Epilogue
Rage
A month later
Today we are all at the courthouse for the adoption of Walker and Waylon.
Everything got put together fast because the boys did not have a father to remove rights from and the situation of how they were conceived was something that was shared with the courts.
So the progress moved forward. Everyone is excited and I can’t keep my eyes off the woman who is currently pregnant with my baby.
She’s standing up by Parker and Peyton in the front.
She looks beautiful. She is probably the most beautiful pregnant woman I have ever seen in my life and I can’t say that I am biased because it is my baby she is pregnant with.
“You’ve got to stop staring at her, son.” My dad whispers in my ear. “Why don’t you try to talk to her again after everything is done?”
I sigh and look at dad, “I’ve tried so many times, dad. She wants nothing to do with me. I don’t know how we are supposed to coparent and be a part of each other's lives for the rest of our lives if she won’t talk to me.”
“Well talk to her and find out. You can’t give up, that is my grandbaby she is pregnant with. Do you even know what she is having? Plus Caleb, I know that look in your eye you love her. Why are you so afraid to love her?”
I shake my head, “It doesn’t matter dad. It’s not going to happen. She has made it clear that she doesn’t want that part of our relationship. She also hasn’t told me what she is having and since I was not allowed at her baby shower, I still don’t know.”
We both stop talking as the judge goes over why we are here and then signs off on the adoption.
We all stand around while pictures are taken of the new family and it makes me smile how the boys look so happy and Dragon has never looked happier now that he has his woman and boys.
I think the only thing that could make him happier is if she agrees to marry him before their next baby is born.
“Alright, party at the clubhouse?” Dragon asks as he walks towards us with Waylon and Walker.
“Is Terror still at the hospital with Ruby?” Hurricane asks as he comes up next to us.
“Yeah, she is still unconscious unfortunately. The doctors say that there is no reason for her to still be under, so we are hoping that she will wake up soon.” Liza says next to Dragon as she holds Jaxon.
“We have cake and a bunch of food at the clubhouse for—-”
Before Dragon can finish the sentence I hear Parker, “Rose, are you okay?”
I snap my head to Rose and she is holding her stomach and her face is scrunched up in pain. I start to walk towards her, but Peyton cuts me off.
“No.”
“Are you fucking kidding me, Peyton. She’s in pain and she’s pregnant with my baby. Move out of the way.”
Whip and Fang come up next to her and look at me.
“Watch how you talk to our ol’ lady.” Fang says.
“Fuck! Her water broke!” Parker yells.
“Alright everybody move it, we need to get her to the hospital.” Sophie says as she pushes her way to Rose.
Liza hands Jaxon over to my dad and runs towards Rose. I try to move again and am still surrounded by the fucking wall.
A half an hour later I am sitting in the waiting room with a big chunk of Devil’s Chaos, my head in my hand.
Rose wouldn’t allow me in the room with her and now I know exactly how Dragon felt when he couldn’t go into Liza’s delivery for Jaxon.
I hate every second of this. Dragon didn’t even sleep with anyone else while Liza and them were hooking up.
I mean, yes, I never told Rose we were exclusive, but I knew she was special.
I fought it and hooked up with other girls trying to make the feelings I was having go away.
I know no one understands why I have been like this and done these things and now sitting here outside of the waiting room I regret that I didn’t go about things the way I should have.
I really should have been honest and maybe I don’t know fucked Rose with protection instead of just taking chances with her.
She has Liza, Peyton and Parker in there and I don’t even know enough to ask her if she needs me to call any family.
I don’t even know if she has any family.
That’s how little I listened to her because I was fighting everything that was us.
So I used her and I know that she had feelings for me before she overheard what she did and then on top of that saw what she saw.
I would never want to see her with anyone else.
I would never want to hear her say anything negative about me, I mean I wouldn’t have before, now that is really all I hear when I actually hear her talk about me.
I would never want to see her with another man’s hands on her.
It would tear me up inside and that is with me fighting my feelings.
I’m a possessive asshole and I would have gone fucking nuts.
“It’s gonna be okay, son.”
“Well, this will now be the second kid I wasn’t there for both of their births. So I’m sorry you have ever felt this way.”
“Yeah, it’s not the greatest feeling in the world, but Caleb it’s going to be okay. I know you and I know that you are going to make this right. I know that your childhood wasn’t great before you came to me, but you need to get over your feelings of commitment.
Just because I was screwed over and had women before Liz that hid kids, that my kids, it was hard. I never wanted the shit I had to deal with to rub off and run things for you.
I want you to know that just because shit happened to me doesn’t mean that anything like this would necessarily happen to you. I mean look at this shit with Rose. She told you when she was pregnant despite the fact that you fucked her over.”
I nod my head and get quiet. I feel like I pray for the first time in my life ever that everything is going to be okay and workout.
That Rose is going to be okay, that our baby is going to be okay and that everything with Mason is going to workout.
I just need to figure out a way to make everything better.
For what feels like the entire day we sit in this waiting room and everyone comes and goes depending on if they had to get home to their families.
Liza comes out and goes up to Dragon first and gives him a kiss.
The man is so fucking whipped over her that he has the dorkest smile on his face when she pulls away.
She sits on his lap and then turns to me.
“Parker and Peyton will be coming out. Um, from what Rose said you can go back when they come out, but a nurse will bring you to another room. Where you can meet the baby and have some time.”
I stand up and now I’m fucking pissed, “What do you mean that I have to go to another room? Is she okay? Do I at least get to know that? Do I get to know that she is safe and everything went okay or do I have to sit and wonder if the mother of my fucking child is okay?”
“Rage, buddy, I’m gonna need you to calm down and not talk to my woman that way. It is Rose’s choice. Don’t sit here and yell at my woman for it.”
I feel a hand on my shoulder and then turn and see my father. He is looking at me and shakes his head before we hear footsteps walking towards us and I see Peyton and Parker followed by a nurse.
“Go meet your baby.” my dad says.
So I try to calm down and follow the nurse to the room where I meet the newest member of my family and feel like a failure that I can’t seem to get my shit together.