Chapter 19 #2
Since their attention was firmly occupied, I turned and snuck out of the infirmary. I was almost to the terrarium doors when Kaede caught up with me.
“Thought you could get away from me?” Kaede matched my stride across the grassy field.
I shrugged. “It couldn’t hurt to try.”
“Nothing gets past me, Selena.”
I stopped and looked down at the white spots on my arms. “Surely, you can’t be perfect.”
“I try hard to be.”
Ignoring him and pushing thoughts of my uncomfortable differences aside, I hurried across the field to the beach. I needed a swim. I didn’t care if Odelm wasn’t here to supervise. Shucking my new shoes, I dug my toes into the black sand, feeling its cold wetness.
“Selena...”
Staring at the water, I refused to look at him. “What?”
“You know you shouldn't feel ashamed of your spots, right? Especially here. Other than Xylo and the few crew members who’ve read about humans, they wouldn’t know they’re abnormal.
All Circuli—along with many other species in CEG—have spots and patterns on their skin.
Your silver hair may arouse interest but not in a negative way.
Silver is a precious metal everywhere in the galaxy.
Not to mention, many now alter their looks with tattoos or other modifications.
I wouldn’t waste any more time feeling self-conscious. ”
I looked down and kicked at the sand as I struggled to hold back tears. Swiping at my eyes, I turned to him.
“Thank you, Kaede. You’re right. I’ve been self-conscious about them. I’ve been trying not to let it to rule my actions here—trying to start over—but it is hard to let go of so many years of prejudice all at once.”
“I figured I should say something to you. Both Wudox and Ulax males admire inner strength and beauty over what’s on the outside.
It’s the females who are the more superficial ones, who often choose their mates based on looks.
Occasionally, money or military rank is a factor, but primarily, the females prioritize traditional male beauty. ”
So, that’s why Xylo has always mentioned something about my personality or mind, and nothing about how I looked. And why both he and Odelm were so sensitive about their unusual looks.
“Thanks, Kaede.”
He nodded.
“I’ll let you have some time alone since that’s what you wanted. I need to make rounds anyway and report to my client. Page me if you need me, but I’ll more than likely be around before you do.”
At my nod, Kaede strode off, cape swaying behind him. As soon as he was out of sight, I shed my trousers and tank and slipped into the water. I knew I was supposed to wait for Odelm, but I promised myself I would stay near shore where I could easily stand if I tired.
As I swam on my back, arms stroking lazily to keep me in place, I stared up at the dome. Odelm was right about the view of space being different every time you looked. I floated, letting my jumbled thoughts drift through my mind. My pregnancy, my new mates, the ship, the upcoming arrival at CEG...
Lost in my thoughts, I was startled by sudden movement in the water around me. I gasped and allowed my feet to drop, pulling myself vertical. Water streamed down my hair and dripped on my face as I looked around. I had drifted far enough from shore, I could no longer touch the bottom.
Shit.
The source of the splashes was readily apparent. Three Ulax males in a variety of blues swam beside me.
“May I help you?” I asked, confused.
Outside of the few people who’d spoken to me, the rest of the crew acted as though I were invisible.
The center male answered my question with one of his own. “You are Master Scholar Xylo’s nestqueen, are you not?”
Eyeing him, unsure what he was getting at, I replied, “Yes. Though why is that any of your concern?”
The one on the left swam closer, and I backed away, warily.
“You chose him over one of the many available Warrior Class males on this ship? Even the princes?”
Pissed they seemed to be denigrating Xylo, I snapped, “I don’t wonder that you’re unbonded—if you think it’s a good plan to come here and pressure a pregnant female while she’s alone and relaxing.”
The remaining male interjected with a look of apology, “What they are trying, and failing, to ask is—why him? Usually, females desire males with military rank or attractive looks, neither of which Master Scholar Xylo possesses.”
Angry and unsure how to respond to these arrogant males, I could feel myself tiring as I struggled to tread water. As I tried to decide what to do and started backing away from the group, an arm slid around my chest, just below my breasts.
I gasped, filling my mouth with water.
“I believe it is time for Selena to come back to shore,” Odelm interrupted, fury filling his voice.
I slumped against him in relief.
“We were only talking to her. You have to admit you are also curious about it,” the center male said.
“It is not my right to question her personal choices or her private life. Neither is it yours,” Odelm snapped as he started swimming toward shore.
I was amazed at his strength and shocked he’d come to my rescue. When I was able to gather my breath to speak, I whispered, “Thank you, Odelm.”
He shrugged and didn’t reply.
When he was able to stand, Odelm picked me up and cradled me to his chest, carrying me to shore. As we approached, I saw Kaede, holding my clothes and shoes.
“What happened to being in charge of protecting Selena from harm?” Odelm growled. “If I had not come for a swim when Selena failed to meet me at the café for lessons, she would have been alone with those males.”
Jerking his chin toward the sky, Kaede replied, “Look up. I had my drones ready if they were aggressive, but she seemed to be able to manage, and I knew you were on your way and could assist, so no harm done. I’m not going to interfere with the strange Circuli mating rituals.
” He laughed. “At least they were smart enough not to follow you.”
Odelm set me down, and I snatched my clothes from Kaede.
“Thanks, I guess? But you know you don’t have to shoot everyone who comes to talk to me. That’s sort of extreme and frightening.”
“No. But those males snuck up on you while you were peacefully relaxing. If Odelm hadn’t been there to assist, I would’ve done so myself.”
Rolling my eyes, I shook out my clothes.
Kaede clearly didn’t understand how extreme his reaction was. Certainly, those Ulax males had startled me, but they hadn’t been aggressive. Somewhat rude perhaps and arrogantly curious about my personal life but not something worth being shot by a drone over.
Kaede’s thoughts and mood swings confused me. Almost as much as Odelm’s—but I was getting used to treading around Odelm’s triggers. One moment, Kaede was caring and considerate, the next he was argumentative, spewing rude or violent remarks—or both.
Frustrated, I tugged my clothes over my soaking wet body and shoved my wet feet into my sandals. The sandy grit made me grimace.
I tossed over my shoulder as I marched off, “I’m going back to the suite to clean up and change. I’ll meet you at the café for dinner.”
I didn’t bother looking to see if they followed.