Chapter 20
Eleanor
We tried our best, but it was a struggle. As the weeks and months went on, Greyson and I kept missing each other, and even though we tried our best to keep in contact, life made it harder. Our schedules clashed, our timing was off, and it always felt as if we were just one second behind.
Our emails got shorter.
Life became busier.
Greyson and I each lived our lives on different timelines.
I held on to my promise to Mom to keep finding reasons to smile, though living with my father made it a little harder. He was still drowning, and I swore each day he pushed me further away. We were evolving in different ways, and the close bond we’d once shared was slowly diminishing.
Each day that passed, I kept finding my smiles. Each day that passed, I always had conversations with Mom, filling her in on the ups and downs of my life.
Even though some days were tough, I was finding a new form of happiness.
Because that was all I’d ever wanted to be: happy.
Just like the dragonflies buzzing by, every now and then Greyson East would cross my mind, and without any more thought than that, I’d smile.
I never thought too deeply about him being on my mind.
I just let the thoughts linger for however long they needed to.
I learned to appreciate him somehow coming back to me, in a way.
The best part of memories is how they can reappear from the most random things.
I’d think of him when I saw red licorice, or whenever I flipped past a kung fu movie on television, or when I thought about the most defining moments of my life.
He’d always show up during those moments of reflection.
I’d always be thankful for the memories and the way he’d held me up during the darkest moments of my life when all I had wanted to do was drown.
I also made a promise to myself that if life ever brought us back to each other, if the stars aligned and somehow our paths crossed once more, I swore, like the waves on the shore, I’d completely crash into him.