Chapter 16
Free
I’m so fucked. I’m so very fucked. I shouldn’t be letting her do this to me. I shouldn’t be letting this happen.
“Harder, Addison. I want you to impale yourself on my cock,” I tell her. She raises up and falls back down my length, taking me just like I told her to. When she’s out of breath, I pull her back so her back is pressed to my chest, and I nip at her ear lobe.
“What do you think? You like watchin’ them?” She doesn’t answer me at first. She sits with my cock still inside of her and shudders. “There’s no shame in it.”
“Yes,” she whispers. “It’s kind of hot,” she confesses. I pinch her hip, and she yelps before turning her head to look at me. That’s when I capture her lips with mine. I kiss her, shoving my tongue into her mouth before sucking it. Her pussy clenches around me, and I almost come from the feeling of it. But I hold out. I hold out for her. Sitting her back up, I reach around and find her clit. I flick it, circle it, and toy with it until I feel her tense up. I know she’s close, and that’s why I raise my hips to meet each of her thrusts. She bounces on my cock while I play with her clit until she can’t take anymore. Then I let her come. I lean in and bite her earlobe once more before whispering in her ear, “Be a good girl and come all over my cock, Addison.” With that, she clamps down harder and comes with me. My cock jerks inside her as she rolls her hips, riding out her pleasure.
I’ve never wanted a girl the way I want Addison, and that could be a bad thing. She isn’t mine to keep. I can’t keep her. The thought keeps swirling around my head, and each time it does, I get a little more aggravated. When my cock goes limp, I stand Addison up, watching as her dress slides over her skin and drops down.
I stand up and tuck my cock back into my jeans before buttoning them back up. Then I grab Addison’s hand and lead her through the house toward the kitchen. Inside, there’s a buffet-style counter set up to keep guests fed while they’re here. I grab two plates and pass her one as she watches me warily.
“You’re mad.”
“How can you tell?”
“I just can. Why are you mad?” she asks me as I spoon food onto my plate.
“There are a few reasons,” I tell her.
“Did I do something wrong?” Now, I spin around to face her, shaking my head as I do.
“You did nothin’ wrong, Addison. It’s all in my fucked up head.”
“What is it?” she asks. I set my plate on the counter and take a good look at her. I mean, a really good look at her. She’s fucking gorgeous.
“I can’t keep you, Addison.”
“What do you mean?”
“When this is over. I can’t keep you.”
“And that makes you mad?” she asks, unsure what I mean. I sigh and scrub my hand over my face before I nod.
“Yeah, that pisses me off a little, and the fact I broke my own rules.”
“What are your rules?”
“Not to sleep with the girls on the drugs. I’m to observe, not take part.”
“And I forced you,” she says softly, sounding defeated. I huff out a laugh.
“Darlin’, that’s the last thing you would have to do. You wouldn’t have to force me, just like tonight,” I tell her.
“Then why did you do it?”
“You’re beautiful, Addison. I don’t know what it is about you that gets me hard or makes me think things. I can’t explain it.”
“You barely know me.”
“We’ve talked every day about somethin’. I feel like I do know you.”
“I feel the same way, Free.”
“But I can’t keep you, Addison, as much as I think I want to.”
“Why not?”
“You have a life. Rather, had a life before I stepped in.”
“Not a very fun one.”
“You think this is fun?” I ask, wondering where her head is.
“It isn’t hurting me. I’d say it’s probably the most fun I’ve had in a long time.” Now, I step into her space, caging her.
“Think very hard about what you’re sayin’ to me, Addison. I’m not a man who lets go easily.”
“Maybe I don’t want you to let go,” she retorts, nearly breaking all my self-control.
“You don’t know what I do. You don’t know who I am.”
“Then tell me.”
“I can’t. Not right now,” I tell her. I can’t blurt out I’m a killer to her here at my brother’s party. I can’t risk her running from me. I can’t risk her taking off here.
“But you will?”
“One day.”
“Then that’s good enough for me, Free.” It’s good enough for her. I can’t believe she just said that to me, of all people. To a man who kills when needed. To a man who could ruin her forever.
“It shouldn’t be, Addison. You should want more in your life,” I tell her before she leans in and brushes her lips over mine. She kisses me, and I let her. Fuck, her kiss is something I could get addicted to.
I let her keep kissing me until we’re both nearly breathless, and I can’t keep my hands off her. I tug at her dress, needing her again. I haven’t had this reaction to a woman in a long time.
I hike her dress up once more, knowing she isn’t wearing panties now.
“I’m gonna fuck you hard and fast,” I warn. She nods her head as I spin her around and shove her onto the counter. Then I pull my cock free and do exactly what I said I would. I fuck her hard and fast. Why does she play with my mind the way she does? Why does she feel like she was made for me? I don’t know why I can’t get past these feelings, but I can’t. And I don’t know if I want to.
I take Addison hard, my cum already sticking to her sweet thighs. I fuck her hard and fast, like promised, until I feel my balls draw up, and I come inside her. She cries out my name, and it’s the best sound I’ve heard.
I pull out of her and pull my jeans back into place as she lies there breathless. I chuckle and stand her up, pulling her toward me and into my arms. Her head drops onto my chest, and I hold her tightly.
“I don’t know what to say,” she whispers.
“Don’t say anything. Not now.” She nods her head. We stay like this until my brother comes into the room.
“What are you doing?”
“Gettin’ food,” I tell him, finally pulling away from Addison. She grabs her plate and goes about getting some food as Jamie looks between the two of us. He grunts once as I eye him.
“You got somethin’ to say?”
“You never brought a girl to the parties here. Why?”
“Never wanted to.”
“And now you do?”
“Now I do,” I tell him.
“Uh-huh. And she’s different?” he asks as Addison stands across the room with her plate in hand. I watch her pick at her food as Jamie keeps talking.
“What’s the difference, Jamie?”
“I’m just curious. You bought her, Free. She isn’t going to want to stay with you. You know that, right?”
“What’s the fuckin’ difference? What do you care?”
“I don’t want to see you get hurt, brother. We’re family.”
“And I’m fine, Jamie. Don’t get things fucked up. We fucked, that’s it.” That’s not all it was. I fucked her three times. I broke my own goddamn rules for this girl. She isn’t just a nobody, not anymore.
“Are you sure that’s it?”
“Yeah. I’m sure.” He reaches over and slaps a hand on my shoulder before nodding his head.
“As long as you’re sure,” he says. I nod my head and grab my plate filling it up with food. Then, I walk over to Addison and motion for her to follow me to the table. We sit down and eat in silence for a long time, listening to the sounds of fucking coming from the other room.
“Does it bother you?” I ask her, noticing how she’s squirming around her chair.
“What?”
“Hearin’ them fuckin’ in the next room.”
“A little.”
“You wanna go?” I ask her. She nods her head, and I stand up, offering my hand. Addison slips her hand into mine, and I pull her to her feet. We have to walk back through the other room to get to the door.
I lead her through the room of sex-induced haze and out the front door.