Chapter 7 #2
Though he’d held his job at the mine for nearly two years he didn’t socialize with the locals.
Guests to his home were as rare as ever.
Therefore, it took him a minute before he realized that he hadn’t dreamed the voice.
When it came again with the same cautious inquiry, he tumbled out of bed, pulled on his jeans, and peered out the window. Seconds later he pulled open the door.
Pam was sitting high on the bare back of the horse that Cutter had seen grazing in the meadow a short distance from Eugene’s big brick house. She looked so small atop the horse that he couldn’t help but smile.
“What are you doing, Pamela St. George?”
“Visiting.”
“I didn’t know you were in Timiny Cove.”
“We came last night. It’s the Memorial Day weekend. There’s no school on Monday, so John drove Marcy and me up.”
“And you came all the way out here on that horse?”
“It was nice. Besides, he did all the work.”
“Does your daddy know where you are?”
“He’s off with John. Marcy’s at the house, and she knows I’ve gone for a ride. I wanted to see where you live.”
“It’s nothing like your house.”
“I think it’s more exciting, living out in the woods like this. Can I come in?”
“Not on that horse, you can’t.”
“Help me down.”
Dropping the reins, she held out her arms. He swung her down and tied the horse to the birch at the side of the house. By the time he turned, she was running up his front steps.
“Wow,” she breathed, looking through the doorway. Her eyes grew wider. “This is super!” Flashing him a smile, she stepped inside.
That eleven-year-old’s smile made him proud of what he’d done to the house.
The table was clean, sanded and polished, with a stool on either side.
The potbelly stove had been freed of its grime, the shelves around it repaired and made sturdy for the dishes stacked there.
The walls, once covered with peeling paint, had been stripped and stained.
He’d made a small bookshelf, on which rested not only books but a radio, and beneath the old loft that he’d slept in for so long, in the space where his parents’ bed had stood before he’d used it for kindling, was a large four-poster that gave his eighteen-year-old body the room it needed.
“I’ve seen that before,” Pam said, pointing to the bed. “It used to be in our attic. It belonged to Nana and Papa.”
“Your grandparents?” Eugene hadn’t told him that.
She nodded. “They died a long time ago. I never met them. I was wondering where the bed went. I’m glad Daddy gave it to you.
” She sent him that shy smile of hers. “This is really nice, Cutter. It’s like a secret hideaway in the woods.
If I had this, I’d spend all my time here. How can you stand going to work?”
“If I don’t go to work, your daddy will fire me. What would I do then?”
“Go to work for someone else. But then I wouldn’t see you, so don’t get fired.” She went back outside. “What’s in the woods?”
“Trees.”
“I know that, but are there any fields or hills?”
“There’s a stream.”
Her eyes lit up. “Will you show it to me?”
“If you wait here while I get dressed. You woke me up.”
“I’m glad,” she said without remorse. “No one should sleep away a day like this.”
“Is that you talking, or your daddy?”
“He said it first, but he’s right. Hurry, Cutter. I’m going to start off. Which way do I go?”
Cutter had visions of her getting lost. “You wait right there until I come back out, and if you don’t, I won’t take you anywhere.
” After watching her for a minute to make sure she didn’t move, he went back inside for a shirt and sneakers.
Then he took her into the woods in the direction of the stream.
It was a warm spring day. The sun dappled their path, playing through the maples and oaks that rose above them.
Cutter went first, with Pam following, and rather than talk they let the knock of the woodpecker, the coo-hoo of the mockingbird, and the rustle of leaves in the gentle breeze say whatever needed to be said.
When they reached the stream, Cutter hunkered down and, cupping his hands, sluiced the clear, cool water over his head.
It was the second best thing to a shower for washing away the vestiges of the night.
Tossing back his head, he looked at Pam. She was squatting not far from him, trailing her fingers over the pebbles that glistened by the water’s edge. “I like it here,” she said.
So did he. It was peaceful. And quiet. Taking a deep breath, he straightened and went to lean against a nearby tree while she continued to run her fingers through the water.
After a bit, she took a small pebble in her hand, stood and gently lobbed it toward the middle of the stream.
It landed with a melodic plop that sent out an echoing circle.
When the ripples were gone, she bent, picked up another pebble, and lobbed it after the first.
Over and over she did this, seeming fascinated with the way each circle spread and broke up. “Every one’s different,” she mused softly.
“That’s because of the flow of the current. If it’s a little faster or a little slower, a little to the left or the right, the ripples are different.”
“Like snowflakes.”
“Kind of.”
“Gone so fast.”
“Yes.”
“But so pretty.”
As Cutter watched her, listened to her, he marveled at her appreciation.
It was hard to believe that her family was wealthy.
She probably had a room full of pretty things all her own in Boston, and in Timiny Cove, too.
That she should be entranced by ripples in a stream—and by snowflakes and by unpolished tourmaline crystals—was a tribute both to her and to Eugene.
Straightening, she wiped her damp hands on the seat of her pants. “I have to go, Cutter.”
He led the way back through the woods to where he’d tethered the horse. When she was up on its back again, she said shyly, “I liked that. Will you take me there again?”
He nodded. Taking the reins, he began to walk her down the rutted road.
“You don’t have to lead me.”
“Just to the main road.”
“You don’t have to, Cutter.”
But he did. Pam was Eugene’s daughter; she was special. If anything happened to her, he wouldn’t be able to forgive himself. He felt responsible for her. It was a new feeling, and not bothersome at all.
She must have sensed it, because she came to visit often after that.
She always came alone, never stayed long, never made a pest of herself.
She actually seemed afraid of taking too much of his time, which was amusing since he had neither family nor friends whose company he would prefer.
He wanted to tell her to stay as long as she wanted and come back as soon as she could.
But he didn’t. It didn’t seem appropriate.
She was a little girl, seven years younger than he.
He didn’t want people getting the wrong idea.
Their friendship was innocent. They didn’t even talk much at first. They explored the woods, or listened to Cutter’s radio, or simply sat on his front porch, and Cutter enjoyed it.
A whirlwind of chatter with others, Pam was calm and undemanding with him.
He liked to think that she liked him, that she liked his home, that she chose to be with him over all the other options she had.
He knew she trusted him. He liked to think that she felt as good as he did after their visits.
Gradually they started to talk. It happened during the year Pam turned twelve, when, for several visits running, she wasn’t as ebullient as usual. Afraid that he’d done something wrong, that she was finding her visits with him a bore but didn’t know how to end them, he asked her about it.
“It’s nothing,” she said quietly.
“You don’t look happy.”
“I am.” She produced a smile, but it lacked brilliance.
“If you’d rather be back at the house with your father—”
“He’s with John,” she interrupted, the smile abruptly replaced by a frown. “When I left, they were arguing. They’re always doing that, Cutter.” She told him about it in a rush, then when she ran out of breath she grew quiet again.
He sensed that she felt disloyal talking about John, so he didn’t push. But she was back the next day, telling him a little more. She seemed to need the outlet, and though he didn’t have any answers for her, he got the feeling that she was pleased that he listened.
The proof of that came over the course of the next few months, when talking became a vital part of their relationship.
At first it was just Pam, opening up about the situation at home.
Cutter wasn’t one to open up; he’d been keeping his thoughts to himself for as long as he could remember.
But she began to ask about his life, pointed questions that were like a step-by-step guide to the art of confession.
Coming from anyone else, those questions would have made him suspicious.
Coming from Pam, they weren’t offensive.
Just as she trusted him, he’d come to trust her.
“I heard Leroy telling Rufus about something that happened at the mine yesterday. You were there, Cutter. They said that you were talking right up. Was it bad?”
Cutter shrugged. “It turned out okay.”
“What happened?”
“Jethro fell. He’s okay.”
“But he wasn’t at first. Rufus said he couldn’t get up. Poor Jethro. He doesn’t walk so well. Was it his legs again?”
“He has arthritis pretty bad. Once he’s up and standing, he’s okay. It’s getting there that’s the problem.”
“So what happened yesterday?”
Cutter recalled the incident only too well.
Tightly, he said, “Simon and John were walking by. Jethro was sitting down, taking a rest. Simon doesn’t usually say anything when he does that, because he still does his work.
But John was there, so Simon complained.
Jethro hurried to stand up. He lost his footing and fell. ”
“You helped him up.”
“Rufus said that?”
“And that you said something to Simon.”