Chapter 19 #2
I roll my eyes, “I was still in contact, just with Caleb,” and he smirks at my sass.
Shrugging, I admit, “I needed a breather, something he didn’t give me after I was nearly arrested, it was a lot, and then add in my great aunt, whom my daughter is named after, passing away and having to see my parents for the first time in eight years…
I just needed time to take a breath so I didn’t make any irrational decisions. ”
Ace nods with understanding before he kisses my head and mumbles, “I get it, I do. Alex is in his room grabbing something down the hallway, I’ll get the kids.”
“Thanks,” I whisper, and he pulls back, smiling a boyish smile at me before walking away, and I shake my head.
That man is going to break some woman’s heart one of these days, I can just see it.
Huffing, I walk towards the officer brothers' rooms, hugging Brit on my way, before Doc kisses my cheek, making me smile and I head towards Alex, my heart, but the closer I get to his room, the tighter my stomach gets.
I slow my steps when I hear, “Come on, baby, get hard for me!” before a groaned, “Holly...” echoes, and everything in me tenses as I pick up my speed and storm into Alex’s room, only to freeze in shock at the scene before me and my eyes cloud over.
Alex is lying on his back on the floor by his bed while a completely naked Cheryl tries to ride him, and I swear, breathing becomes difficult.
Adam’s head swings my way, anger flashing in his eyes, but then his eyes widen when he sees me. Missy, on her hands and knees with her ass in the air and his body behind her, gasps at me, saying, “Do you mind?!” as she turns her head to face me.
“Holly…” she chokes with shock, and I shake my head as my tears fall before I quickly turn around and rush towards the stairs, their shouts for me to come back echoing, but I ignore them.
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Alex groans again as Cheryl repeats, “Come on, baby, get hard,” and I flinch, my past hitting me hard in the chest.
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“You wouldn’t fucking give it to me, Holly!” he shouts, “It wasn’t fucking cheating!”
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Bile rises, and I try not to choke as giggles from children echo, and I blink, then blink again as Alex moans, “Holly,” and Cheryl snaps, “No, not Holly!”
Oh god…
My breathing intensifies, my body trembling and I squeeze my eyes again, my head not able to comprehend what is reality and what is the past.
***
“You loved me, you gave me your virginity, you know I wasn’t cheating!” he claims as he picks up speed, and I flinch again.
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“Come on, I want another baby, then I’ll get your goddamn cut!
” Cheryl snaps gaining my attention and I come back, and I see what is going on and anger hits me as my eyes go to the metal pole in the corner of Alex’s bedroom as breathing becomes difficult and I try to separate what I went through with Adam to what is happening right now.
Why on earth has he got...?
Alex’s groans pause my thinking, and I quickly rush and grab it while Cheryl is occupied, assaulting my boyfriend.
***
He growls, “You’re fucking mine!”
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I blink, trying to forget the horrible day that changed my life, and I rush over to an unsuspecting Cheryl, and without thinking, I swing the pole hard over her head with all my strength, and she grunts before her naked body falls off Alex onto the floor with a loud thump, and I breathe heavy as I hear, “What the fuck?!”
I don’t turn to look, instead I eye Cheryl’s body, blood pouring from her head, her eyes wide, lifeless and everything goes cold as everything hits me hard to what I have just done in order to save my man.
Oh god, no…
“Where are the kids?” I choke out to Ace, and I try to breathe through my nausea as I throw the metal pole onto the floor like it burned me.
What did I just do?
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“If I can’t have you, then no one can.”
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The memory of Adam's sneer as he drove towards the large tree hits me making me flinch as Ace mutters, “In the common room, I came to see what was taking you so long,” before he shouts, “Pres!” and I take a shaky step back, my eyes on Cheryl’s dead body as several footsteps echo, followed by curses.
“What the…” I hear Stone before Ice snaps, “Fuck!”
“Holly?” Doc whispers as I continue to stare at Cheryl, a very dead, naked Cheryl who I just killed to save my boyfriend and the urge to run consumes me, no, it suffocates me.
I need to leave.
“I need a breather,” I admit as my past flashes before my eyes, the pain.
“Okay,” Doc instantly agrees despite knowing I’m going to go radio silent again, something he’s obviously noticed is my thing while Ace complains, “Now hang on a second, Alex is—”
Doc cuts him off and states, “Look at Holly, brother,” before I feel eyes on me as I tremble, and Ace mutters, “Fuck, she needs a breather.”
“I’m taking Caleb,” I instantly state without question, and I feel the tension in the room loosen while Alex groans, “Hol…” and I flinch as his head moves to the side.
I need to get out of here, I need… My eyes go to Cheryl again, blood surrounding her head, sounding into Alex’s carpeted floor.
The urge to vomit hits me as the sound of Cheryl's head hitting the pole rings inside my mind, and I look towards her face, her eyes still wide, lifeless.
I killed her, oh god I-I….
Caleb is going to hate me.
“Go on, Hol, we’ve got this,” I hear someone say, and I nod once before storming out of Alex’s room without looking back at him with a lump in my throat and blood on my hands, suddenly second-guessing taking Caleb, heck, or even my own daughter.
I’m a murderer, yet I can’t leave the kids, I just can’t, they are mine, my everything.
Dammit, these past nine weeks just haven’t been for me. Ever since meeting Alex, things have gone from bad to worse, and I don’t know how we can overcome this.
I’m a murderer.