11. Clara
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Clara
I’d had exactly three cups of coffee that morning, which was two more than I usually allowed myself and one less than I needed to deal with this particular brand of bullshit.
Harold Park’s corner office was everything you’d expect from a man who’d built a marketing empire from scratch.
All glass and chrome and artwork that probably cost more than my yearly salary.
He was sitting behind a desk the size of a small boat, looking like a man who’d rather be literally anywhere else.
Well, that made two of us.
“The VIP treatment stops today,” I said, and I was proud of how steady my voice came out. “I know Quin called you.”
Harold had the grace to look guilty. He was a nice man, actually.
I’d always liked him. He’d believed in Quin early, back when there was no real reason to.
When I’d turned up in his city needing work, he’d hired me without a single question and kept where I was to himself, right up until Quin found me anyway and started pulling strings.
But right now, nice didn’t matter. Right now, what mattered was that my husband had gone behind my back.
Again. Right after trying to replace my old car with a flashy SUV.
“He’s worried about you.” Harold spread his hands like that explained everything. “He just wanted to make sure you were comfortable.”
“Comfortable.” I pulled my resignation letter out of my bag and set it on his desk with a sharp slap. “I don’t want comfortable. I want to work. I want to earn my place here like everyone else. I want to be treated like an employee, not a charity case.”
Harold stared at the letter like it might bite him. “Clara, please. I promised him I would look out for you.”
“And I’m telling you that if you don’t stop, I walk. Today. Right now.” I planted my hands on his expensive desk and leaned in. “And then you can explain to Quin why his wife quit because you couldn’t treat her like a professional instead of a damsel in distress.”
The silence stretched between us.
I’d never been particularly good at confrontation.
Growing up on a failing ranch teaches you to keep your head down, work hard, don’t make waves.
But somewhere in the last few weeks, between packing my bags at 2 a.m. and explaining to my four-year-old why Daddy wasn’t coming with us, I’d found a backbone I didn’t know I had.
Turned out desperation was a hell of a motivator.
Harold stared at the resignation letter. Stared at me. I could see the calculation happening behind his eyes, the weighing of risks, the assessment of outcomes. He hadn’t gotten where he was by being stupid.
“Fine,” he said finally. “Normal workload. Normal treatment. No more VIP anything.”
“Good.”
“But Clara?” He leaned back in his chair, something almost like sympathy crossing his face. “He’s going to keep trying. You know that, right? Quin Fleming doesn’t know how to quit. It’s what made him successful, and it’s what makes him absolutely impossible to deal with.”
I picked up the resignation letter and tucked it back in my bag. “That’s his problem, not mine.”
I walked out of Harold’s office feeling something I hadn’t felt in months. Maybe years.
Control. Over my own life, my own choices, my own future.
It lasted until I reached the lobby.
He was standing by the reception desk, like his custom-tailored everything didn’t clash spectacularly with the corporate minimalism of the space.
His collar was open. No tie. He didn’t go anywhere without a tie anymore, and the notch at the base of his throat was right there, the exact spot I used to put my mouth on when I wanted him to stop talking.
He was holding a bouquet of wildflowers, the kind I used to pick for the barn dinners, the kind that grew along the fence line back home, and he looked so painfully earnest that for one stupid second my heart did something complicated in my chest.
Then I remembered the SUV. And Harold. And the months before that when I’d been invisible in my own marriage.
The receptionist was staring. Two interns had stopped pretending to work.
Of course they had. Quintus Fleming didn’t walk into a room without people noticing.
He was six-foot-two of broad shoulders and an unforgettable face and the kind of presence that made boardrooms fall silent. He was magnetic. He always had been.
I used to love that about him. Now it just made me tired.
“You can’t be here,” I said.
“I just wanted to…” He held out the flowers. They were wilting already, probably picked hours ago, probably bought from some farmer’s market on his way here because he remembered that I hated florist arrangements. “I wanted to apologize. For the car. For all of it.”
“You wanted to make another scene.” I took the flowers because they were dying and it wasn’t their fault my husband was an idiot. “In my workplace. In front of my coworkers.”
“I didn’t know how else to reach you. You blocked my number. Your lawyer keeps telling mine that you need space, but Clara…” His voice cracked, just a little. “I can’t give you space. I don’t know how. I look at you and all I can think about is how badly I screwed up and how much I need to fix it.”
For a moment, just a moment, I saw him. The real him, underneath the expensive clothes and the empire and the name that opened every door.
I saw the boy who used to race me through the back fields on horseback.
The teenager who kissed me for the first time under the stars by the lake.
The man who got down on his knees in my office building six years ago and said you will not be my charity work, you will be the wife I am providing for.
I’d believed him then.
I wanted to believe him now.
But wanting something didn’t make it true, and believing someone didn’t make them trustworthy.
“That’s the problem, Quin.” I lowered my voice so the receptionist couldn’t hear, so this wouldn’t become another piece of gossip, another story about the Fleming marriage falling apart in public. “You keep reaching in ways I never asked for. Expensive presents. Showing up in lobbies with flowers.”
“What do you want me to do? Just give up?”
“I want you to listen.” I was gripping the flowers so hard the stems were bruising.
“I’ve been telling you what I needed for years.
Not things, money, cars or VIP treatment or wildflowers from a farmer’s market.
I needed you to see me. To be present in our life instead of always chasing the next deal, the next meeting, the next thing that was more important than your family. ”
He opened his mouth to respond, but I wasn’t done.
I stepped closer, close enough to smell his cologne, the same one he’d worn for years, the one that used to make me dizzy with wanting him.
“If you show up here again. If you go behind my back again. If you try one more time to fix this with money or gifts or scenes in public places, I will make sure you never see Katie without a lawyer present. Do you understand me?”
The color drained from his face.
He should be scared. I’d spent months being scared, scared of disappearing completely, scared that my daughter would grow up watching her mother become a ghost in her own house. It was his turn.
“Clara, please.” His voice was barely a whisper. “Just let me explain.”
“Do you understand?”
A long pause. His jaw worked. His hands clenched at his sides.
“Yes,” he said finally. “I understand.”
“Good.”
I walked out of the lobby with the dying flowers in my hand. I didn’t look back.
I drove to the daycare with the windows down, letting the early summer air clear my head.
My car smelled faintly of leather cleaner, Quin’s doing, some kind of peace offering when he returned it, but I tried not to think about that.
Tried not to think about the new car seat in the back, top of the line, probably researched for hours before he bought it.
That was the thing about Quin. Even when he was wrong, he was thorough about it.
Katie was waiting for me at pickup, bouncing on her toes, Bunbun clutched to her chest.
“Mommy! Guess what! We made handprint flowers!”
“That’s amazing, baby girl.” I scooped her up and breathed in the smell of her hair, playground and finger paint and the strawberry shampoo she insisted on using. “Show me when we get home?”
“It has GLITTER.”
“Of course it does.”
We drove home together, Katie chattering about her day, and I held the wilting flowers the entire way. When we got to the apartment, I put them in water. I didn’t examine why. I didn’t examine anything.
That night, after Katie was asleep, I sat at the kitchen table and stared at the flowers and wondered if I was doing the right thing.
He’d looked so broken when I walked away.
But I was broken first. I was broken for months while he didn’t notice, and I wasn’t going to feel guilty for finally having the strength to break him back.
The flowers died a week later. I didn’t throw them out. Katie asked why Mommy kept dead flowers on the counter.
I didn’t have an answer.