16. Lachlan #3
I don't know what happens after tonight, but this is enough to live on, if I have to.
This is enough to die for.
I kiss her back, pouring all my love and longing and ten years of missing her into it.
"I love you," I whisper over and over, and I feel her mouth curve against my lips as she reaches between us, lifting her hips as she guides my throbbing length toward her entrance.
I feel my tip in her wetness again, and my balls contract, my abdomen tightening as I fight not to come here and now.
"My turn," she whispers, sinking down and taking me inside her. I groan, my hands on her hips.
"Adriana—"
"Shh." She starts to move, slow and deliberate, and I can see the concentration on her face as she takes control. "My turn, Lachlan. Let me have this."
It takes everything in me not to come. I was so close, and now she's on top of me, gorgeous and naked, illuminated in the Chicago lights.
Her hair is loose, spilling around her face, her breasts bouncing, all of her on display, and I want to fucking come.
I'm so close, and I hold it back, watching her, letting her take what she needs from me.
She rides me slowly at first, then faster, her hands on my chest, her head thrown back. She's mine. All mine, and I love it. I love watching her take her pleasure, love seeing her like this. Not afraid, not broken.
My beautiful Adriana.
Her hand slips between her thighs, and she looks down at me. "I thought about you too," she whispers, her fingers strumming over her clit. "I did this, and I—"
That breaks me. I see her fingers on her clit, my name on her hipbone, hear her say how she came thinking about me like I did for her…
and I'm fucking gone. "Adriana—" I moan her name, hips jerking, and I feel myself lose control.
I twitch and spurt into her, my orgasm tearing out of me with a force that feels like it drains everything out of me, and I feel her starting to come too.
She moans, rocking down onto me as if she wants every inch, every drop, her pussy clenching and rippling around my length and prolonging my orgasm to the point of pain.
I'm going to be sore tomorrow, but I don't care. I want her as much as I can have her, as many times as she'll let me. We come together until we're both wrung out, and then she slips off of me, rolling onto her back and breathing hard.
"Oh God, Lachlan," she whispers, and she looks over at me.
"I know." I roll onto my side, facing her, and twine my fingers with hers. "That was everything I dreamed of, Adri. You're perfect. Thank you, baby." I lean in, kissing her softly. "Thank you for giving yourself to me again."
I press my forehead to hers. "I know I took you away. But I would never take that. That's yours to give me, and it always will be."
"I know," she whispers.
We lie there for a long time in silence, my hand wrapped around hers. Then she speaks again, her voice soft and hesitant. "Lachlan?"
The sound in it makes my chest tighten. "Yeah?"
"I'm scared." She lifts her head, looking at me with those green eyes that have haunted me for ten years. "I'm scared of what Gio will do. I'm scared of this world you live in. I'm scared of what it will do to Matteo."
I take a slow breath, willing the panic down, willing myself to stay calm. "I know you are."
"I don't want him to grow up like this." Her voice breaks, and I can hear the desperation in it. "I don't want him to become a killer. I don't want him to think that violence is the only way to solve problems. I don't want him to be like—"
She stops, but I know what she was going to say.
Like me.
"He won't be," I tell her fiercely. "I promise you, Adriana. He won't be forced into this life. He can be whatever he wants to be. An astronaut, a doctor, a teacher, a fucking accountant. I don't care. As long as he's happy and safe, that's all that matters."
"But how?" Tears roll down her cheeks. "How can you promise that? You're the head of the Irish mob, Lachlan. This is your world. How can you keep him out of it?"
"Because I'll do whatever it takes." I cup her face, making her look at me. "I'll send him to the best schools. I'll make sure he has opportunities I never had. I'll protect him from this world. I promise you, Adriana. I'll protect you both. No matter what it takes."
She looks at me, and I can tell she still doesn't believe me. And why would she? Her whole life, everything she's seen has told her there's no way out, no escape, no way to live with someone who is a part of this world without it poisoning everything around her.
But I'll find a way. I don't know how yet, but I'd never make Matteo follow in my footsteps. I'll keep them safe, and I'll make sure he has choices—the choices neither of us ever had.
"How?" she whispers, and I close my eyes.
"I'll find a way," I whisper. "Just give me a chance, Adri. Let me be yours. Let me find a way to protect you both."
She's mine. Finally, after ten years, she's mine.
And I have to find a way to make sure that doesn't change.