Chapter 62
BLAIZE
Itold myself to look away, but I didn’t. The way she kissed the woman wasn’t one of desperation or need. It was deliberate. She was making a scene by kissing this woman in front of me to stir a reaction.
Well, it worked.
The music filtered into white noise, the patrons faded away, and it was just the three of us in my club.
All I saw was Kadence’s mouth on hers, and I felt a growing rage in my chest. The woman, Jae, was lucky I didn’t go over there and kick her ass out of my club, banning her from ever stepping foot in here again.
I couldn’t do it though because Kadence wasn’t mine.
I didn’t own her. Why was I jealous of her moving on?
I already told her I wouldn’t have anything to do with her.
Kadence broke the kiss first, pulling Jae’s lip with her.
She grinned and my hands flexed at my side.
I needed to gain my composure before I caused a scene and hurt someone.
My every instinct was yelling at me to cross the room, rip her away from Kadence, and remind everyone who I was and how I took what I wanted.
Fuck.
She wasn’t mine.
Kadence laughed as Jae kissed her neck, and her eyes found mine.
For half a second, something flickered across her face.
Surprise? Was she surprised to see me watching her or was it the defiance inside her that enjoyed this moment?
And then she smiled. She wanted me to see her.
I think that hurt more than watching her kiss someone else.
This was a new feeling for me.
I didn’t get jealous. I was thirty-five acting like I was in high school over a woman I forbade myself from chasing.
What the fuck was wrong with me? Why was she in my fucking head?
I didn’t get to stop her from doing what she wanted when I was the one who chose to keep her at a distance, even if she awoke the dead organ in my chest.
My heart wasn’t destroyed because when I saw her, I felt it spark to life.
I felt like Frankenstein's monster being brought to life the moment I saw her.
When I lost my wife and daughter, I never thought I would feel this way about anyone else, but the bratty woman made me feel alive for the first time in years.
I signed myself up for this punishment, and now I had to live with the consequences.
I watched her when she pulled away from her, giving Jae a sympathetic look. Jae’s eyes caught mine, and I couldn’t exactly read the look on her face as she listened to Kadence talk. And then Kadence scurried off towards the back rooms.
My feet carried me before rational thought processed what I was doing. There was no point in confronting her. I was letting my emotions speak before anything else. She did that to me. I was a mess when it came to this woman. It seemed the bathroom was the place we did most of our talking.
When I stepped into the women’s restroom, I locked the door.
I didn’t want anyone to interrupt this moment.
She was leaning over the sink, the water running as she mumbled something to herself.
When she heard me, she looked up, a weak glare in her eyes.
She looked exhausted, like putting on that little show took so much out of her.
“Don’t,” she said immediately.
“Don’t what?” I asked calmly as I stepped closer to her. “Talk to you? Isn’t that what you wanted?”
Her jaw set tightly. “Don’t act like you get to mar—”
“I watched you kiss her,” I cut her off, my voice low. I think I succeeded in hiding the jealous tone.
She glared at me, more fire in her eyes this time. “And? You don’t own me or my body, Blaize.”
“I never said I did.” I let the silence stretch for a moment. If I didn’t say anything soon, she would leave. Hell, I didn’t even know what the fuck I wanted to say. “You wanted me to see you. That wasn’t about kissing Jae or anyone else. You wanted to make me jealous.”
She laughed bitterly. “Jealous? Are you jealous, Blaize? Or are you tired of not having control over me? You don’t get to play this fuck ass game.”
“I’m not playing any games,” I said coldly.
Kadence looked at me. “Not playing a game, huh? Prove it then.”
Prove it.
“Kadence, I’m sorry.”
“Sorry isn’t enough,” she deadpanned. You are playing with my heart.
You made your choice. You didn’t want me.
I am not going to be stuck under your spell.
If I want to kiss someone else, I will. If I want them to fuck me, I will let them.
” She closed the gap between us, her cheeks red as she continued on.
“I am not property. I am not a quick fuck to get your rocks off. I deserve to be loved, and I am not playing mind games with a woman who doesn’t know what she wan—”
I stopped her, wrapping my arm around her waist. She froze in my arms, just for a moment. “Kadence, please.”
I took a deep breath, and I couldn’t believe I was about to do this.
She kissed Jae to piss me off, and it worked.
Jae was lucky I didn’t put a bullet in her skull for touching what was mine.
She wasn’t mine, but she could be. I could give up this desire of control and need to know who she was, and learn what she wanted to tell me.
Control was only mine if she gave it to me.
And she gave it to me when we shared our night together.
I could have her, I just needed to do this.
Slowly, I dropped to my knees.
Her breath hitched as she peered down at me. “What are you—”
“Didn’t you say the next time I touched you, I had to be on my knees, begging?” Her mouth opened before it closed again. “So, princess, this is me, on my knees. I’m…” An idiot? Vapid? A dumbass? “I am not used to feeling this. So please, Kadence. Let me touch you? Let me show you my apology?”
She nodded briefly before I picked myself up off the ground and wrapped my arm around her waist, slammed my lips to hers in a damning kiss.
For half a second she froze, and then she leaned into it, like she was waiting for this moment as much as I was.
Her fingers curled into my shirt, pulling me closer as I pushed her against the sink.
The kiss deepened, not soft or sweet, but desperate and angry. God, I missed her taste and the way she sounded. Her body fit perfectly with mine, and I wanted to bask in this feeling for eternity. This was what being alive felt like.
She broke it off before I could get lost forever, but her hands stayed on my chest and her forehead on mine. Her breathing was heavy, lips still close to mine as she tried to figure out the next move. And then she looked at me, fury and lust dancing together in her forest-green eyes.
Her hands dropped from me as she stepped to the side. “If you want me, then you choose me. You really choose me. No hiding. No fear. Just you. A confession needs action. I won’t wait forever, Blaize.”
And then she left me alone in silence.