Chapter 29 Tyler
Tyler
Indiana,
Things have shifted a lot around here and I’ll admit, I’ve changed along with that. I’m no longer feeling the same about things as I was before. I think that after so many years being far apart, I’m realizing we are doing a huge disservice to one another. And recently, things have evolved.
You deserve to live a life where you have a connection to someone, and so do I. As much as what we had growing between us was special, and I’ll admit, I was hopeful we could see things flourish into something more once I was back in the States, my heart has shifted.
When away for a weekend, I met someone. We hit it off, and one thing led to another.
It happened and it was out of my control.
I don’t know how to explain it, and it wouldn’t be fair for us to continue what we have going on, even emotionally, when I have feelings growing for someone else. I have to put a stop to our letters.
We knew that this connection we started was all a farce.
You have an entire life, a career you’re building in Chicago.
This marriage is one you needed, and I don’t fit into that life you’re living.
I know you mentioned the insurance has been better than the one you’d receive through your current job, so please continue on it for as long as you need.
We had this incredible physical connection—I mean, the sex was intense—it was what we both needed.
It really scratched the itch we had growing between us.
But I think we both knew it was all this could be.
I don’t think we ever expected our relationship to go beyond the physical aspect, but we were too afraid to admit it.
Emotionally, I can’t, in good conscience, continue doing this with you and these letters anymore.
It wouldn’t be fair for either of us. This has to be the last exchange between us.
I hope you know what an incredible support you’ve been for me throughout the years, giving me the ability to feel cared for as I’ve felt seen on my loneliest nights while deployed.
Once you’re ready, send divorce papers and I’ll sign them. I understand if you’re mad, you have every right to be. My heart is no longer invested in that way and you should find someone to love and cherish you in the way you deserve. You deserve more than me.
Take care of yourself.
Tyler