Chapter 111
“Baby.” G breathes hard, immediately pulling out and wrapping me into his arms, holding me tight. “What can I do?” he asks.
“No talk,” I barely make out, and he keeps holding me as I start to cry, unable to stop thinking about the first and last time a dick was in my ass. “I need to hear why you love me. Just keep holding me as you talk.”
“I love how smart you are,” he says, squeezing me tighter.
“I love how beautiful you are, how sexy, curious, giving, loving, spontaneous, and amazing you are.” He pauses, gently running his hand down my arm, reassuring me.
“I love how motivated you are, how hard-working you are … I love how you look at me and make me feel.”
I wipe my eyes, thinking about how this triggered a memory of Sorin running a gun down my body as he was fucking me in the ass, making me think he was going to kill me. I haven’t thought about that since it happened and never thought about it again. This is the first time it’s come up since then.
“Can we talk about why you wanted me to stop?” G softly asks after a few silent moments.
“Sorin,” I barely say.
“I’m sorry,” G says, so full of love.
“You didn’t do anything wrong.”
“I’m still sorry. I don’t like that I made you cry.”
“Aftercare,” I say, rolling to face him.
Gideon leans over and grabs his tablet from his end table. “Movie marathon, little spoon.”
Snuggled into him, I feel safe and loved.