Chapter 2
After a delicious dinner of roasted chicken, potatoes and stuffing that Hope had made for them, Paul took a cold beer to the back steps that overlooked the cabin where Hope and Ethan lived.
With Ethan’s pumpkin successfully carved and Paul’s mother in bed, Alex and Jenny gone to move a few more things into the new house, and with no meetings in town tonight, Paul found himself with a rare moment of idle time.
He liked the stargazing back here. Out front, the security lights from the store and gardens made it tough to see much of anything. But the view from the back of the house was spectacular, especially in the clear September sky.
Hope and Ethan had fallen into the habit of joining them for dinner, which made for a fun gathering at the end of every day. It was so much better to have Alex, Jenny, Hope and Ethan around to help with Marion. Before they’d arrived, he’d been all alone with their mother’s deteriorating condition.
Asking Alex to come home had been one of the most difficult phone calls Paul had ever made. But he’d needed his brother’s help and support with their mother and the business he was trying to keep afloat while also trying to care for Marion.
It was better now that he had all kinds of great help, but each day was still filled with the despair that came with watching a loved one become someone you don’t recognize—and who doesn’t recognize you.
Now he also had a bunch of questions about what Ethan had let slip earlier. He’d hoped to get a chance to talk to Alex about it, but he hadn’t had a moment alone with his brother. He’d talk to him tomorrow. Not that he thought they had anything to fear from Hope.
She was doing an amazing job with their mom, and for the first time since Marion’s condition had worsened, Paul felt like they had things under control—for the most part anyway.
No, he had to play this carefully. If he pried into her life and pissed her off, she might leave them, and that would be the worst thing that could happen.
Paul lived in mortal fear of driving Hope away. The thought of losing her help with their mom was unthinkable. Besides, she and Ethan had begun to seem like part of the family, and he wanted them to feel at home here.
“Beautiful night,” Hope said from the porch of the cabin.
Paul hadn’t realized she was there. With the lights off in the cabin, he couldn’t see a thing in the darkness. “Sure is. Best time of year for stargazing.”
“I love it here. It’s so beautiful.”
“I’m glad you like it. I was just sitting here thinking that I can’t recall how we ever got by without you.”
“Dementia is such a bitch.”
“It certainly is. Every time she mistakes me for my dad…”
“My heart breaks for you, Paul. It’s got to be so hard.”
The empathy he heard in her voice wrapped around him like a warm blanket. “She and my dad were great together. Still holding hands after thirty years. Sometimes I think his death triggered her dementia. It’s like she needs to forget he’s gone or something.”
“Grief is a complicated emotion, especially when coupled with dementia.”
“Alex and I had to stop correcting her every time she asks for Dad. We can’t stand breaking the news to her over and over again. It’s like she loses him every time.”
“You guys have done such an admirable job of dealing with it for so long.”
“We’ve done the best we could, but we were just getting by until you came along.”
“I’m glad to be able to help. And I have to thank you, as well, for the time you spend with Ethan. He’s really blossomed here, and a lot of that is thanks to you.”
“It’s certainly no hardship to hang out with him. He reminds me a lot of me when I was his age.”
When Hope’s cell phone lit up next to her, he could see her sitting on the porch with half a glass of wine next to her. She picked up the phone to read the text. “Oh, damn.”
“What’s wrong?”
“It’s from Katie Lawry. Lisa has taken a turn for the worse. They don’t expect her to make it through the night.”
“Oh God.” Lisa Chandler, a single mother on the island, was in the final stages of lung cancer, and Hope had been helping Katie and Mallory Vaughn, both nurses, with Lisa’s hospice care. “That was fast.”
“I know,” she said with a deep sigh. “I hate to say it’s merciful.”
“Her poor kids.”
“Thank God for Seamus and Carolina. They’ve really stepped up for the boys. Dan Torrington was there the other day to set up a custody agreement for them to live with Seamus and Carolina afterward.”
“Such a tragedy.” Paul took a drink from his beer as the silence stretched between them. “Do you want to go over there?”
“I can’t with Ethan asleep.”
“We could bring him over here. I’d be happy to have him if you want to go.”
After another long pause, Hope said, “Are you sure? I’d like to be there for Lisa, as well as Katie and Mallory.”
“Of course. It’s totally fine.”
“If you’re sure…”
Paul got up and crossed the yard to Hope’s front porch. “I’ll carry him for you.”
“Oh. Okay. Thanks.”
“No problem.” Paul followed her inside the cozy cabin.
Hope turned on a lamp in the living room and then led him to Ethan’s bedroom.
He resisted the temptation to try to see into her room across the hall. By the glow of a Spider-Man night-light, Paul lifted Ethan from his bed and headed for the door.
When they reached the living room in his house, Hope produced Ethan’s pillow, blanket and well-loved teddy bear. They worked together to make Ethan comfortable on the sofa.
“Are you sure about this, Paul?”
“Totally fine. Go be with your friends. I’ll be here with Ethan.”
“Thank you. I really appreciate it.”
“I’m sorry about Lisa. She’s a good person.” Lisa had worked for them in the retail store for two summers years ago. He’d been profoundly saddened to hear about her illness.
“Yes, she is. You have my number if you need me.”
“We’ll be fine. Go do what you need to.”
She nodded. “Thank you again.”
“No problem.”
After she left, Paul went into his room to change into pajama pants and a T-shirt. He brushed his teeth and then went to the living room to stretch out on the other sofa. If Ethan woke up, he wanted to be there so he wouldn’t be afraid.
Paul turned off the light and tried to make himself comfortable on the sofa. He was on his way to sleep when Alex and Jenny came in giggling and whispering. She let out a squeak of laughter when Alex wrapped his arms around her and lifted her, carrying her the rest of the way to their room.
Long after the door closed behind them, Paul was awake, staring into the darkness, wondering how his life had been reduced to nothing more than work and endless responsibility.
The next thing he knew, he was awakened by a sound that had him sitting up and wiping the sleep from his eyes to see Hope in the pre-dawn darkness. “Hey.”
“Sorry to bother you,” she whispered. “I was going to try to take Ethan home.”
“Are you okay?”
“I… Lisa died at four a.m.”
Before he took a second to think about what he was doing, Paul stood to hold her while she cried. He guided her to the sofa where he’d been sleeping.
She cried silently, sobs shaking her shoulders.
Paul rubbed her back in small circles while trying not to notice how amazing she smelled or how perfectly she fit in his arms.
“I’m so sorry to lose it,” she whispered.
“Don’t be.”
“It’s just… What happened to her… It’s my worst nightmare as a single mom.” She shuddered as another sob echoed through her. “My heart breaks for those poor little boys. Their lives will never be the same.”
“It’s so sad. She was lucky to have had you and Katie and Mallory at the end.”
“We did what we could to make her comfortable.” She wiped the tears from her face. “I shouldn’t be crying all over you. You’re my boss.”
“Come on. I thought we were friends by now.”
To his dismay, she started crying again. “Hope…” He hugged her to him as she continued to sob.
“God, this is mortifying.”
“No need to be mortified.”
She raised her head from his chest and stared at him. In the pearly light, he watched her zero in on his lips.
His heart stopped while he waited to see what she would do. He had no idea whether he should pull her closer or push her away.
She solved the problem for him when she laid her lips on his.
For a second, Paul was too shocked to react, but then instinct kicked in and the long dry spell was forgotten. He cupped her face and tipped his head, wanting to delve deeper.
Hope moaned and then her hand was in his hair, pulling him closer.
A thousand reasons why this was a bad idea flashed through his mind with machine-gun speed, but that didn’t stop him from lying back on the sofa and taking her with him. Their bodies came together in the ideal position for much more than kissing. Her tongue rubbed against his, hungry and needy.
Then she was pushing him away, struggling to break free.
Paul released her immediately while his reawakened libido tried to catch up with the change in plans.
“That… That shouldn’t have happened.” Her hand trembled as she covered her mouth.
“Hope—”
“No, don’t say anything. Please, don’t say anything.” She got up and slid her arms under Ethan before Paul could offer to do it.
He got up to open the door for her.
She breezed past him without another word.
Paul stood in the door, watching until he saw lights go on in the cabin.
Then he closed and locked the door, leaning against it, trying to find some composure.
His lips were still tingling as he grabbed his pillow from the sofa and went into his room, where the sheets on his bed were cold and unwelcoming.
“What the hell just happened?” he whispered.
Was she attracted to him, or had she been using him to ease the ache of her loss?
Had that kiss been the start of something, or would it only lead to awkwardness between them?
God, that would suck. He saw her every day.
She worked for him, for Christ’s sake, and for that reason, his father would have been appalled by his behavior.