Chapter 17
Seventeen
Violet
We had been in the store long enough that I shouldn’t have still been embarrassed, but every time Bella or Kensy held up a piece of sexy lingerie, I couldn’t help but blush.
“This would look hot on you,” Bella said, lifting the black— whatever-the-hell-it-was—thing in front of her and looking at me.
“I don’t even know what that is,” I admitted, tugging my lower lip between my teeth as she held it against her body.
“It’s basically a bodysuit with crotchless panties,” Bella explained, spreading the fabric with her fingers to show me.
“Umm... yeah. I don’t know where I would ever wear that,” I replied with a nervous laugh.
“It doesn’t matter where you wear it,” Kensy said with a sing-song tone as she held up two other pieces of lingerie. “It matters who you wear it for. From what you’ve told us, I can guarantee that these will drive them out of their minds.”
On the way to the store, I talked to them about everything that had happened between the guys and me.
They gasped when I told them about me making the first move and kissing Enzo, and giggled when I told them about the whole towel incident with Asher.
It was nice being able to be myself and talk to them about what I was feeling, especially since I hadn’t been able to wrap my head around it myself.
I knew that I wanted to cross that line with Asher and Enzo, but felt limited by my past and the nervous girl I used to be.
Not only that, but both guys seemed quite rigid about allowing me to do anything if they thought that I might regret it.
While I understood where they were coming from and admired the amount of respect they showed me, that didn’t quell the ache I felt every time I was around them.
“I could walk around the house in any of those, and they still wouldn’t touch me,” I said, pulling my face to the side in disappointment as I put my hands on my hips.
Bella looked sad for me as she put her lingerie back on the rack, but Kensy had a look of determination that I hoped to have myself one day. I hadn’t known her long, but she struck me as the kind of person who didn’t stop trying until she got what she wanted. I wanted to be her someday.
“Baby steps, my friend, baby steps,” Kensy said as she looped her arm through mine and led me to the dressing room.
I tried on several outfits, surprised when I didn’t feel like I would die letting Kensy and Bella see me in them.
That had to be a step in the right direction, though I didn’t try on anything too revealing.
But it was still a huge step for me, given that I had never purchased lingerie like this before.
Sure, I’d worn matching bras and panties for Jared before, mainly for our anniversary or his birthday, but never anything like this.
“What do you think?” I asked both of them as I stood in front of the full-length mirror, as we huddled in the small area outside the dressing rooms. “Should I get this one, or the red one?”
I ran my hand down the soft black fabric and felt a shiver run through me at the thought of it being one of the guys touching me instead. I immediately tried to think of something else before the girls noticed the blush flushing my cheeks.
“I vote for both,” Bella said with a proud smile. “They are buy two get one free, though. You’d still have one more you could get. Maybe that pink one you liked?”
“Is the pink too nice though?” I asked, scrunching my face at the thought. “I don’t want to look like a good girl.”
“Pink can be good or bad. Jones loves when I wea—” Bella started before Kensy shook her head and stopped her.
“Let’s try not to traumatize her just yet,” Kensy teased. “How about that other black one you liked? The one with the corset top that laced up. Your boobs looked amazing in that.”
I felt my cheeks heat again, this time at the compliment she had so freely given me.
I nodded and headed back to the dressing room to change.
Before I walked out, I looked at the price tags, swallowing hard when I realized how much I would be spending.
While the guys had made no comments about me needing to leave anytime soon, I felt bad and irresponsible for spending money on lingerie when I could be saving up to get my own place.
I found Kensy and Bella standing in the toy section, looking at a full wall covered in an assortment of dildos. I tried to pretend I didn’t see them as I made my way back to the racks where I had found the lingerie I was going to put back.
“Over here, Vi,” Kensy called, making sure I heard the tone in her voice. “And bring those outfits with you. I’m buying them.”
I groaned and tried to pretend I hadn’t heard her as I snuck around to put them back.
“I’m not kidding,” Kensy said, this time loud enough to draw the attention of a few people as Bella headed my way with a soft look.
“She really will make a scene,” she teased, taking the outfits from me. “Come on, I want to show you a few toys that I really like.”
“I don’t know that I should be buying any of this,” I whispered as I allowed her to guide me over to the section where Kensy was laser-focused.
“Not those,” Bella said, immediately pulling me away with a giggle.
“Was that one seriously twelve inches?” I asked, whispering so loudly that Bella giggled.
“Yeah, you’re not ready for those yet.” She stopped in front of a rack filled with different vibrators and smiled when she picked up one that looked like a rose.
“Not that I have experience with this stuff, but this is definitely not what I had in mind when you said toy,” I said, laughing nervously. “Is this like for the bathtub or something?”
I tried to turn it around in the package to get a better look.
“You can use it in the bath if you want.”
“What does it even do?” I held it up to the light and looked harder, trying to figure out what was so great about it.
“Trust me, it will do all the things you need it to do,” Bella said with a wink before grabbing a hot pink mini vibrator from the shelf. “And this one will do whatever that one can’t do.”
I held it and stared at both of them, wondering if there was something I was missing.
“Asher has a giant...” I looked around nervously before lowering my voice. “Penis. It’s ummm... it’s a lot bigger than...”
Bella’s eyebrows lifted as a full grin spread across her face.
“Very nice,” she said, nodding her head.
“I just worry that this,” I paused, holding up the vibrator, “isn’t going to do what Asher can do. There is quite a bit of a size difference.”
Bella lifted her hand to hide her laughter, but failed.
“That is not meant to replace either of them, though I am relieved that Asher is well-equipped. My guess is that Enzo is, too, based on what you told me about the bulge after you kissed him. This isn’t for you to fuck yourself with, though you could if you wanted to.
It’s for clitoral stimulation while they fuck you. ”
My eyes widened as I looked from her to the toy in my hand.
“Wait—what?”
She nodded again, her smile still plastered to her beautiful face.
“Yep. You can use both of the toys on your own, but I find the bullet vibrator to be more fun when it's used during sex. The nice thing is that you can try it however you want and see what you like best. Though I would say maybe don’t use it the first time you do double penetration, as that might be too much—”
She stopped talking and pressed her lips together as she observed the sheer look of terror on my face.
Double.
Penetration.
As in two cocks inside of me at the same time.
I shook my head, trying to figure out how it was physically possible as she linked her arm through mine and led me to the cash registers.
Kensy met us up there, and I vaguely recalled trying to give them my credit card, only for Kensy to smack my hand away.
But everything after that was a blur as I focused on that shocking bit of information. Was that what they meant by sharing?