Chapter 56 – Mabel
Chapter Fifty-Six
MABEL
Once we’re cleaned up and I’ve double brushed and triple mouth-washed, I take Jude into my bedroom.
My heart is attempting to burst out of my chest as we climb into bed.
I’ve never brought a man into my home like this before.
A large part of me, larger than I care to fully acknowledge, wants it to be like this every night.
I may have told Jude I wasn’t done with him yet but, if I was going to be honest with myself… I never want to be done with Jude.
Being away from him has been torture and I know that I’ve come to love this gentle giant. The guilt of falling for the one person Paul dislikes more than I’ve ever seen is overshadowed by the thought that come tomorrow, Jude and I could part ways and never have a moment like this again.
I can’t let that happen.
“It’s late, can we just cuddle for a little bit?”
“I’m okay with that. I think I’m going to need a little longer to recover after everything that we just did.
” Jude’s voice is warm, he maneuvers our bodies until we are spooning, our bodies feel perfect pressed together.
Before climbing into bed, Jude had pulled his undershirt and briefs back on and I quickly pulled on an over-sized t-shirt and clean panties.
We settle against each other, my body’s betraying by trying to pull me into a deep sleep.
I feel so right being in Jude’s arms, the high alert of my nerves I’ve been plagued with since visiting his step-dad’s house finally calms and my whole body is ready to rest.
I can’t fall asleep without telling Jude that I don’t want this to be over. I don’t care anymore, I’ll get back down on my knees and beg him to reconsider being finished with me.
“Jude, why did you cut me off?” I can feel his body tense at my question but I don’t care.
I need to get this out. I want a future with him, I’m in love with him and I can’t let another moment pass without figuring out why he wanted to end things.
“You iced me out when I volunteered to join you at your family lunch. I thought…I was trying to show you I wanted more with you. Is sex all you want from me?”
My voice cracks at the question but I need to know.
“Mabel.” His voice is rough, arms tightening around me help me hold in my tears. “I thought you were done with me!” Shock strikes me like a lightning bolt. I shuffle like a worm until we’re face to face with his arms still around me.
Jude explains how my wording when I offered to join him for the family lunch made him think I had considered everything between us as a debt and once I went to the lunch, my debt would be paid.
When I explained how I had interpreted the situation, Jude literally growled.
It would have been sexy if we were having a conversation about anything else in the world.
“God, we’re both idiots.” I groan and knock my head against his shoulder. Jude rubs my back in soothing circles, pressing a soft kiss to the top of my head.
“That we are. But you know what, Trouble? I’m your idiot.”
“And I’m yours.”
It’s still dark out when I wake up. My heart’s racing with a nightmare that is gone before I can even try to remember it. I do my best to take silent deep breaths but I must have made a sound when I woke up because Jude shifts his body, pulling me tighter against his body.
“What’s wrong, Trouble?” He snuggles into my sleep-mussed hair.
I think he sniffs it but I’m not going to say anything.
The way Jude smells is like my own personal comfort blanket, the mix of sweat, sunshine, honey and the natural scent that’s all Jude.
It fills me up and relaxes me more than anything else I’ve ever tried.
“Bad dream.” I grumble out, shuffling my body around until we are chest to chest so I can pull him closer. We are impossibly close, I don’t think my arms wrapping around him do much except squishing his insides around.
“Do you need to do that thing again, the one that helped you relax at the cabin?” I was not expecting that from him, my heart stutters. It’s exactly what I need from him.
“That would be perfect, if you don’t mind.”
Jude smirk is sleepy, barely visible in the darkness of the room, as his hips grind into me, pressing his erection into my soft stomach.
“You know, Mabel, you ask for it. I’m going to do my best to give it to you.
” His calloused hand trails down my back, over my ass before grabbing my thigh and lifting my leg over his hip.
The head of his cock teases my entrance and Jude presses a soft kiss as he pushes into me.
A gasp escapes me as he fully seats himself inside me.
I feel full and complete like I’ve never felt before, but it’s not enough.
Jude starts to pull away but I follow his mouth, taking over a kiss with my tongue plundering his mouth.
A fire is burning in my stomach, the need for Jude overwhelming.
“Jude, I need you, it’s not enough.” My voice is strained, this need feels like an anxiety attack but somehow worse.
I feel almost insatiable with need. I push on Jude’s shoulders, doing my best to get him on his back.
Straddling him without letting him slip out of my pussy, he gets impossibly deeper and a moan from deep in my gut explodes out of me.
“Wait, Mabel, I don’t have a condom.” Jude grits his teeth, his hands flying to my hips to stall my movement.
“I don’t care. Please, I just want to feel you.” I swivel my hips, clenching my channel around his steely length. “I’ll stop if you want to but I…I love you and I just want to be with you.”
Jude’s grip loosens enough to allow me to start moving again, I’m mewling with pleasure as I ride my gentle giant not caring how I’m moving, just chasing my pleasure.
He’s so big and I’m so full and it feels so good.
“Fuck, Mabel.” Jude growls, his hands dig into the globes of my ass as he fucks up into me.
My orgasm hits me fast and hard, my body stutters momentarily before I start moving again.
I try my best to keep pace with Jude but his movements are becoming more and more erratic with each thrust. “Fuck, Jude. You feel so good.” I bend down to capture his mouth in a searing kiss, biting his bottom lip before I lick across the abused muscle.
Jude lets out what I can only describe as a growl before he pulls my hips down as his warm release paints my insides as he fucks me through his orgasm.
I come a second time, overwhelmed by his ministrations and the feeling of the stickiness coating my thighs.
I lose the strength in my arms, collapsing atop his broad chest and burying my head in the crook of his neck.
We’re both panting, completely spent but I can’t keep the smile off my face.
I press an open mouthed kiss against his fluttering pulse.
We stay like that until our breath returns to normal and Jude’s cock has softened enough to slip out of me.
Now that we’ve calmed down enough to make sure he knows my statement isn’t just a heat of the moment declaration, I look deep into Jude’s sparkling blue eyes.
“I meant it, you know. I do love you.”