Chapter 37
KADENCE
“Why would she do that?” I grumbled, storming into the apartment after leaving the club, completely embarrassed. I can’t believe I let her touch me in front of everyone.
It was fucking exhilarating, being open like that and vulnerable, but knowing no one could touch me but her. They could only watch. Of course, I was sure the main event was Annika on stage. When she said she liked being watched, I didn’t expect that.
“Kadence, calm down! You’ll burn a hole in the carpet,” Annika pleaded.
I had so many emotions flowing through me right now. Rage. Humiliation. Bliss. I was still on cloud nine, and the throbbing between my legs had yet to dwindle. More importantly, I felt used. She used me for her satisfaction. Was it to hurt me? Because she passed with flying colors.
“I begged her to fuck me,” I blurted, and then instantly slam my hands to my mouth. I think I was about to cry. “Fuck.”
Annika pulled me into her arms and pulled us to the couch. “God, why am I like this?”
Annika ran her hands through my hair as the boys walked inside. “It was your first time in a BDSM club. It’s very intense. I don’t know why she had you watch us, or why she touched you knowing that.”
“I liked it. Everything about it. It doesn’t even bother me that my now best friend and one of her boyfriends knows what I taste like.”
Annika blushed and Theo laughed. “I’ll be down for a threesome to help you get past Blaize.”
I rolled my eyes. “Nice try. I now know how packed all three of you are, and I want you nowhere near my coochie. Tiptoeing around Blaize to finally have her, just for her to reject me, sucked. It was like she was disgusted with me, and then she fucking kissed me.”
Drew sat down next to Annika, resting his hand on my shoulder. “Don’t take it too hard. Blaize can be intense. I know her, and she wouldn’t do that with you if she didn’t have some kind of emotional attachment to you.”
“Yeah,” Noah jumped in. “That’s the first time she’s done anything in years.”
“The last time she played was when her wife was alive,” Drew stated, and I sank my face further into Annika.
A wife?
Fuck.
I screamed into Annika’s thigh. Maybe I was being dramatic, but what else was I supposed to do? “I should’ve bought a fucking vibrator. If she won’t fuck me, at least I could fuck myself.”
“I have extra,” Annika stated.
I looked up at her with an arched brow and a perplexed look. “I know I just watched you get railed into the next century and you sucked my arousal off of Blaize’s fingers, but I don’t think we are close enough to share sex toys.”
“Not used, silly. I keep extras. I get enough pleasure from them, but God forbid they leave me all alone, I like to tease them with videos. It’s battery operated, but it’ll get the job done.”
“Yes, please, because I can’t sleep like this.” I touched myself the other night, but my fingers wouldn’t be enough tonight. Annika jumped up, scurrying to her room, and I looked at the guys. “Y’all really fuck her together.”
I didn’t know if it was a question or a statement, or if I was still in disbelief. I heard them, but I guess it was a whole different thing when I saw it with my own eyes.
They smirked. “Yeah. We fell in love. The four of us, it’s a forever kinda thing,” Noah beamed.
“Y’all get forever I get added trauma,” I grumbled. “I’m glad all of you are happy. It’s nice to see happy relationships.”
“Give yourself grace, Kadence,” Drew stated. “It took a lot out of Annika and myself to become happy. We went through a lot of trials in the beginning because of my issues. Trust. Communication. It can change the whole trajectory.”
“You think Blaize will actually open up to me?”
“If you let her. That woman is stubborn, but I have a feeling you are, too,” Drew said.
“Got it!” Annika ran out of the room with a light blue silicone G-spot vibrator with bunny ears. I looked bewildered as she giggled. Annika really was a ball of joyous energy. “You can always go for a ride with the real thing.”
“Yeah.” I pull myself up, walking towards her. “Thanks, but no thanks.” I glanced down at Drew’s covered dick and grimaced. “I don’t know how you can do it.”
Annika grabbed his dick, causing him to groan. “We were made for each other.”
“Careful Aphrodite, we’ll be up all-night.”
“I’m about to ride Drew’s cock like a pony. If you don’t want to watch, I would go to your room.” Annika giggled, straddling Drew’s lap.
“Good night!” I took the vibrator and scurried to the bedroom, locking the door behind me.
My belly rippled with butterflies. I was so turned on, my nipples hurt.
Yes, she made me come, but I wanted so much more that she refused to give me.
I didn’t know why I expected her to want more.
I wasn’t afraid of sex because of what happened to me.
I liked sex. I loved pleasure. Now that I knew what Hades had to offer, the thought of letting my fantasies come out to play was driving me insane.
I knew I could get someone else. Hell, Hunter might even fuck me if I got on my knees and begged her.
I felt like that was what she liked. To get an orgasm I knew that woman can give, I might just take the L and fall to my knees and beg.
I knew I wouldn’t do it, though. My heart wanted Blaize, but it was not beneficial for me.
Stupid fucking emotions. Getting hurt was what scared me now. Trusting someone with my body again for them to betray me in the worst way possible.
I stripped out of my clothes, opened Spotify, and played the Motionless in White radio so it could drown out my pleasure. It was not like Annika and the guys were going to pay any attention to me, but I’d like for my moans to be my own.
My pussy was still drenched like the sky during a monsoon, so I shouldn't have any issues with slipping the curved toy into me.
My finger held down the power button until small bursts of vibrations hit me.
I turned the speed up with a constant pulse hitting me, the rabbit ears attacking my needy clit.
I sank my head further into my pillow, allowing the vibrations of pleasure to hit me like an earthquake.
“Oh fuck,” I moaned into the darkness. I could already feel the tension slowly easing out of me. I arch my back, releasing a breathy moan. “Oh my God.”
I deserved the thought of Blaize, and goddammit I was going to pretend even if in the morning it will be just that…
a fantasy. I imagined Blaize on top of me, her lips attacking my throat while her fingers thrust in and out of me.
She gave me one of the best orgasms of my life, and her voice's dominance sent chills down my spine.
Come for me, princess.
The praise almost sent me to my knees. This woman would destroy me, and I would let her.
If her fingers could make me come like that, I wanted to know how her mouth would be.
I wanted to give her my body to use as she pleased, to bend to her will and ride though my pleasure.
I didn’t think she’d do it. Loving me isn’t something I wanted her to do, but I wanted her to make me feel something.
Her touch made me feel alive when I’d been numb.
I moved my hips into the vibrations, my thighs shaking as I felt my orgasm bubble in my belly.
My hands went to my tits, pinching my nipples until I felt a sting of pain.
A cry of sweet pleasure escaped my lips as my orgasm ripped through me, but I didn’t remove the toy.
I wanted to see how long I could let this pleasure go before giving up.
Fantasies and scenarios flashed through my mind but pulled orgasms from me. It was not the real thing, but it was enough to get me off.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck!” I gripped my thighs as my back arched.
“Oh God!” My clit screamed as the bunny ears dragged out another orgasm from me, and I pulled the toy out of me, clenching my thighs together as I came down from my high.
I turned the vibrator off and lay in silence, figuring out if it was enough to get rid of the need scorching inside me.
I sighed, pulling myself up on wobbly legs with the vibrator in my hand, and walked to the bathroom.
It was enough for now, but I’ve decided somewhere between orgasm four and five I would get Blaize to fuck me one way or another, even if it was one of the worst mistakes of my life.
I wanted one night with her, not a future.