Entangle (Shadow Thorne #3)

7. Luke

7

Luke

I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing. Well , I know what I’m doing, just not why. That isn’t true either. This isn’t about Kari . It’s about Evan , and if I have to have her here to be with him, then so be it. I’ve never had casual sex with someone I just met. I need to fucking shut off my brain. My body is on board, so I simply need not to dwell on it.

When Kari sits before me on the edge of Evan’s bed, I feel lost. I don’t know what to do, but she looks up at me with expectant eyes. Evan walks around the bed removing his shirt and unzipping his jeans, so I remove my shirt. He climbs onto the bed behind her and lifts the hem of her top. She raises her arms and lets Evan strip it off of her.

No bra. I think I could’ve used another few seconds that removing a bra would have provided. My palms are sweaty, so I slide them over my thighs, trying not to be too obvious.

Evan smiles at me and slides his hands under her breasts, squeezing them. He glances down, guiding me on what to do next. For some reason, I feel completely out of my element. The tables have turned, and now he is the dominant one. I’m relieved he’s here. He’s the only person to whom I feel comfortable relinquishing control. I didn’t know this about myself, but I could never do this with a stranger otherwise. There is no connection here. It’s just sex.

I drop to my knees in front of her and guide her knees apart. She leans in a little to kiss me, but instead, I drop down and take her nipple in my mouth. Evan squeezes her breast and holds it closer to my mouth. His thumb brushes along my chin, and I slide my hands around her waist. Her nipples are tight, and her skin is soft under my tongue. Blood pounds through my veins to my groin.

Damn , it’s been too long!

Too . Damn . Long .

As her fingers slide through my hair, I suddenly don’t care that I don’t know her. I reach my hand behind her and find Evan’s jean-clad thigh. Slowly I trail my hand up until I find the bulge in his pants. He is as hard as I am. He moans as he kisses her neck, and another finger slides over my jaw. As long as he is touching me, it feeds this excruciating need that’s been exposed since I saw him again.

“ Oh my God !” Kari pants. She moans and grips my hair. “ This is not what I expected to happen tonight.”

“ Neither did we,” Evan whispers.

Liar . How easily his little white lies slip from his tongue.

“ You’re so beautiful, Kari , so irresistible,” he tells her.

Hell , if he talked to me like that, I’d fuck him too.

He moves away, out of my reach, and I pull away as she lies back. I want to see all of her. How is she different, and will it matter? I look into her eyes as I slide my thumbs into the waist of her skirt. Her hips rise as I uncover the rest of her willowy body. She is skinnier than I expected. I miss the supple curves I’ve become accustomed to. I slide my fingertips along the tattoo on her thigh and over her hip bone. Her skin is warm, and I’m heady with lust. I glance up to Evan who just pushed down his pants. The look in his eyes runs the length of my spine. He tugs on his cock and licks his lips in a way that is just for me.

I feel Kari’s fingers brush against my palm, but I can’t move. I’m watching Evan . He is so sure of himself, and in control of the situation, and it’s a side of him I’m not accustomed to seeing. I don’t have a handle on anything at the moment, and I don’t like the way it feels. While I feel attraction and desire, I don’t feel an emotional connection with her. If I’m honest, it’s leaving the connection between Evan and me somewhat impinged.

He moves over her and latches on to her breast. Her hands slide back along his torso reaching for his cock that he is still stroking. When her fingers reach his, he lets go and groans as she takes over.

I feel outside of what’s happening. I’m not sure I can do this. Either I’m invading, or I’ve lost all sense of reason. Maybe both. Kari parts her legs. Evan’s hand rises, and he quirks a finger, beckoning me to come closer, while he continues to suckle at her breast. I move to the edge of the bed between her thighs. She presses herself against my knee. I should reach down and touch her, help her, but all I can think is that this isn’t the right woman.

Why did I get myself into this situation?

Evan’s mouth leaves her, and he rises to his knees. “ You going to join us?” he asks.

“ Evan … I …”

His hands pull my hips forward and unbutton my jeans. Every nerve in my body seemingly stretches to feel more of his touch. Kari moves, sliding back across the bed until her tongue can lick Evan’s cock. I immediately look for his reaction.

He quirks a smile. “ It’s going to feel so good, Luke ,” he reassures me. I want to trust him because he’s the one that I want. If he will just give me more of himself tonight… I’ll survive.

Kari swallows his cock, and the way his hips buck forward makes me jealous. But then suddenly, his warm mouth slides down over my cock. It takes my damn breath away, and I find myself clutching his hair to withstand the pleasure. I angle my head so I can watch him fucking her mouth while I fuck his. I don’t know whether to hate him or love him, for getting me into this.

Right now, I don’t give a fuck. As always, his mouth is hot and wet, and his tongue is eager. He lets his teeth graze my flesh in a move that I wouldn’t allow from anyone else. Rachel was always so careful. Evan isn’t careful, and for some reason, it makes his mouth feel even better. My grip tightens in his hair, causing him to groan around my cock.

Fucking hell! My eyes roll back as my head drops. I rock my hips, holding him where I want him.

I peek at him lazily, watching his body undulate and roll over the girl. It makes me wonder when he became a sex god, moving with so much confidence and sex appeal. It is provocative, and hotter than any porn he has made me watch. This version of him is so much different than how he has been with me, and it fills me with mixed emotions.

As good as this feels, I worry that we’re ignoring Kari . I pull at Evan’s hair until his mouth leaves me. He looks at me with concern. I smile lightly to let him know I’m okay, and that I’m not going to chicken out. Still , it’s uncomfortable having anyone else in the room while Evan is touching me, anyone but Rachel . I am not so sure I can perform to his standards.

Truthfully , it’s a lot to take in, and I need a minute. He rises up and slides his hands along her body until he has her nipples between his thumbs and fingers. Watching his hips work his cock in and out of her soft mouth is an alluring sight. The room fills with the sensual, wet sounds of her slurping around his dick. I push my jeans down my legs and step out of them deciding I need to stay with what I know.

“ There are condoms in the drawer next to the bed,” he tells me.

I lean over and open it. Grabbing a few, I toss them on the bed next to Kari . As I watch Evan , I squeeze my cock. It’s throbbing, and as I look over her body, she raises her feet to the edge of the bed. I inch forward a step, pausing before I make the move to go through with fucking some woman other than Rachel .

I can smell Evan’s cologne now, and it stirs an ache low in my belly. He is watching me with rapt attention. Reaching for me, he buries his fingers into my hair and squeezes.

“ Are you sure?” he asks with a whisper, sensing my hesitation.

But when I part my lips, nothing comes out. My body is on board, but am I sure? It feels like this is moving too fast.

My eyes glaze over when he pulls me closer and presses his mouth to my ear. “ I’ll take care of her,” he whispers.

When he lets me go, I feel abandoned, and then angry with myself for getting lost in his touch. I open my eyes to find him pulling out of her mouth. He taps her cheek lightly and nods toward me.

“ It’s his turn, darling.” She looks up at me, unsure, until Evan helps her to change position so that her head is below me.

“ Hey ,” she says coyly.

I think I smile back at her, but my attention is torn away when I hear the rip of a condom wrapper. It takes Kari’s attention too. With one graceful sweep of his fingers, he rolls the condom over his erection. We watch as he crawls between her legs and positions himself at her entrance. Her legs fall apart in offering. He glances up at me for a second, takes her thighs, and wraps them around his hips.

“ You ready for my cock?” he asks her.

I wish those words were for me, and not her. She chants yes a few times before he grips her hips and eases into her. He stills and then moves his hips in small motions. The action bothers me.

“ More ,” she instructs, as if she has the right to ask, or demand, anything of him. Her words stoke the fires of jealousy in my chest.

Again he nods in my direction, and her eyes flicker up to me.

“ Are you okay?” I ask, a little afraid she is feeling pressured into all this.

“ Are you kidding?” she asks. When she reaches for me, I step closer until my legs are against the mattress. She slides her hands along my inner thighs. Carefully she palms my balls with one hand, stroking my cock with the other. “ I wanted you to fuck me from the moment you called me ma’am. Ahhhh !” She stops and takes a few deep breaths as Evan rocks in and out of her. “ I didn’t think I had a chance in hell with him.”

She gives a yelp and Evan smirks, circling her clit with his thumb.

Her head bobs up, capturing my cock as her hand guides me to her mouth. I hiss at the difference. Her mouth is small and cool inside, nothing like his. Evan’s mouth feels like Heaven with a sly tongue and dangerous teeth. When she grabs my hips, she sucks my cock deep into her throat, causing my body to lurch forward.

I grit my teeth, but when I look up, Evan is right there, almost eye to eye with me. His expression darkens, and it is then I see him sink inside her to the hilt. His pupils dilate with the pleasure, and his lips part. My hips begin moving of their own free will, fucking her mouth, but in my mind, it is Evan that I’m penetrating. He is the lover my body is yearning for and reaching toward.

I snap my hips forward, and he mimics the movement. When I grunt, he smiles, pulls back, and together, we thrust forward. Our hips find the same rhythm. His fingers slide over my chest, and I grasp his hand and press it flat to my skin. Kari’s body vibrates with her moans between us. Her body is wrapped around Evan’s , but right now, he is with me. There’s a weird electric current between us as if her body has somehow become an extension of each of ours. She has become nothing more than a connection…not even a participant in what is happening between him and me.

“ Does it feel good, Luke ?” he asks with a low whisper.

I swallow. I can’t find my voice to answer. It feels different, foreign, but still pleasurable. I thrust harder against her mouth, and he smiles.

Reaching up, I touch his lips. His smile fades as he kisses the pad of my thumb, looking at me like a long-lost little boy who finally found someone he trusts. I feel lost in his sexy blue eyes, but her mouth is distracting.

Suddenly , she cries out, and Evan goes still. My dick slides out of her mouth while her body tremors and curls forward. I take my wet cock in hand, fisting it, while he and I stare at one another as if we’re the only two people in the world. When he glances at my cock, he licks his lips. Blood rushes to my groin as the pressure builds toward the breaking point.

“ Don’t come yet.” Evan’s soft words halt my movements. He leans down to her, his cheek grazing my throbbing head on purpose. “ God that feels good, darling,” he praises as he plants kisses along her neck.

Slowly he begins fucking her again. Her face is flushed with heat and lust, but her eyes are closed. Her breath changes each time Evan lands deep inside of her. One of his hands reaches up and tugs on my balls. He caresses them and tugs again. I lean back slightly as the pressure recedes enough for me to catch my breath.

He knew I was close. He always does.

Memories of us with Rachel roll over my body, making me shiver.

“ That’s it,” he whispers as he rolls my balls in his palm.

He slows his pace as she comes down from her climax. His hand slips away just before she opens her eyes. Kari’s legs begin to slip down to the bed, but Evan takes them and folds them against her chest, shifting closer to me. His gaze drops to her face.

“ Our turn!” he dictates.

Kari lets out a breath but arches back and takes my cock from my grasp. I let her take the lead, which isn’t as eager as before, but once her lips wrap tightly around me, she flicks her tongue. I push deeper until she gags while Evan pounds into her body. Her hands are fumbling over me before she finally grips my hips.

I am mesmerized by him. He is so damn ravishing—his strong body working and flexing. I slide my hand along the damp skin of his chest and feel the muscles twist and contract. Leaning closer, I wrap my hand around his throat. Evan parts his lips as his Adam’s apple slides under my palm.

He continues to thrust in and out of her. His powerful legs flexing with each movement. I feel Kari’s breath between my thighs as she pants and works my cock in and out of her mouth.

When I slide my hand between the two of them, Evan and I are still staring at one another. He sits back on his heels, repositioning her legs over his arms to spread her wider. I slip my fingers into her wet pussy. My cock twitches, jealous that he doesn’t get to fuck her at the same time as Evan . I swirl my fingers over her clit and feel her tense under my touch.

“ She likes that,” he says with a cocky smirk.

That means it feels good to him, and that is all I give a damn about right now. As I work her clit, I stretch my pinky, feeling Evan’s shaft glide along the tip, up and down.

“ Fuck , Luke !” he curses. I love that a small touch from me affects him so much.

Stretching over her, I slide my tongue along where their bodies connect. Kari’s hand moves across my chest as I sink into the taste of her. She’s different, unfamiliar. She smells like expensive perfume, clean and out of my league. I can’t help but miss the woman’s body that I do know, that tastes sweet and natural. I feel a twinge of homesickness. Then Evan’s hand grazes my cheek, and the feeling rushes away.

I curl the tip of my tongue around his girth, tasting her on him when all I want is to savor him. Envy is still churning in my gut as I try to juggle my opposing emotions.

Kari bucks up, sinking her nails into my ribs. I fucking wish she wasn’t here between us. I ease my touch and lightly lick where they are joined with the flat of my tongue, making sure to stay in contact with his cock more than her body. I need Evan to feel my touch because he belongs to me, not her. He growls at me, increasing his pace while I lap at his shaft as it passes over my tongue.

“ Are you enjoying being filled with our cocks?” he asks. She gives a moan of pleasure.

I watch a bead of sweat roll down the center of his chest. Slowly , I rise up until my tongue connects with the salty droplet and lap up the trail left in its wake. The sound rolling in his chest makes my cock twitch.

His hand creeps up my naked torso, lifting me by my chin so we’re face to face. I let my fingers dance along the hot skin at the base of his cock where my tongue was. He raises his eyebrows, and I see why he gets so much pussy. He is in his element. It’s not emotional for him, at least not this. It’s all about pleasure, and he knows how to give it. Right now, he is laser-focused on me.

I close my eyes and sink into the feel of his cock sliding along my fingertips while his fingers explore my body. It’s perfectly hot, and almost more than I can fucking take. My cock is aching so bad that if I concentrate only on him, I will come. I clench my eyes, trying to maintain control over my body so he and I can come together.

Breath swirls around my mouth, and when soft lips brush across mine, I open my eyes. Blue eyes meet mine with a smoldering gaze. He could devour me, destroy me with one kiss. I challenge him with a hard stare, daring him to follow through. His eyes search mine, and I swear my chest twists in a terrible pain. I part my lips, and his eyes fall closed as his mouth melts against mine. My body stills and the world falls away as his tongue lightly touches mine.

I reach for him, feeling his jaw work under my palm. His tongue slips around mine, slick and warm. I lean closer to deepen our kiss intent on tasting the mix of our ecstasy and need. And fuck it’s incredible. We both groan in unison as our bodies bow toward each other. I don’t know if I’m able to keep the same rhythm with my hips because they are moving for him, wanting him, and desperate to be inside of him.

I lose myself in Evan’s lips, his taste, and the scent of him. They are tender and unsure, but every moment or so they are greedy, as his tongue plunders my mouth. I ease back and suck on his lip, but he forcefully pushes his tongue back inside of my mouth, and…fuck, I want him to crawl inside me!

With desperation, I squeeze his throat, experiencing his whimpering moan with my fingers as if his voice is in the palm of my hand. He tastes like cinnamon and blue sky—endless, cobalt blue skies.

Right here, I find the two of us again, our truth, who we are, how we feel, and how our destiny is the same. This is innate. We share the same existence and soul, always have, and all we’ve been doing is delaying this thing fighting to permanently fuse us together.

His hips thrust hard, and I quickly match his pace. that’s increasing in speed and pressure. I hold Evan’s face to mine because I am never letting this kiss end. I’ve wanted this for so long. I’ve felt so much, and I know he has felt the same. It’s flooding between us like a geyser.

Our breath comes faster, and I growl at him for more. More of his mouth. More of his body. More of everything Evan . He grunts. When he does it a second time, I realize he’s pleading my name.

That’s it, baby. I’m the one you need. Say my name!

“ Luke ,” he slurs into my mouth.

Desire runs through my body like lightning as I come so hard, I lose my breath. I grab ahold of his shoulders as my body trembles violently. His mouth suddenly goes slack, and he grunts with his own release. It is as if Evan and I are being electrocuted together inside of this woman. He is suddenly leaning heavily against me. I thrust my hips one last time and tenderly kiss his soft, slack lips. My body is set free, left to his touch alone, but I’m barely aware of the movement below us. Evan’s eyes flicker open. He looks so lost, so damn innocent and lost.

He isn’t lost though. He is mine. I want to tell him as much. Tell him that I love him. I want him to know this is right and good, and not to be afraid.

A look of shock crosses his face as Kari scrambles away from both of us. She curls into a ball near the foot of the bed. Her back is to us, giving me the feeling that she’s not alright. Evan slips away and collapses across the bed, lying on his back before me. The desire on his face as he looks up my body makes my cock twitch with life.

I join him, lying in the opposite direction but close enough that our bodies touch. Our hands slide together, and we simultaneously squeeze them together. When I softly plant a kiss on his hip he lets out a soft pleasant sound. We lie on the bed, holding hands, trying to catch our collective breath.

Evan is the first to get to his feet. He removes the condom and drops it into the bin next to the bed. I slide my knuckles along the back of his thigh and over the curve of his perfect ass while I consider licking and biting him. When I glance away, Kari is sitting up, watching me.

“ Well , this was fun, but I don’t think either of you really wanted me here.” She stands hiding her breasts as if we didn’t just fuck the hell out of her. “ Why the hell did you even bring me back here?”

I reach for her hand, but she moves away. Evan drops to the bed with a bounce, tucking a pillow under his head.

“ What’s wrong?” he asks with a big grin on his face.

She shakes her head and plucks her clothes up from wherever they landed. “ I don’t really care for being used. Why don’t you two just fuck each other and get it over with? You didn’t need me here as your cum bucket.”

I rise to stand in front of her. “ Kari , that’s not what this…” But it is. I know my words are a lie before I even let them leave my lips.

“ Bathroom ?” she barks.

I look to the master, but she gives me a pissed look. Evan gestures toward the guest bathroom down the hallway. She turns and slams the bedroom door behind her. I stretch out next to Evan . He takes my hand, tucking it under his hip as if he wants to make sure I don’t pull away. How could I ?

We shift closer and bask in the solitude. His skin is hot against mine, but none of it is as scorching as his touch that is burned onto my lips. I can still taste him, and the flavor makes me a little dizzy.

Suddenly , the front door slams with a loud resounding bang. The sound echoes through the apartment, and then it falls deathly silent. Evan and I both start laughing.

“ Well damn. She turned on us awfully quick, didn’t she?”

“ Don’t Evan .” I try to sound serious. “ We should have been more attentive.”

“ More attentive? She came twice and had two cocks in her. Terribly ungrateful if you ask me.”

As our laughter fades, I push my hands through my hair, in complete disbelief over what just happened. All I want to do is kiss him again. When I look over at him, his face is somber. I reach up and brush my thumb over his bottom lip. “ Thank you,” I whisper.

He edges closer, watching me, silently asking me, so I pull him against my body and press my lips to his. His body slides over mine, and I have what I’ve wanted for so long, his skin against mine, and his mouth kissing mine.

EVAN

I shamelessly rub myself against Luke’s naked body. I’ve lost my damn mind but kissing him is everything . I hate myself for not doing it long before now. It has awakeneda vicious hunger for more. At the same time, it is so much more than that. He is my safe place. He is the one who always gave me the care I craved and the love I needed. The feeling is warm and encompassing. I sink into the feeling without hesitation because I don’t want to let go of this bliss. Our tongues twist and play as Luke leans into our kiss. His hand lightly skims down my chest causing my pulse to pound fiercely. I pull away to catch my breath, and his lips trail down my neck.

“ Fuck , Luke ,” I groan as I fist a handful of his blonde curls. His hair has always reminded me of fields of wheat rolling in waves from the wind. The way it glints in the sun and hangs in large loose curls always mesmerizes me.

He rises and moves over me, sucking on the base of my throat, causing my hips to roll upward. He groans as his hand closes around my balls and limp dick.

“ I’m so fucking glad she left,” he growls.

It’s overwhelming and wonderful, but I can’t fucking think. “ Is this what happens just from giving you a kiss?” I ask.

He lifts his gaze to me and quirks a grin. “ You have no idea what your kiss has done to me.” His voice is soft, almost reserved.

I reach up and caress his jaw with my thumb. “ It was the best kiss I’ve ever…”

His lips find mine, and my eyes fall closed. His hand continues to coax my dick to life. I raise my hips, innately needy for more.

“ What do you want, Evan ?”

I want to beg him not to make me ask him. There is something about confessing my desires that is frightening.

“ Ask me, Evan .” Demanding Luke has returned, and it sends a thrill down my spine.

I kiss him to shut him up. His fingers tease me, as if he is about to slide his finger further back, but he doesn’t follow through.

I glide my hand up his spine and spread my fingers into his soft hair. Letting my body relax, I concentrate on being in the palm of his hand, melting beneath him and letting him consume me. His warm palm slides over me and cradles the head of my dick, giving it a firm squeeze.

I want to whimper like a needy puppy. Why does he break me down like this? Why do I have to ask? How is saying it aloud going to change anything? It couldn’t possibly be more real than it feels right now. He makes me want him and then demands for me to admit it. It makes it impossible to pretend this is all his fault, that I have no culpability.

I moan, and he bites my lip.

“ Ask me,” he grits out.

I don’t though. Instead , I relax my body and kiss his shoulder. Sensing my hesitation, he glides his hand across to my hip. Looking down our bodies, he aligns our cocks so they press together. Then he caresses my face.

“ I’m sorry. I shouldn’t push.” His breath is warm on my wet lips.

No , he shouldn’t, but deep down I long for it. I always have. I have wanted him to push me until we both succumb to our deepest desires, as if it will absolve me of any wrongdoing.

His demeanor shifts, and he cradles me closer to him. Burying his face against my neck, his breath sends chills over my skin.

“ You feel incredible,” I concede.

He smiles and lightly kisses the corner of my mouth. “ So do you, baby.”

“ Don’t let go.” I move my foot behind his leg urging him forward.

“ I won’t. It’s alright, you know. Feels so incredibly good to be close to you.”

I nod because I can’t deny that. I want him to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it is amazing for me too.

“ I never wanted her between us. I only wanted this,” he says. I watch his concerned eyes search mine.

“ Kiss me…the way you wanted to kiss me when I wouldn’t let you,” I murmur.

His nose nudges against mine and the ends of his curls tickle my eyelashes. He rocks his hips forward pressing our hardening cocks together.

“ I love you,” he whispers.

Pain shoots through my chest, my body clenching with the divine feeling. “ I love you so much, it hurts, Luke .”

He caresses my chest over my heart, leans down, and kisses my skin there. His lips trail up my throat and over my chin. He lightly licks my slightly parted lips, and I rock against him, trying to feel more friction.

“ Open your mouth,” he instructs as his thumb brushes the corner of my lips.

When I do, he slides his tongue inside while his lips firmly press against mine. He cradles my jaw in his hand and draws me deeper into our kiss. He bites down on my tongue, just enough to make it stop moving. When I groan, he lets go and licks over the bite marks. He plants light kisses all around my mouth, stopping to lick the seam of my lips.

Luke is everything. My entire existence is orbiting around this man who has my heart. His kisses are sweet like ripe hay, and succulent like summer peaches.

“ I’m sorry,” I whisper.

“ Why ?”

“ I didn’t know it could feel like this. I’m sorry I was afraid. I’m sorry I resisted.”

He rolls our bodies so we’re facing one another. His fingers trail over my collarbone. “ It’s understandable. I only wanted to show you how I feel. I feel so much for you.”

“ So what does this mean?” I ask.

He looks a little disappointed but kisses me softly. I can’t help but hope he’ll never stop kissing me.

“ It means we love each other, and this is how we express that love. It means whatever we feel in our hearts. Don’t try to label it, little brother.”

I reach out and slide my fingertips over the head of his cock. He takes in a breath through his teeth. His hips rock up to meet my touch, so I stroke him.

“ Being with you the past few days has felt incredible,” I confess.

“ None more so than right now.” His lips kiss my ear and chills surge over my skin.

I let go of his dick and wrap myself around him. I indulge in the pressure of his cock against mine. This feels undeniably right.

“ I want this.” I tell him. “ I don’t want anyone to take this away from us.”

His fingers twist in my hair. “ I won’t let them even try.” Another light kiss.

There were times when I would stay at his house, or he at mine. I’d wake up to find him holding me like this. I nuzzle my face against his neck. I don’t think either of us did it intentionally. It was just the way we naturally were together. When things were rough for either of us, we would spend the night together. It was nothing like what it has been this week, but he makes me feel the same as he did then, safe and loved.

“ I think I want to take a shower,” I say after a while.

“ Can I come too?”

I smile. “ You want to wash my back?” I tease and then get up and walk across the floor to the bathroom.

“ I can wait if you’d rather.”

I look over my shoulder. “ I’d rather you get your ass in here so we can stay as close as possible.”

Just as I step into the bathroom, Luke grabs me from behind with his arm across my chest. He rubs his knuckles against my scalp.

“ Besides you’re going to be the one washing my back!” he declares.

I push away from him, and a deep laugh fills the room as he brushes past me.

I always resented that he was the tallest. It gave him better access to give me noogies and overpower me when we wrestled. He turns on the water, and the spray hits his chest. I step inside the shower as he wets his hair. He flicks his head up, throwing water over me, and smiles. When I shiver, he pulls my wrist until I’m against him under the water. He laughs as if remembering something.

“ What ?” I ask as I push the water through my hair.

“ Nothing . I was thinking about seeing you in the shower after practice.”

“ We always seemed to be the only two in there.”

“ I know,” he muses. His body is covered in soap bubbles as he scrubs his hair roughly.

I lightly touch a stream of soap cascading down his chest. “ Why didn’t you touch me then?”

He looks down and smiles, then pours shampoo on my head. He begins washing my hair, so I brace my hands on his hips.

“ I didn’t know I felt like this then, or at least I didn’t understand it. You’re my little brother, Evan . My best friend.”

“ And now? Are we going to be lovers?”

His hands still. “ We already are. Have been for a while, don’t you think?”

I glance down his body to his heavy cock that’s lengthening. I nod and swallow. He is right, we have been for a while. I am the one who put it on hold and left. I move closer and lay my head on his chest. I need to burrow as close to him as possible and rest in his presence.

His hands slide around me, and he rubs my back soothingly. I don’t know why they come, but when I feel tears building, I let them fall. Probably because he won’t notice since we’re already wet.

“ Shh , baby. I’m here.” His voice is soft and broken as if he feels the same emotions I do. “ I want to be inside you. I want to give you everything, make you feel my love deep inside your body. Connect with you in a way we never have,” he whispers so softly.

The nerves in my hips tingle with electric current. The moment he says it, I want it with all my being. I move my hands over his ass and squeeze. I want it, but can I follow through? His hand grips the back of my hair and tips my head back so I’m looking at him. His eyes search mine, waiting for my response.

“ I know…” are the only words I can breathe out.

“ I want you to say you want it too.”

I close my eyes, feeling lost in his embrace and the warm water. “ And I want to say it…” but the words get stuck, held back by a dominant force clamped over my desires.

He lets go of my hair and clasps my face in his large hand. “ It’s me. You know you can tell me anything. You know I’ll keep all your secrets.”

I blink away the tears that are mudding my vision of him. “ I love you.”

“ I love you too.” He embraces me, and our skin slides together. He sways a little with me. “ I wish I could run away with you. We could live in the mountains in our cabin together. No one could judge us. We’d be alone.”

I sink into his fantasy, but as soon as I feel content, I think about Rachel . I’d miss her.

His hands slide over me with soap that he lathers over my back. He slides his hand between my ass cheeks, back and forth. When I moan, he kisses the top of my head. My hips tilt, reaching for more.

Luke groans. “ How many?”

“ Two .” I want it to feel rough, but he remains careful as he slowly sinks two fingers inside my body. “ Gentle ?”

“ No ,” I huff out.

He moves his arm around my waist to brace me against his body. “ I don’t want to hurt you.”

“ But I want you to.”

He growls before his fingers plunge quickly into me. The movement presses me closer to him. He fucks me hard, and I find myself spreading my feet apart and arching my ass up. I bare my teeth against his neck. I need him so much. It burns and stings as his fingers roughly stretch my ass. Every few thrusts, he stops and massages me from inside. I sink my fingers into his biceps and groan for relief. Then he finger fucks me relentlessly hard and fast.

“ I want to feel this with my dick, Evan .”

I feel dizzy and hold onto him so I don’t fall. Maybe … I want to know what it feels like. What he feels like. I slide my hand down his arm and grasp his wrist. I pull his fingers from my body and press his hand against my hip.

“ I can’t take it, Luke . I feel like I’m going to detonate.”

He kisses the corner of my eye. “ I’ll take care of you.”

He always does.

He takes my hand in his larger one and wraps them around our cocks. We lean our bodies against one another as we work our hands together. I’ve never felt so intimate with anyone, so connected and real. Pressure quickly surges in my balls causing my knees to shake. He lifts my chin and pulls at my lower lip with his teeth. When I part my lips for him, he takes my mouth with his, owning me. I want to kiss him forever.

We groan and grunt as our hands make love to our dicks. I groan his name into his mouth. The next pull of our hands has me coming undone. He growls loudly as he comes too. Luke’s hips thrust up as a hot rope of his cum lands on my stomach. I feel it slide over my hand making it easier to stroke. Our hands continue even as our dicks soften.

We embrace, both breathing raggedly, shored up against the other’s body. His heart is pounding just as hard as mine, throbbing in time with our cocks. I close my eyes and imagine being like this forever. Would it be okay to feel this way? Why is it wrong when I feel perfect peace and love?

He steps us back under the water and rinses first my hair and then his. When he stops and looks into my eyes, he brushes his thumb across my brow. “ You look happy, Evan .”

“ I am.”

We kiss once more, tender and longingly. Once he shuts off the water, we fall into our own routines before bed, but when I crawl in next to him, he stretches his arm out. I wrap myself around him, and he presses my head to his shoulder. He starts to gently rock me, and it does me in.

I had forgotten that he used to do that. The rocking makes me feel dizzy, lost, falling through an endless sky, knowing I never have to land because Luke has me safely in his arms.