Chapter 8 Cash
Chapter eight
Cash
The fence post tilts left despite Sloane's best efforts, and I brace my boot against the base to hold it steady while she packs dirt around the hole. Sweat runs down her spine, darkening the back of my shirt that she’s wearing.
She's been arguing with this post for the last ten minutes like it personally insulted her.
"You're fighting it instead of working with the angle," I say.
She looks up, hair escaping her ponytail in copper strands that catch the morning sun, and her grin is competitive in a way that makes me too warm. "I know what I'm doing."
I crouch beside her, our shoulders brushing, and cover her hands with mine. "Here. Feel that? You want it firm enough to hold but loose enough to settle."
We pack the dirt together, and the contact sends heat straight to my cock. Her breathing changes, going shallow and quick, and when she turns her head, our mouths are close enough that I can smell coffee and toothpaste.
"Showoff," she murmurs.
"It’s competence." I don't move back, just stay there with my hands over hers and the sun climbing higher while the post settles into place. "There. Now it'll hold."
She sits back on her heels, wiping her palms on her jeans, and the smile that spreads across her face is open in a way that would've terrified her a month ago.
Standing, she offers me her hand, and I let her pull me up even though we both know I don't need the help. It’s just an excuse to touch, to feel her palm warm against mine.
"We need to talk about the expansion," she says. She’s been working on it daily for a month, putting the same focus into something meaningful that she put into the career that almost broke her.
"Now?" My thumb finds her pulse point, counting the steady rhythm.
"The conference call's in twenty minutes." She checks her watch, then looks back at me with vulnerability flickering across her expression before she can hide it. "I'm nervous."
"Don't be." I tug her closer until there's no air between us, my other hand finding the small of her back. "They're going to say yes."
"You don't know that."
"I know you're good at this. I know we've got proven results and a three-month waitlist." My palm presses against her spine, feeling the warmth of her skin through the cotton. "And I know you're going to get on that call and convince them the same way you convinced me."
"I didn't have to convince you of anything." Her hands slide up my chest to link behind my neck. "You’d already decided."
"Seventeen years ago." The confession is truer than anything I’ve ever said. "The second you stayed those three extra days."
Her eyes go soft, and she rises on her toes. I meet her halfway, kissing her slow and deep while the fence post stands straight behind us and the morning heat builds around our bodies. When she pulls back, her pupils are dark and her breathing is uneven.
"We should go," she says, but she doesn't move.
"Yeah." I don't let her go either, only stand there holding her while the sun climbs higher and reality waits. "We should."
Inside the house, our house, with her clothes in half the closet and her laptop on the desk by the window, she heads to the kitchen. I follow, leaning against the doorframe to watch her pour water, drink half the glass, and set it down with shaking hands.
"Hey." I turn her to face me and frame her jaw with both palms. "Talk to me."
"What if I mess this up?" The question is small, almost scared.
"You won't. You improved Lucinda’s corporate wellness program, and it’s going to help people the same way you needed help.
That's purpose, not luck." My thumbs stroke her cheekbones, feeling the heat in her skin.
"I see a woman who’s finally stopped running and started living," I tell her.
"Someone who chooses the sunset over an inbox because she finally knows what’s worth building. "
Happy tears gather in her eyes without falling, and her hands come up to grip my wrists where they frame her face. "I'm still nervous."
"I know." I kiss her forehead, breathing in the scent of her shampoo mixed with Texas ranch dust and sunshine. "But you're doing it, anyway. That's what makes you brave."
The timer on her phone goes off. Nine o'clock conference call in five minutes.
She takes a breath, squaring her shoulders, and I watch the transformation happen. The vulnerability tucking itself away behind competence, her spine straightening, voice shifting to professional confidence when she answers the phone and puts it on speaker.
Except her hand finds mine under the table and holds on tightly.
The call ends with a contract for twelve executives over six months.
Through the window, I can see the round pen where I've been working the new rescue mare, a skittish thing, abandoned outside Saddlehorn a couple weeks ago, learning to trust again.
Sloane would see herself in that horse if she looked.
The way she carries her weight wrong with the whites showing in her eyes and the gradual softening when she realizes no one's going to hurt her.
When she hangs up, she turns to me with wide eyes.
"We did it."
"You did it." I pull her onto my lap, and she comes willingly, straddling my thighs while her arms loop around my neck. Her heartbeat drums under my thumb where it rests against her throat, and I can feel the tremor running through her body. "I just provided the ranch. You built the program."
"We built it together." Her forehead presses to mine, breath coming fast against my lips. "I couldn't do this without you."
"You could." My hands span her waist, thumbs stroking the soft skin where her shirt has ridden up. "But you don't have to. That's the whole point."
She kisses me then, hard enough to leave a mark, pouring a month of choosing and seventeen years of running into this one moment.
I let her take what she needs, my fingers tangling in her hair while she moves against me with want that hasn't dimmed since the day she resigned.
When she finally pulls back, we're gasping.
"I need to celebrate," she says.
"Yeah?" Heat floods my palms where they grip her hips.
She rises, dragging me with her until we’re inches apart, the sharp need in her gaze squeezing the air from my lungs. "Kiss me like you did at sunrise on that ridge," she commands. "Like the last seventeen years were just the countdown to right now."
I back her against the kitchen counter and take my time.
I go slow and claiming, tasting coffee and victory and her, while her fingers twist in my shirt and small sounds escape her throat.
My mouth moves from her lips to her jaw to the sensitive spot behind her ear that makes her gasp, and I feel her pulse jump under my tongue.
"Cash." My name breaks on her lips.
"Always." I pull back just enough to look at her, taking in her flushed cheeks and dilated pupils and the way she's breathing hard against my chest.
Her hands slide under my shirt, palms flat against my ribs, and the touch burns through my skin straight to bone.
I lift her onto the counter, stepping between her thighs, and her legs wrap around my waist automatically.
The height puts us at eye level, and I take my time mapping the geography of her face.
A spray of freckles across her nose has darkened from weeks of sun, and the laugh lines at the corners of her eyes appear more often now.
I take in the softness in her expression that used to be armor.
"You're different than you were," I say quietly.
"Good different or bad different?"
"Perfect different." My hands frame her face, thumbs stroking her cheekbones.
"The way you move now, with loose hips, grounded steps instead of that corporate march.
The way your shoulders don't live up around your ears anymore.
The calluses forming on your palms. The tan line on your ring finger.
You're becoming who you were always supposed to be. "
She blinks and gazes at me wide-eyed. "You notice all that?"
"I notice everything about you." I kiss her eyelids, tasting salt. "You're mine. Happy. Free. Exactly where you belong."
She pulls me closer, burying her face against my neck, and I feel her shoulders shake with something between laughter and tears.
I hold her there on the kitchen counter while the morning sun streams through the window and the ranch spreads out beyond the glass, and this, right here, is everything I've been waiting for since I was twenty-eight years old and she drove away in a cloud of dust.
Later, after she's updated her spreadsheet and I've finished morning chores and we've eaten lunch standing at the counter because sitting feels like too much distance, we ride to the ridge. It’s our tradition now, three times a week, and the horses know the path without guidance.
At the top, I dismount first and help her down.
She settles between my legs with her back against my chest, my arms wrapped around her waist, and the afternoon light turns the valley gold and green below us.
My palm presses flat against the softness of her stomach, feeling the rise and fall of her ribs, and I breathe in sage mixed with the coconut scent of her shampoo.
"Jessica's doing better," she says quietly. “She asked me yesterday how I knew I wasn’t leaving."
Jessica. The burned-out tech VP who arrived a few days ago with the same hollow look Sloane had. I'm her guide the same way I was Sloane's, and the parallel isn't lost on either of us.
"What'd you tell her?"
"That I stopped running long enough to remember what it felt like to be seen. That being scared doesn't mean you're doing it wrong." Her fingers lace through mine where they rest against her ribs.
The words hit close to home, and my arms tighten around her. "You're good at helping people."
"I'm good at recognizing myself in them." She shifts in my arms, turning to face me. "Thank you."
"For what?"