Chapter 2
CALLIE
But, until she hires a new guy, every Monday she takes the oldest patrol vehicle with the shrieking brakes and spends her hours answering calls, completing her reports from parking lots between traffic stops, doing her best to enforce order among the endless trees, the circuits of dirt roads, in a place that she knows from her girlhood has a secretive, untamable heart.
Her shift has been quiet so far. A broken taillight on someone’s boat trailer.
A few speeding tickets. She staked out a convenience store for an hour, acting on a tip from a kid they arrested last week for possession.
The biggest problem she’s inherited: a local drug ring that has been trading in dirty heroin, packages everything in green glassine baggies stamped with pine boughs.
Overdoses ticking up and up and up, and with the hospitals so far away, long drives for EMTs, and patchy cell service, many of them are fatal.
One of Callie’s first initiatives as chief was distributing Narcan to every officer on her squad and setting up a pickup spot outside the station.
But still, it hasn’t been enough. Not by a long shot.
She’s restless, hungry, scratches again at the back of her neck.
It’s that time of night when the sun is setting but she can’t make it out other than in the way the light shifts from behind the trees.
She rolls her windows down, dials the radio low.
It’s so quiet that she can hear the brush of pine boughs against her roof, stirred in the breeze. Shhh shhh shhhh.
Ten minutes pass that way, then the silence is cut through by the grumble of a muffler-less engine from around the bend.
A white Nissan Altima comes into view and Callie sits up.
The car swerves over the centerline, overcorrects and veers onto the shoulder, straightens out again.
No headlights, despite the way the daylight is draining swiftly toward the ground. A drunk.
Callie clocks a wide dent in the vehicle’s left front bumper as it approaches, consistent with striking something large head-on. A deer. A tree. A person. A thirty-year-old woman with a three-year-old at home.
“You bastard,” Callie says. A second later, her siren screams through the quiet and her lights send blasts of red into the dark.
As she approaches the Altima, Callie spots a six-pack of Budweiser in the back seat, two cans short. She raises her eyes to the driver, a woman with a matted nest of a bun at the nape of her neck.
It takes Callie a second to feel it, that chime of recognition. Proof of how long they have been strangers to one another. The red hair less vivid than the last time Callie saw her five years ago. It was once so similar to Callie’s own, but now its streaked through with much more gray.
She takes a breath. Straightens the nameplate on her uniform.
As she approaches the car, Nirvana’s “You Know You’re Right” wails from the speakers. Callie clears her throat. “Would you mind turning that down?”
The driver holds a finger up to Callie. “Hold on, hold on. You know this is the best part!” She leans over and cranks the volume higher.
Callie has to shout to hear her own voice. “Turn the music off.”
She gets a peal of laughter in response.
“Jesus Christ, Mom! I said turn it down!”
Jenna shrugs, does as she’s told. “My god. You’ve always been so uptight, Calliope.
” There’s a glassiness to her eyes and a looseness to her speech.
More than two beers in, then. And the use of Callie’s full name always riles her.
Jenna, nineteen years old when Callie was born and still hanging on to her hopes for a music career, had saddled her infant with the name of the muse of music and song.
Callie widens her stance, puts her hand on her holster.
“Whose car is this? What happened to the Trans Am?”
Jenna waves her hand. “Got rid of that thing years ago. Marcus traded me this one for it, lots of miles on it but you know me, don’t need to go far. So tell me, my girl. What did you do to get tossed back here in the woods?”
She digs her nails into her palm. Before Jane’s accident she had been a few months shy of being named commander in the drug trafficking unit. It was as good as hers, she had been assured, once Greg Holloway retired.
“I called you. Left you a voicemail. Twice. I told you I was coming back. You know why I’m here. I’m chief of police, Mom.”
She leaves out the rest: the eight-man team who can’t stand her, a drug ring ratcheting up business while her budget is slated to get slashed, and days filled with that tired old litany she thought she left behind in her rookie years. “License and registration, please.”
Jenna rifles through a mess of receipts in the center console and produces a driver’s license that expired two years ago.
“Don’t know where the registration is.” Callie catches the hot waft of cheap beer on her breath, and something else that is all Jenna.
Aussie-brand hairspray, sickly sweet, with notes of grape Jolly Rancher.
Underneath that, the scent of her body metabolizing the booze, an ineffable smell but one that Callie would know anywhere.
One that triggers alarm bells in her body, and even all these years later, makes the muscles in the back of her neck go tight.
Callie walks back to the patrol car, willing herself to take deep breaths.
She runs the license and can’t help thinking how Jenna looks a decade older than her forty-nine years.
Cheeks sunken, mottled with bright bursts of spider veins.
Stained teeth, one of them chipped, bumped too many times on the lip of a beer bottle.
The license number is attached to a laundry list of infractions, everything from disorderly conduct to urinating in public, petty larceny, another DUI last year.
Some Callie already knows about, some are new to her, but none of them are particularly surprising.
This is the woman who, the year Callie turned fourteen, said she was cooking them a big Thanksgiving dinner, went out to shop, disappeared, and returned three days later, a rotting turkey carcass in her trunk.
When Callie returns to the Altima she takes her time walking around the front bumper, crouches to touch her finger to the dent.
“Do you consent to a breathalyzer?”
Jenna rolls her eyes. “Can we just skip that part?”
“Then you’re looking at an automatic DUI, and with your record that would mean—”
“I know what that would mean.” Jenna’s focused on her fingernails, bites at a strip of loose cuticle.
Callie sighs. Jenna is looking at hefty fines, 180 hours of community service, anywhere from two to ninety days in jail. Even with all of her varied infractions, she’s never done jail time before. “Okay, well then I’m—”
“Yeah. You’re going to have to take me in.
” It hits Callie sideways, like an unexpected blast of wind: a sadness so profound it nearly makes her rock on her heels.
As an adult, she gave up on hopes that Jenna would stay sober, would rehabilitate herself, would mother her.
This sadness is the sadness she used to feel as a girl, before she taught herself to hope for so much less.
“Please step out of the car, Mom. I’m going to cuff you, read you your rights.”
The door creaks open and Jenna stands, stumbles a little until Callie catches her under her arm. Jenna’s feet are bare, her toes pale against the dark road.
“Where are your shoes? In the back?”
“Nope.”
“Where were you going with bare feet?”
“Nowhere. Just one of those nights. The devil’s out tonight, and hell if I was going to sit around and let him catch me. Only thing to do when you feel the devil coming is to run.”
She isn’t going to touch that one. Her whole life Jenna was busy blaming the devil for her afflictions rather than choosing to take accountability for anything she’d done.
Callie flicks her flashlight in the direction of the dents. “What’s the deal here?”
“Hit a deer.”
“How long ago?”
“Few weeks, maybe.”
“You gonna get it fixed?”
“You gonna loan me the money?” Callie snorts. She’s made it a policy not to loan Jenna money ever since she moved out at eighteen. She knows well enough where it all goes.
“You sure it was a deer, and not, say, a person? Someone like you who tends to drive around after a few drinks … It doesn’t seem out of the question, does it?
” There’s an edge in Callie’s voice. She tells herself to calm down, to just cuff her, read the rights, and get on with it, the way she would with anyone else, but she can’t help it.
For the first time Jenna seems rattled. “You’re talking about Jane. I had nothing to do with that. My own fucking daughter. Unbelievable. I was sober. Ask anybody. Three months and counting.”
She almost has to give Jenna credit for sticking to her lines. I was sober, I’ll stay sober, I was sober but …
“I’ll tell you what’s unbelievable. It’s that you’re still pulling the same shit you’ve been up to my whole childhood. Like hell you were sober. It’s been twenty-five years since you tried.”
“Oh, you know everything now, don’t you? I could fill a goddamn book with all that you don’t know.”
Callie doesn’t say anything, just rolls her eyes, guides her mother’s hands behind her back, and cuffs her. She thinks for a second about keeping them loose, before clicking them one notch tighter.
In the cruiser Callie radios HQ, lets them know she’s bringing in a DUI.
Jenna sighs from the back seat. “He’s watching us now. I can feel it.”
“Who?” Callie asks, thinks of the string of men Jenna would bring home, guys with names like Butch and Skeeter, who would stay for a few weeks or months thinking it would be nice to have a place to crash rent-free for a stretch, before Jenna finally drove them crazy.
Rusty, who inexplicably took their electric skillet and VCR with them when he left.