Chapter 2 #2
I shave the burned area, clean the wounds, dress them, and start the IV.
Protocol. My hands know the steps. The dog holds still for the needle; most strays fight.
This one watches my hands and then tucks his nose against my wrist and leans.
His ribs press against my forearm, each one distinct under the singed fur.
My free hand finds the scruff behind his good ear and scratches, slow, firm, the pressure that tells an animal’s nervous system the danger is over, and safety is right here.
“Hey,” I tell him, quiet. “You’re okay. You’re a mess, but you’re okay.”
My voice does its thing, drops a register, opens up, and goes warm in a way I don’t control and have never bothered trying to.
The animals get this version. Every clinic, every town.
The version that doesn’t edit itself. That never learned it needed a wall because nothing on this side of the exam table has ever given it a reason to build one.
The room goes quiet. Cal has stopped talking, which, based on available data, might be unprecedented.
Grady is watching my hands on the dog. The dog is pressing into me.
“Follow-up schedule,” I say. The professional voice clicks back into place like a circuit completing.
“He’ll stay overnight for the IV fluids.
Then daily for the burns—I’ll want to monitor the smoke inhalation and start treating the dermatitis.
Weekly once the acute phase resolves. He needs consistent care.
The skin won’t clear without a treatment protocol. ”
“Daily,” Grady repeats, nodding.
“Daily.”
He grins, fast and lopsided, aiming right at me. It expects results. It doesn’t get any.
“Yes, ma’am.”
The dog lifts his head, looks at Grady, looks at me, and puts his head back down against my hand.
Grady looks at the dog. Looks at me. Looks at the dog again, and something in his face rearranges itself into what I can only diagnose as bewilderment.
I scratch the dog’s ear. “You’re a mess but I’ll get you all fixed up,” I tell him again, and my voice has gone warm, the unguarded version, and the distance between how I just spoke to this dog and how I spoke to the man three feet away could probably be measured with clinical instruments.
Cal is looking at Grady. Grady is still looking at the dog like a man who’s been personally betrayed by a species he thought he was on good terms with.
The dog sighs.
Cal and Grady head for the door. Cal talks the entire way out, something about a jukebox at a bar called the Watershed, a burger I apparently need to try, and an offer to bring me coffee from a place called Peak Grounds that will “change my life.” I decline with the minimum syllables required to be polite.
Grady pauses at the door. Turns back. He’s winding up for something, shoulders square, the grin starting before the words are even formed.
“I’ll see you tomorrow to pick him up,” I say, before he gets there.
He closes his mouth. Something shifts—a flicker, like a compass that expected north and found something else. He isn’t used to the grin not landing.
“Tomorrow,” he says. He nods and then leaves.
Janet looks at me over her glasses.
“Don’t,” I say, pointing at her.
“I didn’t say anything,” she says, looking thoroughly pleased with herself.
“You were going to.”
“He’s cute,” she says.
“He’s a firefighter.”
The word lands between us on the counter like a diagnosis I’ve placed there for review. Janet waits for context I’m not going to provide. After a moment, she goes back to scheduling, shaking her head.
I clean the exam room. Mop the floor. Restock the burn kit. My hands do the work while my brain runs its own protocol: cataloging, filing, assigning a prognosis the way I would for any presenting case.
Tall. Restless. Careful hands on an injured animal. Green eyes that don’t sit still. A grin built for maximum coverage. Firefighter. The word is a presenting symptom, noted and assessed. The dog is the patient. The dog is the case file. Everything else is waiting-room noise.
The afternoon brings a terrier with a limp, soft tissue, nothing structural.
A horse owner calls about colic. I walk her through the vitals check over the phone and she calms down, and so does the horse.
And after a full day, I close up at the usual time.
Lock the door after Janet leaves. I wipe the counter one more time because the counter doesn’t need it but my hands aren’t done working.
Upstairs, the apartment is quiet. Nothing on the walls. Nothing on the counter that isn’t mine to carry out. I keep it this way: leaving is easier when there’s nothing to leave behind.
My stomach growls, so I heat up soup and eat at the counter while reviewing tomorrow’s schedule.
The mare at the Breslin ranch. The puppy vaccines.
And now, the dog. The burned, itchy, scared dog with one ear up and one ear down who pressed his nose into my wrist and decided I was safe before I’d finished my assessment.
Through the thin floorboards, from the recovery kennel: a whimper. Then another. The sound a dog makes when it’s alone in the dark and the dark is too large and there’s nothing on the other side of it.
My soup is getting cold, and tomorrow starts early. The dog is safe, warm, medicated, and doesn’t need me sitting on the kennel floor with him. He’ll settle. Dogs always settle. I’m extremely good at identifying the rational choice. Acting on it is apparently a separate skill.
The whimper comes again.
I go downstairs.
The kennel is dim: one low light, the hum of the heating pad, the faint antiseptic smell that lives in this room permanently. The dog is curled in the corner of his kennel, bandaged side up, eyes on me the instant I open the door.
I sit on the cold tile floor, back against the wall, legs stretched out.
The dog lifts his head. Looks at me. Then he crosses the kennel and puts his head in my lap. His nose tucks against my thigh and his whole body goes warm and heavy, the way animals do when they stop holding themselves together and let someone else do it for them.
“You’re temporary,” I tell him. My hand finds the scruff behind his good ear. “Don’t get comfortable.”
The dog sighs.
Tomorrow, Grady comes back. For the dog. For the follow-up. The firefighter.