Chapter 11
11
Nina hugged Zeke tight, coming down from the high he sent her on. A high she didn’t know was possible. A high she’d never imagined.
She buried her face in his shoulder and tried to hide the reaction she was having. The pure joy that filled her brought tears to her eyes and a flood of emotion to the rest of her. Emotion that had her overwhelmed in the best possible way.
But she didn’t want Zeke to know. He was clearly a man with lots of experience in the bedroom, and a woman crying all over him after an orgasm was a sure way to kill the mood.
“Are you okay?” he whispered against her ear, his lips so close she felt them move.
Nina nodded, not trusting her voice to answer.
“Did I hurt you?” The regret in his voice was enough to push an answer from her.
“No. Zeke, never.” She pulled back to look at him, his pain and regret clear in his eyes.
“You’re crying, angel. I did something.”
“You made me feel cherished,” she breathed. “I’ve never felt that good in my life. I’ve never had an orgasm like that.”
“Are you sure that’s all it is?”
Nina nodded, cupping his face and bringing his lips to hers. “Yes.”
“I never want to hurt you, Nina.”
“You never would.” She realized his hand was still buried between her thighs, and she wiggled against him. “You feel so good.”
“Almost carried me with you,” he admitted, ducking his head and easing his hand from inside her.
Nina moaned at the drag of his fingers over her sensitive flesh, then stared as he brought his hand to his mouth.
Two fingers went between his lips, his tongue snaking between them.
Her body shivered at the sight of him tasting her on his fingers.
He groaned. “So good.” He sucked his fingers clean, then pulled her in for a rough kiss, one that let her taste herself on his tongue.
She groaned and rubbed against his impressive cock, wanting him inside her. “Zeke.”
“You should clean up, angel. Get some sleep.”
“You don’t want me,” she said, refusing to get off his lap.
“That couldn’t be further from the truth, Nina. I want you so much I’m barely keeping my shit together. But I don’t trust myself right now.”
“I trust you.”
“And I love you for that, angel. Fuck, that means the world. But if I lose my mind and do something that hurts you, I’ll never forgive myself.”
“You wouldn’t.”
He shook his head, and she knew nothing she said could convince him. “I almost did this morning. I was asleep and didn’t realize what I was doing. I can’t control myself around you. One day, if you still want me, I won’t hold back with you, Nina. But not today.”
“What about a blow job?” She wanted to make him feel as good as she did. To return the favor.
His dick twitching against her said he was on board with the idea. “You’re not getting your mouth on me before I get my mouth on you.”
“Why not?”
“Because that’s how a man is supposed to treat his woman. You come first, always and in every way. Literally and figuratively.”
Nina chuckled at his words. “So you’re telling me you’re not dying right now?”
“Fuck no. I’m about to cry because I want you so badly, but I’ll be okay.”
“Are you going to jerk off in the bathroom?”
“No, I’m going to hold on to all of this desire and wait for you.”
“You might die.”
He barked a laugh, like it surprised him. “I might.”
“I’m willing, Zeke. I want you.”
“I know, angel. I know. And it’s a mutual feeling. But for now, we’re going to go slow. Make sure you’re feeling safe.”
“I have always felt safe with you, Zeke.”
“Good.” He tapped her thighs. “Let’s get ready for bed.”
“Can I sleep naked?” she asked.
He groaned. “You really do want to kill me.”
She giggled. “No, I just want to?—”
His lips crashed down on hers before she could finish her sentence. His tongue pried her willing lips apart, plunging into her mouth and filling her with his tongue.
She moaned and sucked on his tongue. She imagined it was his cock and swirled her tongue around it, sucking hard and dragging her nails through his short hair.
His hands cupped her ass and pulled her close enough that the distance between them disappeared. He groaned and kissed her back with the same passion.
Her body responded, soaking her channel and readying for him again. She’d never known desire like that. Desire that felt all-encompassing and so fucking good.
“When I get inside you, I need it to last. Tonight I’d be done in five seconds.”
“And you think waiting is going to make that better?” she teased.
“Fine, the second time I get inside you, I need it to last.”
She smiled at him. “Thank you for bringing me home.”
“Thank you for calling me.”
Nina grinned, knowing everything would be okay with Zeke there.
He let her use the bathroom first, bringing her a clean pair of panties and nothing else.
She smiled at him, then stripped out of her dirty clothes when he left the bathroom again. She decided to splurge and take a shower, wanting to feel clean after her orgasm. Something she wasn’t used to.
The water was warm, and the memories of Zeke’s hands were hot. She ached to feel him again, but she understood his resistance. She was used as a blowup doll, pumped full of whatever man wanted to pay for a turn with her. She needed a health checkup and probably some meds to get rid of any lingering diseases.
Gwendolyn brought a doctor in regularly to make sure all the women were clean of anything communicable. She would get mad when someone had something because she couldn’t sell them. It was a rule they needed birth control and condoms and any other protection she could come up with.
Nina was grateful for the rules after her abortion. It was painful. She didn’t want the baby, but she didn’t feel right cutting its life short when the baby had done nothing wrong. As with everything else, Nina didn’t get a choice.
But with Zeke, she had choices. She could choose everything.
Except to leave.
She ignored the thought. It was better to be with Zeke. He said he loved her, more than once, and even though Nina knew he didn’t mean it in the way she wanted him to love her, she knew he meant it.
Nina finished her shower and dried off with the thick, fluffy towel hanging next to Zeke’s in the bathroom. It was all very domestic. Sharing a bed, a bathroom, sharing everything.
It was everything she’d ever dreamed it could be.
She slid the panties he chose for her up her legs and smiled. They wouldn’t last the night. Neither would his resistance.
What the hell was he thinking? Nina walked out of the bathroom and Zeke nearly exploded. “Fucking hell.”
She smirked at him and walked toward him, slowly, with those hips shifting like she was on a runway instead of in his bedroom. “I’m not naked.”
Zeke shook his head. “You’re not naked.” It wasn’t enough to keep his dick in check. Or the rest of him. But it was fucking beautiful. She was beautiful.
Zeke stood when she got closer. She smiled, clearly aware of the effect she had on him. “Bathroom is all yours.”
“So are you, Nina.”
She shivered at his rough words, then bit her lower lip. “And you’re mine?”
“You have to ask? Fuck, yes, I’m yours. I always have been, angel.” He kissed her, then moved past her to go to the bathroom. He left the door open, not wanting to hide a damn thing from her anymore. He might not have been ready to admit he loved her, but he wasn’t hiding that he wanted her. Or that he cared about her.
The bed rustled as she climbed in. Zeke focused on using the bathroom, a challenge with an erection that would not ease up, then brushed his teeth and stripped down to his boxer briefs. Bad idea? Definitely. But he wanted to feel her skin on his and was willing to risk it.
“Are you ready for me to turn off the light?” he asked before he left the bathroom.
“I’m good. Thank you.”
Zeke enjoyed one last look of her in the light, then flipped the switch and joined her in the bed.
She curled up against his side, one hand draped over his stomach and her head on his shoulder.
Zeke kissed her hair, inhaling his scent on her. She didn’t smell like sex anymore, but he wasn’t surprised she wanted to clean up. After the things she confessed…
He couldn’t think about any of that. Not when she was in his arms and safe.
Her breathing evened out quickly, sleep claiming her. Zeke laid there and listened to her, hoping she never left him again.
He would never let her leave him again, if he had a choice. But his career had taught him not everyone had a choice.
Nina woke early, when the softest glow outside was barely visible around the room darkening curtains and Zeke was still sound asleep. She wasn’t sure what woke her, but after years of sleeping all day and being awake all night, she was not surprised she was awake so early.
She slipped out of bed and went to the bathroom, then crawled back in next to Zeke. He reached for her when she laid down, pulling her in close like he’d done the morning before. Nina sighed happily, loving the touch of his skin.
The room was too dark to explore his tattoos like she wanted to do, to read the script letters and to understand every mark on his skin. She wondered what had been so important to Zeke he felt the need to permanently wear it on his body.
She stared at his profile, wondering what he’d been through the last twelve years. The things he said to her had her feeling like he’d missed her as much as she’d missed him. Like he wished she’d never walked out that night as much as she had.
He groaned in his sleep, and shifted his hips, drawing her attention down to where the sheet lifted from his body, compliments of his very impressive erection.
Nina’s mouth watered at the idea of tasting him. Her core flooded at the thought of him inside her. She slid her hand down his stomach until she brushed over the coarse hair that led to his boxer briefs. If she couldn’t explore his body with her eyes, she would with her hand. Touching his skin and loving the dance of his muscles beneath her hand.
She dipped a finger beneath the edge of his boxer briefs, wanting to wrap her hand around him and feel his power. Even what she was doing felt like a violation of him, though. He hadn’t given her permission, so she would keep her exploration in areas he’d left exposed.
Nina’s fingers danced around his stomach, then drifted to his thighs. She wanted to know what all of him felt like. To touch every inch of his body and one day to taste all of him. She brought her hand back up his body and brushed over his flat nipple, getting a surge from his hips with the move.
She kissed one nipple and flicked it with her tongue, and he squeezed her tight, moaning in his sleep. She did it again, letting her hand slide lower to the edge of his boxer briefs once more.
“Nina,” he exhaled.
She looked up at him, finding him watching her, his brown eyes sleepy and sexy in the dark.
“You feel good.”
She teased the edge of his boxer briefs again. “Zeke?”
He exhaled a shaky breath and nodded, just once like he was unsure but couldn’t bring himself to say no.
Nina didn’t hesitate to slide her hand into his boxer briefs. She wrapped her fingers around him and stroked, their combined moans loud in the otherwise silent house.
“Fuck,” he groaned.
“Let me taste you.”
He didn’t answer, and she wondered if he heard her.
He was staring at her when she looked up at him. “Please, Zeke.”
“Yes,” he growled.
She didn’t move her hand, crawling down his body as he pushed at his boxer briefs and shoved them down his hips to free his cock. As soon as he was out, she replaced her hand with her mouth, drawing him in deep and sucking hard on him.
“Holy fuck, Nina. Fuck. Dammit, angel, this isn’t going to take long. Fuck.”
Nina didn’t care how long he lasted. The faster he went off, the more she knew he couldn’t hold back. She worked him, sucking as she pulled back and licking as she went down. She cupped his balls and tugged gently, moaning when he surged into her mouth.
“Fuck. Nina, I’m gonna come. You gotta move, angel. I’m… Fuck. Nina!”
She did not move. She refused. She wanted to taste him. To know she was the one who made him lose his damn mind as he fucked her mouth and came in thick ropes.
He twitched, whispering to her as aftershocks wracked his body. He brushed her hair back from her face and held it in one hand, cupping her jaw with the other.
She eased off him, taking a minute to swallow, then licking him clean.
He dragged her up his body, holding her on top of him as he kissed her hard. His hands were all over her, touching and molding and teasing her until she spread her thighs and rode the ridge of his remaining erection.
“You cheated,” he growled.
“How did I cheat?”
“I said I was going to get my mouth on you before you got your mouth on me.”
“You were too tempting,” she admitted.
“Same, angel. Now climb up here.”
“Zeke?”
“Panties off, ride my face, Nina. I need to taste that pretty pussy.”
“Zeke,” she moaned.
“Let me eat you for breakfast, Nina.” His dirty words were a harsh whisper in her ear. He added a squeeze to her ass, with a finger dipped between her legs. “I want to taste you and have your scent on me all day. To know you started your day with my face between your legs and to know whenever you sit down today and your panties touch your skin, you’re going to remember riding my face.”
“Zeke.”
He tugged her up, not waiting for her to remove her panties. The fabric rolled down her body as he yanked her up, and he pushed it farther as he moved her higher. When it didn’t yield, he reached between her thighs and a rip made her gasp.
“I’ll buy you more,” he growled. “I can’t wait.”
He scooted down and moved her up.
Nina inhaled sharply at the intimate feel of him between her legs. He moved her legs to the side so she could have them flat on the mattress next to his head. His hands went to her ass, drawing her down to his face.
“So fucking perfect,” he whispered. He kissed her inner thigh. “Hold on to the headboard, Nina.”
“Zeke?”
He looked up at her, his face barely visible in the dark room. “Yeah, angel?”
“I’ve never… Um, this…”
“Fuck,” he breathed. His fingers tightened on her hips, trying to move her.
“No, I…”
“I will always stop, Nina.”
“Thank you.”
“You’re in charge here. What do you want me to do?”
“I want… I trust you, Zeke. Before… It was never about me.”
“Never again, angel. This is all about you. If you’re willing to let me.”
“Yes,” she whispered.
“If you want me to stop…”
Nina shook her head. “No, I think… Last night felt good.”
“Good.”
“Zeke?”
“Yeah?”
“Make me come again.”
“Fuck, yes,” he growled, then set his lips on her and she saw fucking stars.
“Holy. Fuck. Oh my God.” She moaned as he licked her clit. His fingers teased her entrance, then pressed inside as he sucked on her clit.
Nina was positive she was going to pass out. Was this what sex was supposed to be like? Zeke was… There were no words.
He growled and urged her to get closer with his free hand.
She spread her thighs a little wider, bringing her body more into contact with his face, and he sucked hard on her clit. Nina stopped thinking and let her body take over.
She rode his face like he told her to do, without fear of embarrassment. He reached up with his free hand and cupped her breast, pinching her nipple and sending bolts of desire through her entire body.
“Zeke,” she moaned.
A bite of pain had her gasping before pleasure took over, and she flew. She held the headboard and rode his face without a care in the world. One orgasm led to another, and Zeke’s eagerness had her falling twice in minutes.
Her body, wrung out and exhausted, sagged against the headboard. Zeke eased out from beneath her and cradled her from behind.
“How are you?”
“Life doesn’t get better than that.”
He chuckled. “I agree.” He soothed her skin with a warm hand on her body. “Thank you.”
“Shouldn’t I be thanking you?”
“No, Nina. Forever I will be grateful that you let me touch you. So fucking grateful.”
“Same, Zeke. Forever.”
“There might be one way life can be better.”
“Not possible. What’s that?”
He chuckled and kissed the back of her neck. “Let’s get in the shower.”
“Together?” she gasped.
“Oh, yes, angel. Together.”
“Why didn’t you suggest that before?”
Zeke laughed again and climbed off the bed. He held his hand out for her, holding her steady when her legs weren’t strong enough to hold up her post-orgasmic body. He turned the shower on and waited for it to warm up before he stepped in, then helped her to follow him.
Nina moaned at the feel of the warm water on her back and the warm body at her front. He was right. “This is heaven.”
“Can I wash your hair?” He held up the shampoo for her to approve.
She nodded, tilting her head to soak through the long locks. When it was wet, she turned away from him so he could reach her hair.
He smoothed the shampoo on her hair, then used his fingertips to scrub it in. Small circles worked the shampoo into bubbles and made her moan in pleasure. His erection bounced against her back, but he made no move to press it against her.
When he was done with the shampoo, he turned her around and worked his hands through her hair to rinse all the suds away, then grabbed the conditioner. He smoothed that through her hair, and went for the body wash.
“Thank you,” she whispered.
He met her gaze. He nodded once.
“Are you okay?”
“I wish I could explain how big of a fantasy this is.”
“You’ve fantasized about me a lot.”
He breathed a laugh. “You have no idea.”
“Tell me, Zeke.”
He held up the loofah full of bubbles. He rubbed it under her chin. “When you were seventeen, I imagined what you’d taste like right there. If I kissed your neck.”
She gasped.
He brought the soap to her breasts. “I used to stare at you when you weren’t paying attention. It was wrong because you were so young, but I would dream about touching your body. What color your nipples would be. The way your skin would flush if I saw you naked. How you would respond to me.”
“Zeke.”
“I was never good enough for you, so I pushed all those thoughts to the side until I was alone. Until I could pretend my hand was your hand. Until I could jerk-off in the shower and pretend it was your wet mouth on me. Until I could dream about you again and wonder if I’d ever have a chance with you.”
“I always thought you were so hot,” she confessed. “I never thought you would notice me.”
“I noticed you, Nina. I wanted you. And when you didn’t come home, it killed me.”
“I’m home now.”
He nodded. “Yes, and I don’t ever want you to leave me again.” He finished soaping her body and stood in front of her, holding her gaze. “Promise me you’ll never leave me again, Nina.”
“I promise, Zeke.”
“Good, now let me taste you again because I didn’t get enough of you yet.”
Before she could reply, he was on his knees with her thighs wrapped around his neck, and she was losing her mind in the best way possible.