Chapter 18
Lazarus~
It was almost one in the morning, and though we both needed to be at work in a few hours, I just couldn’t help myself.
After taking Elisabeth up against the front door, I had undressed us both completely, then had carried her to her bedroom.
From there, I’d gone after her again and again, exploring her body the way that I’d had our first night together, and I hadn’t cared about cumming inside her.
Whatever depravity that went on between us, I felt like it was sanctioned by all.
It was also impossible to ignore how powerful this thing between us was. Though I’d never had sex without a condom before, I hadn’t lost myself because of that. I kept going out of my mind around Elisabeth because she was a powerful part of me that I didn’t know how to harness yet.
As for the tattoo, I’d gotten it shortly after college, needing something to connect me to the girl that had haunted my dreams for so long.
When Elisabeth had stopped pulling me into her dreams, I’d felt the loss significantly enough to need something permanent from her, and so I’d gotten her name tattooed on me, only I’d done it in Sanskrit to keep the secret of her to myself.
While a lot of women had asked me what it meant, I hadn’t ever told a soul until Elisabeth had asked me about it earlier.
Honestly, it’d been my connection to that little girl that’d been the push that I’d needed not to dismiss Ramiel immediately after first meeting him. Somewhere deep inside me, I had to have known that Elisabeth was Elisa, or else why would I have struggled so much being without her?
“Hmmm...” she moaned as my lips found her right hip again.
After our last round of sex, we’d taken a shower together, and having already been close to ten o’clock, Elisabeth had immediately passed out on me, and I had followed soon after, holding the woman in my arms like someone might steal her from me in the middle of the night.
Though we’d been consumed with one another, even forgetting dinner, my lips were touching her skin again because it hadn’t been enough for me.
I felt like a stone-cold drug addict, and I honestly didn’t know how I was going to get through my workdays without her.
“I need you again,” I told her as my lips skimmed the top of her left thigh. “I need you always.”
“Lazarus...” she whispered, partly in pleasure and partly exhausted.
I pushed her legs apart to make room for what I wanted to do next, and Elisabeth graciously allowed me to.
Even though she was tired and tomorrow was going to be rough, I could feel that she needed this just as much as I did, and I wondered if that was something that we’d always share.
Whenever I touched her like this, I felt her heartbeat as if it was my own, and that was a scary as fuck miracle to experience.
People said that they couldn’t live without their significant other all the time, but I feared that it might just be true in my and Elisabeth’s case.
With her thighs in my hands, I stuck my face between her legs, my tongue wasting no time tasting her for the millionth time, and not only did she still taste so sweet, but her pussy looked a bit swollen, and I couldn’t stop the male satisfaction coursing through my veins at the sight.
“I just want to kiss it and make it feel better, baby,” I said between licks.
Elisabeth opened her legs wider, giving me all the access that I needed to her, and like a good girl, she didn’t utter a word of protest when my tongue when to work everywhere.
Though I hadn’t gotten in her ass yet, it wouldn’t be long before all of her belonged to me.
The need to possess every single inch of her ate at me like a gnawing hunger that was impossible to satisfy.
When Elisabeth wasn’t with me, it felt like she was actually missing from me, and that was the very definition of feeling incomplete.
When her hands slid into my hair, I almost stopped to assure her that I wasn’t going anywhere, but her whimpers and moans urged me to keep going, and so I did.
My tongue played with her clit, danced up and down through her pussy folds, and rimmed her ass for good measure.
I ate Elisabeth’s cunt and asshole like a starved man, and I’d gladly live down here if she’d let me.
“Oh, God...” she mewled. “Please, don’t stop...”
I brought my hand in closer, letting my thumb manipulate that sweet bundle of nerves, then let my tongue go to work on fucking her pussy. While I couldn’t get in deep, I got in deep enough, and the way that Elisabeth’s hips were moving was all the approval that I needed.
“I’m cumming...” she choked out, her fingers pulling at my hair. “Oh, God...”
As soon as Elisabeth was done cumming on my face, I sat up, then flipped her over onto her stomach.
Reaching for her hips, I yanked her ass up, and she didn’t say a word as I slid my cock back inside her used cunt, the overwhelming sensation of being inside her bare something that I still needed to get used to, something that I hadn’t been able to experience that first night together.
“So good...” she murmured into the pillows, and it felt like every word that she said to me was somehow being etched across my soul. Honestly, it was also like being born again.
“You like that, baby?” I teased. “You like how I stretch you out?”
“Yes...”
Staring down at where my body entered hers, I slid my thumb alongside my cock, getting it nice and wet, then I didn’t hesitate to push it inside her ass, the grip almost making me see stars.
Elisabeth was going to be a tight fit around my cock, and I couldn’t wait.
I couldn’t wait to see every inch of my cock disappear into her ass in the same way that it did her pussy.
“Are you going to let me fuck that ass, Elisa?” I grunted, the alternating thrusts of my hips and thumb making her cries louder than before. “Are you going to let me defile you however I want?”
Her body clenched around me, giving me my answer, but that didn’t stop Elisabeth from being just as needy as I was. “Yes...God, yes...”
“Why?” I bit out, needing to hear the words. “Why are you going to let me?”
“Because I love you...” she panted. “Because you love me...”
As much as I wanted to rail her ass, I knew that she wasn’t ready yet, and I just didn’t have it in me to take the time to prep her. I needed to cum inside her again, and her pussy just felt too fucking good to pull out of right now.
“Tell me that you need my cum,” I ordered. “Tell me how much you need me to cum in this tight cunt of yours, baby. Tell me to fill you up.”
“Oh, Christ...” she groaned, her hands tightening around the bedsheet. “Lazarus, please...”
“Say it.”
“Cum in me...” she finally choked out. “Cum in my pussy...”
“Why?”
“Because I need you...” she practically sobbed. “Because I need you...”
Pulling my thumb from her ass, I grabbed both her hips, then began to rail into her, glad that she didn’t live in an apartment complex or anything like that.
Elisabeth’s cries were bouncing off the walls of her bedroom, but it still wasn’t enough for me.
There was still something missing, and I knew what it was.
The promise of forever.
My fingers dug into her flesh without mercy as thoughts of losing her began assaulting my brain, and the need to mate her spilled out from somewhere unknown, somewhere unfiltered.
This couldn’t be the end of us, no matter the mission of the greater good.
Elisabeth Batya was my greater good, and I didn’t care about anyone else.
I was ready to forsake every other person on this planet for her, and so there just had to be another way.
Letting go of her left hip, I reached down, grabbed Elisabeth by her hair, then yanked her upward, and as soon as her back hit my chest, my mouth came down on the back of her neck, and I bit her hard enough to leave a scar.
She screamed as I kept her flesh between my teeth, my dick impaling her without any thought to the damage that I might be leaving behind.
When Elisabeth finally came for me again, it was with the taste of copper on my tongue, and my entire body shook as I said, “I can’t lose you, Elisa. I won’t lose you.”
“Lazarus...” she choked out, her body holding me inside her like her soul couldn’t bear to lose me, either. “Oh, God...”
I wasn’t sure how long we stayed like that, but when Elisabeth finally slumped forward, I went with her, making sure to leave my cock in her pussy, her body completely wrapped up in my arms, refusing to let her go.
It also didn’t escape my attention how our heartbeats were in the exact same rhythm, frantic but also at peace.
After a while, she asked, “Why did you bite me so hard?”
“I don’t know,” I answered honestly. “I just...I couldn’t stop myself.”
“Are you up on your tetanus shots?” she asked, and just like that, I started laughing. “Am I killing the mood?”
“No, baby,” I assured her, chuckling. “You could never kill the mood.”
“Well, I can feel blood dripping down my back, so you’re going to have to put those rusty medical courses to work,” she retorted tiredly, making me wish that we didn’t ever have to leave her bed.
“Duly noted,” I sighed, pulling her closer. “Want me to carry you to the bathroom?”
“Of course,” she quipped, and I knew deep down in my soul that this was more than just love.
This was a fucking miracle.