight.
My thoughts were interrupted by a jeep pulling up in front of my house.
Not any jeep, but Jackie’s. The sun had already gone down, so I doubted she could see me but from the light of her car I could see her.
Damn, she was beautiful. I watched as she jumped out of her car and stopped just a few feet from it.
She seemed distracted. It looked like she was talking to herself. She seemed nervous, maybe even scared. Fuck, I knew what this was. She was here to let me down gently. She would do that. She was so thoughtful and kind.
I groaned, knowing that this beautiful woman was about to rip my heart straight out of my chest. Damn her. I stood and made my way into the rain hoping to end this quickly.
“Jackie!” I yelled, startling her.
She turned to face me. She was drenched from head to toe from the rain and I knew I was looking about the same.
“I didn't know you were out here!” she yelled over the rain.
“I was on my porch,” I responded as I got closer to her. I was freezing in only a short sleeve but knew I needed to get this over with and didn’t want to drag this out by going inside. “You don’t need to do this, I understand.”
She looked up at me confused. “What do you mean?” she asked.
“I know Fai talked to you. I know you’re here to tell me we can’t work together anymore.
It’s okay,” I stated. She tried to interrupt but I continued, trying to keep her words from coming, knowing the words were going to cut deep.
“I don’t regret it, I don't regret any of it. I hope you know that. I would do it all again.” She tried to interrupt again, but still I continued, “I lo….” I sighed.
“You’re incredible, Jacqueline. I hope you know that and working with you was one of the greatest pleasures of my lif… ”
“Will, just shut up, okay!” she yelled, looking frustrated.
I had never seen her so upset before.
I immediately complied.
“Sorry,” I whispered.
She chuckled, the sound hitting me straight in the heart.
“Now that you’re done rambling, can I tell you what I came here for?” she asked, still kind of yelling to be heard over the storm that was just growing stronger.
I nodded and she smiled in response. God, that smile was beautiful. Even soaked from head to toe in the middle of a rainstorm…
Crack.
Correction, thunderstorm, she was beautiful. I watched as the rain dripped down the side of her face and down her neck. I took in every one of her features because if it was going to be the last time I could, I needed to remember everything I could.
“Will, are you even paying attention?” she asked through giggles.
“Yes… no. I’m sorry. I’m listening now,” I responded with a chuckle to myself.
“I’m not here to tell you we can’t spend time with each other anymore. I’m here to tell you I want more. In fact I had a whole speech prepared…” she began.
“You want more?” I interrupted, hopeful.
“I want so much more. Will, I want you.”
At that moment, time stood still. The world around me disappeared. The rain, the storm, everything ceased to exist in my world. It was just Jackie, here saying she wanted me. I took her face in my hands and pulled her closer to me. “What about Fai?”
She shrugged in response, “I get to make my choices, and I choose you.”
Fuck it.
With those words I did the one thing I had been dreaming of for weeks.
I crushed my lips against hers and kissed her with everything I had.
It was as if we were made for each other.
Her kiss brought parts of my soul back to life.
She was truly immaculate. I tested my limits and gave into the passion and slipped my tongue into her mouth but she only responded just as feverishly.
We truly couldn't get enough of each other.
Not breaking our kiss, I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist. I guided us out of the rain through my front door into my house.
I pressed her against the front door as it closed and continued to kiss her with everything I had.
My hand roamed her body and hers were tangled into my hair.
I was never cutting it short again. Slowly my hand found the swell of her breast and she moaned into my mouth.
I broke our kiss and looked her in the eyes, needing confirmation before we went farther. “Do you want this?”
She responded by grinding against my dick, causing my own moan. “So badly.”
She began to kiss down my neck, continuing to grind. God, I wanted this, my cock straining against my zipper was an obvious indicator, but I couldn’t handle it if this was just a hookup, it would kill me. “Jackie, I need to know if you want more than this.”
She stopped and leaned back to look at me. “When I say I want more, Will, I mean I want it all. I want the boring moments and the breakfasts, and the sharing the bed and the laughs, and a shot at life with you.”
We stared at one another for a moment, both understanding what she meant. We were going to try to make it work.
I attached my mouth to hers again, somehow with more passion this time and began to fuck her mouth with my tongue. My hand holding her up was cupped around her ass and the other continued its exploration over her breast. I snuck under her shirt only to find no bra. I groaned in her mouth.
“Why don't you have a bra on?”I asked breathlessly and began kissing and biting her neck.
“Don’t need one, so I never wear one,” she responded just as breathlessly.
“Fuck.” That was information I was going to store away for a later date. I began to play with her nipple. She moaned loudly and began grinding against me again.
“I need you, Will. Now,” she moaned as her grinding became erratic, more needy.
I knew our first time shouldn’t be against a door, but I couldn’t contain myself, and I could tell she felt the same way.
I set her on her feet and ripped off her soaking shirt and began to feast on her breasts as I began to pull down her pants.
God her skin was milky smooth and her breasts fit perfectly in my palms.
She was just as excited, pulling my own shirt off and helping me with her wet jeans and underwear. The second they were off my hand found her wet, warm pussy. God, she felt good. She moaned as I began to draw circles around her clit.
“That feels so good,”she moaned as she rested her head against the door.
We may be doing it against my front door the first time, but damn it if I didn’t make it good for her.
I dropped to my knees and grabbed one leg and placed it over my shoulder.
Even her pussy was beautiful. I took one lick across the entire seam before I began fucking her with my tongue and fingers.
She writhed and pushed against me, showing me exactly what she liked and didn’t.
I could feel her growing closer and her breathing was growing heavier.
“Come for me, Sunshine,” I moaned before continuing to fuck her with my mouth.
That must have done it because she snapped.
She was coming and hard. My face and hands were drenched and damn if it wasn’t the best thing I had ever tasted.
I continued to finger her through her orgasm.
As she finally relaxed, I carefully set her leg down and stood up.
“You good?” I asked as I took in her flushed cheeks.
She smiled.
“That better not be it,” she teased in response.
I laughed back as I began stripping my own jeans. “Hell no, I just had to make sure my girl could keep going.”
I pulled off my underwear and my cock quickly stood at attention.
“Holy fuck.” I looked up to see Jackie staring wide eyed at my cock. “Is that going to fit? Also, do you have tattoos everywhere?”
I laughed again, “Basically, I’ll show you all of them someday. And I promise it will fit. Now be a good girl and wrap those legs around me again.”
She smiled seductively and wrapped her arms around my neck as I hoisted her back up in my arms and placed her against the wall.
I grabbed my dick and notched it at her entrance. I looked at her one more time for confirmation and she nodded.
Slowly I began to push in as we both let out loud moans. “God you’re so tight. You feel incredible.”
After what felt like an eternity, I finally felt my balls hit her ass and took a moment to stop and breathe. “Are you okay?”
“You better start fucking me right now,” she stated seriously.
“As you wish, Sunshine.” With that, I slammed into her hard and I felt her quiver around me. Seems like my girl likes it hard so I continued at a punishing pace.
Quickly, we were both breathing hard and I could feel myself close to exploding in her. I needed her there with me. I reached between us and began to circle her clit again and I felt her shatter around me.
She let out a shout as she came around my cock, milking my own orgasm from me. I came in her so hard I swear my vision blacked out.
Slowly I began to catch my breath. I carried her exhausted self to my room and placed her on my bed, finally slipping out of her. I watched as my cum slipped out of her.
Damn, that was hot.
Shit.
I looked to her in a panic where she laid on my bed. “Fuck. I didn’t wear a condom. I’m clean but I came in you. Fuck.”
She only smiled at my panic. “I take birth control, it’s okay. I’m clean too.”
I breathed a sigh of relief, but was surprisingly okay with the idea of kids with Jackie. Fuck, what was happening to me. I had never wanted kids but the idea of a tiny her brought me joy I hadn’t felt before.
I took her in my arms and held her close. I didn’t think this was how today would go. When she drove up I was convinced it would be the last moment I had with her. I thought she was here to let me down easily.
“Is this real?” I whispered to her, not being able to believe any of this.
She turned to face me but stayed in my arms, “Yeah. Yeah, it is.”
“Now what, Sunshine?” I asked as I brushed my thumb across her cheek.
She shrugged. “I guess we’ll find out together.” And damn did that sound perfect.