Chapter 19 #2
“Griz.” I kept my voice low because I had employees on the other side of that door. “I enjoyed my time with you for real. In another life, hell yeah, I would choose you but I can’t right now. Im getting married. This whole thing was wrong I need you to respect—”
“You was sneaking on the phone at one in the morning to call me,” he said. Simple. Flat. “Don’t stand here and tell me what you told yourself last night like I wasn’t on the other end of that call. You like playing games and that’s what we not gone do.”
I opened my mouth and closed it.
“You don’t have a choice in this,” he said.
He wasn’t aggressive about it, wasn’t raising his voice, wasn’t performing anything.
He said it the way he said everything, like it was already done and he was just informing me of the facts.
“I’ve already made up my mind and I’ve made up yours too. You’re going to be with me.”
“That’s not fair to him,” I said.
“I don’t give a fuck about him.”
“He hasn’t done anything—”
“I said I don’t give a fuck about him Ivy.” He looked at me steady. “The only person in this conversation I care about is standing right in front of me. Now we can keep going back and forth or you can eat your food.”
I stood there looking at him and trying to find the part of myself that had made all those promises last night. The rational part. The part that knew better.
It was there somewhere. It just wasn’t very loud right now.
“You can’t make decisions for my life,” I said, but even I could hear that the heat behind it wasn’t what it needed to be.
He stepped toward me and I backed up one step before I caught myself and stopped. He kept coming until there wasn’t much space left between us and then he reached down, put both hands under my thighs, and lifted me up onto my desk like I weighed nothing. Sitting me on the edge.
I grabbed his shoulders out of reflex.
He pushed my dress up with both hands, slow and deliberate, and looked at me the whole time he was doing it. I started to say something, but he dropped down in front of me. His head dropped and his mouth found me before the words came out and everything I was about to say dissolved completely.
I grabbed the back of his head and pressed my lips together hard to keep any sound from getting through that door.
I had twelve employees ten feet away and a training session that was supposed to resume in fifteen minutes and none of that information was doing anything useful for me right now because this man was taking his time eating me like we were the only two people in the building.
He slipped two fingers in and kept his mouth where it was, I had to dig my nails into his shoulder, stare at the ceiling and breathe through my nose because if I didn’t, I would make a sound that would travel through walls.
He had me shaking in less than five minutes.
When I finally came down I was gripping the edge of my desk with both hands trying to remember what my own name was. He stood up straight and looked at me and I looked back at him and I heard myself say something I had not planned to say.
“Please. Fuck me.”
He reached down, pulled his dick out and I watched him stroke it.
It looked so damn good that I wanted to taste it.
He walked up to me and rubbed the tip on my clit and I immediately gasped, then I watched him stop.
Pull back. Adjust his clothes back into place calm and unhurried like he hadn’t just taken me apart on my own desk.
I wanted the dick so bad, I was ready to beg.
“What—” I started.
“Nah,” he said.
I stared at him.
“When you stop being hardheaded,” he said, “you might get it again. Maybe.”
He turned around and unlocked my office door and pulled it open.
I sat there on my desk with my dress still slightly displaced and my whole body vibrating. I watched him walk toward the front of the office like he was leaving a business meeting. Cool. Unbothered. Like none of what just happened in the last few minutes had touched him at all.
I slid down from the desk and fixed my dress and went after him because I was not about to let him just walk out of here without—
The front door opened from the outside at the exact moment Griz reached it from the inside.
Brendon walked in.
He had a bag of food in his hand and he was already smiling before he fully registered what he was walking into.
Griz stopped walking and looked at him, and I watched something pass across Griz’s face that wasn’t anger exactly.
It was colder than anger. He held Brendon’s eyes for exactly two seconds with a look that could have meant a hundred things, then walked past him and out the door without a word.
Brendon turned and watched him go, then turned back to me. “Who was that?”
“Client,” I said. The word came out smooth and immediate.
Ashley had both hands over her mouth. Savannah was looking everywhere except at me.
“I was in the area,” Brendon said, holding up the food bag, already moving past it. “Thought I’d come have lunch with you.” He looked around and smiled. “I know you’re in the middle of training but I figured we could eat in your office.”
“Let’s use the break room,” I said. After what had just gone down in my office, I wasn’t about to disrespect my man like that.
He nodded like that made perfect sense and followed me. I felt Ashley’s eyes on my back the entire way.
When Brendon left, I had to explain to my girls what had happened when they left that bar that night.
Of course they judged me, and told me that I was playing with fire.
Savannah was more open to the fact of me being with Griz, she liked the way he moved and said that she could tell he didn’t play about me.
Ashley was scared of the outcome and felt bad for Brendon. Hell, so did I.
They both remembered me talking about Griz and wondering where he was in life, so this was shocking to them, that he walked into the exact bar that we frequent. After he just blew my mind in my office, I didn’t know what the fuck I was going to do. Hell, I needed to smoke.
And that was another thing. I smoked occasionally to ease my mind, I could never tell Brendon that.
I had to hide it, and sneak around just to be able to relax my nerves.
He’d look at me it’s less than a woman, but with Griz, I could just be myself.
Yes, that was something small, and maybe I was finding anything to complain about.
But the two men were just totally different.
And I was totally different with both of them.
This shit that had just happened here today had put a little fear in me.
Griz popping up, then my fiancé immediately after.
I could have gotten caught and my world would be upside down.
Even knowing this, even with my heart in the pit of my stomach, I knew that I was still gonna see Griz again.
One thing I had always pride myself on, was being a woman of my word.
Now I was a damn liar. I kept telling this man that I was done with him, that we couldn’t do this again, but the way he just teased me in my office, the way he just ate me until I almost screamed…
I know that I had lied yet again, because I needed to see him immediately.
He was about to finish what he had started. I needed to feel him.