Chapter Sixteen Liza
What the fuck did I just do? All I had wanted to do was go in there and tell him I was having Rose come over.
I need some serious girl time and she needs her friend.
She’s feeling very much alone right now.
When I saw him in the shower cock in hand, all the pent up sexual tension I was feeling these past few months hit and hit hard.
I didn’t expect him to pull me into the shower with him, definitely didn’t expect shit to go as far as it did.
As I get in the guest room shower it hits me that we didn’t use any protection either and I find myself banging my head on the shower wall.
Fucking hell. I just had the man’s baby and will be stuck with him for the rest of my life, but in one slip up and I might find myself shackled with one more baby that I wasn’t ready for.
I declined going on birth control when I saw my doctor because I wasn’t fucking having sex, but I’m stupid because I thought I could control myself living with him.
Turns out I’m like a fucking horny school girl and apparently he isn’t any better.
I cleaned myself and walked out of the bathroom and into the guest room coming face to face with Dragon and Jaxon.
“Why are you in my room? Do you need something?”
He stood up from the bed and walked towards me.
“We need to talk about what just happened in there .”
I sigh, “We really don’t. It was a mistake. I only came to tell you I’m having Rose come over so if the boys wake up you’re on child duty. Jaxon has pumped milk in the fridge and I plan on pumping while she’s here. So you can take care of everything. You can go now.”
I can tell that what I said made him angry, I saw his nostrils flare when I said what happened in that shower was a mistake, frankly I’m passed caring.
These MC men need to understand that their stupid alpha bullshit isn’t going to work on all the women in their lives.
You’d think Dragon would know given his mother and sisters never put up with this shit.
He steps forward and into my space, “What just happened was NOT a fucking mistake. You finally gave into what we’ve needed and wanted for months. I told you, you’re mine. I don’t give a fuck that you seem to think otherwise. I made a damn mistake, I apologized for it.
You know I was never with anyone after I started shit with you, there hasn’t been anyone else for me. I think you knew that then, but you were too fucking scared so you fucking ran and hid. From everyone. I know you stopped talking to Peyton and Parker until they found out about your pregnancy,
you were scared about what you were feeling. I get it because I was too, but I did it to fucking protect you and I wasn’t fucking thinking straight. So much fucking shit was happening and my mind was being pulled in a bunch of different fucking directions. I love you! You fucking know that.”
I shake my head and walk around him. I go to the closet in the room because I decided the other day to move out of his room and into this room. He was pissed about it, but like I fucking care. I pull out a baggie shirt and sleep shorts.
“You know that after tonight you could be pregnant again. We could have another one of these in ten months.” He says as he lifts Jaxon up in his arms.
I turn around as I put my shirt on, not missing the way his eyes move over my body.
“I will get the morning after pill. Don’t worry about that.”
His eyes go dark in a way that I’ve never seen and his nostrils flare before his voice gets deadly quiet.
“You will not get rid of a baby we might have made before it even gets a chance to exist.”
Now that, that pisses me the fuck off. I step in his space and put my finger in his face.
“You do not get to tell me what I do with my fucking body you dumb ass prick. We are not in a relationship, we are co-parents. You don’t fucking know me. You threw me away and so the fuck what if I chose to run and hide to protect myself from you.
We will be nothing more than two fucking people raising children together. Waylon and Walker wanted to come here and live with you. I know they are afraid your ass is going to leave them again. But you are not anything but the boys’ father.
So stop pretending that what just fucking happened wasn’t the biggest mistake you’ve made in months! If I could take it back I would! Now get the fuck out!”
He says absolutely nothing as he stares daggers at me before he turns and walks out of the room, closing the door behind him not as aggressively as I’m sure he wants because of Jaxon and the twins.
Once he’s gone I walk over to the bed and sit down placing my head in my hands and cry.
What the fuck am I doing? I don’t know how I’m going to be able to handle living in the same house with him and raising children.
I did this for the boys, but I’m starting to think that I need to get out of here for me.
I hear a beep come from my phone and reach over and grab it to see a text from Rose.
Rose: Are you sure it’s okay I come over there? I don’t want to start shit with any of the other brothers if I show up at the compound.
Me: who gives a fuck about what dickhead Rage thinks. It’s fine if you come here, this is my home too. I want to spend time with my friend.
Rose: Alright well, I’m heading over now. Should be there in 10 to 15. Hopefully no one tells him who shall not be named that I am there. I can’t deal with him right now.
So with all that I head out and sit on the porch waiting for Rose to pull up hoping that Rage won’t show up or get notified she’s at the front gate.