Chapter 1
Noah Ryker stood on the fourth-floor balcony overlooking the Atlantic, staring into the eerie purple abyss that had taken over the sky. If he had any sense, he’d be anywhere but Hilton Head Beach, South Carolina, dead center in the eye of the storm.
Sense is over-fucking-rated.
He hadn’t had any good sense in weeks, might never have it again.
Funny how that worked when your world came crashing down around you, bringing you to your knees with a guttural cry.
The things that used to mean everything became transparent wisps of nothing, no longer strong enough to tether you down.
Nothing could hold him down anymore.
This moment, this place, this face-off with reality. This was where he needed to be, in his sister’s apartment high above the waves, the last place he’d seen her alive just a few months ago. His mother’s voice on the phone would haunt him until the end of time.
It’s Lizzie.
Oh, Noah…
He closed his eyes, the whipping wind carrying the faint taste of saltwater to his tongue. Those words had sliced his world in half, excising everything that mattered from the flesh and blood left behind.
His baby sister was gone.
In his mind she was eight or nine, clinging to his back as he carried her, lanky colt-like legs wrapped around his hips, barefooted as always, her laughter bubbling over his shoulder like a babbling brook.
He lifted his beer to his lips, taking a long pull deep into his gut. The brew tasted better than any ever had before it, his brain knowing this concoction held the magic that would take him to a place where he could grieve.
Rolling thunder had him opening his eyes, staring into the swirling darkness as if he were staring into the eyes of God himself, and in that moment he hated Him with a fiery passion that was mirrored only in the violence of the storm.
It was a category five named Oscar, about to make landfall right where he was standing, and all Noah could think was, Bring it on, you fucking bastard.
He was going to need more beer.
He drained the last of the bottle and walked inside.
There were sheets of plywood for covering the glass and bags upon bags of groceries, enough to last him weeks if need be.
Even an inflatable boat he’d snagged from HERO Force.
As always, he was prepared for any eventuality, figuring the worst that could happen was he’d miss a week or two of work.
But after his parting words with Cowboy, that wouldn’t be a problem.
I can’t even think about that shit right now.
He bent and opened the refrigerator, peering inside, hopeful Lizzie had kept a stash. No beer, damn it. He wasn’t much of a drinker and hadn’t bought any at the store in Atlanta, thinking getting drunk was a bad idea. Now he knew better.
Getting drunk was a fantastic idea.
He closed the fridge. There, on a magnet in front of him, was a newspaper clipping.
Joseph Fielding, age 34, died unexpectedly on December 18. A pediatrician, Joe received his M.D. from New York University…
Noah narrowed his eyes. Who was this man to his sister? A lover? A friend? As far as he knew, Lizzie wasn’t seeing anyone. He scanned the obituary.
…survived by his wife, Hannah (Grimes) Fielding, and loving son, Brady.
Not a lover, then. At least he sure hoped not. He read the piece more carefully, noting Dr. Fielding previously worked at the same hospital his sister did.
Mystery solved. A coworker, then.
He wondered briefly if Dr. Fielding’s family was dealing any better with his death than Noah was with his sister’s. Probably not.
He grabbed his wallet and keys. He’d passed a little bodega a few miles up the road on his way in that still had its lights on.
He hoped it was open. They were bound to be out of bread and milk—hell, probably beer, for that matter—but when a man was dying of thirst, he had to check any riverbed, even if it might be dry.
He turned toward the door and stopped in his tracks.
There was a stretch of hardwood in the living room where carpeting should have been.
He hadn’t noticed it on his way in, his arms laden with supplies.
But now all he could do was stare at it, the idea of Lizzie lying dead setting his imagination on fire.
He pushed out of the apartment, slamming the door on that picture and the reality he refused to accept.
Definitely need more beer.
He took the stairs two at a time to the parking garage beneath.
The elevator was an unnecessary risk, one he hadn’t even taken while hauling the plywood.
The power was going to go out, it was just a question of when, and he sure as fuck didn’t want to be trapped in a little box while all of Hilton Head Island was under a mandatory evacuation.
Not that the authorities had the power to make people leave.
It was a free country, and he could wait the storm out here if he wanted to.
There just wouldn’t be any emergency services available if he needed them.
He’d heard on the radio on the way in the hospital was closing soon, police and EMTs having already gone off duty.
Fortunately for him, he could take plenty good care of himself.
Even if I couldn’t save my sister.
It was raining hard and his wipers worked as quickly as they could to keep the windshield free of water, but it was an impossible task and he squinted at the road beyond.
Palm trees bent precariously in the wind, their silhouettes against the stormy sky like harbingers of terrible things to come, but all he could think was it should always look like this, every moment of every day since his sister died, the outer world finally matching the turmoil inside him.
Through the rain he glimpsed a white commercial truck pulled to the side of the road.
He slowed to a crawl to see if assistance was needed, belatedly realizing a police car sat in front of the truck with its lights off.
Several men were climbing in and out of the truck, and he imagined they were abandoning the vehicle and attempting to get their inventory out of it.
He pulled in behind them and stepped into the rain, his head and body instantly soaked with water. “You guys need a hand?”
One man turned and stared at him just as a flash of lightning illuminated his face. Wide forehead, receding hairline, heavy beard. “No.”
Noah turned to see the others facing him in a small line, another flash of lightning like someone turning a light on and off. The men wore uniforms—three matching blue with dark pants and one policeman, but it was their expressions that had the hair on the back of Noah’s neck standing up.
They wanted him to go away.
Noah held up his hand in a curt wave and turned back to his car.
Maybe the men had stumbled upon the abandoned truck and were looting its contents.
Mother Nature’s tantrums brought out the best in most people, but the underbelly of society was always on the lookout for a quick buck.
Or maybe he had it all wrong—one was a cop, after all.
He pulled back onto the road, continuing toward the lights of the bodega in the distance, but only got halfway there before he saw police lights in his rearview mirror.
He sighed heavily and pulled to the side of the road, prepared for the inevitable discussion of the mandatory evacuation orders in place and his own right to stay wherever the hell he wanted to weather the storm.
I just want a goddamn beer.
He put his window down, the monsoon-like rains cold on his already soaked body. “Is there something I can do for you, officer?”
“License and registration.”
He took them out of his wallet and handed them to the cop, who turned and walked back to his vehicle.
Noah’s mind went to the five firearms in his pickup truck.
There was one in a holster at his waist, another under the seat, and three rifles in cases in the back.
All registered, and of course he was licensed to carry, but a simple traffic stop had the potential to get a hell of a lot more complicated if he needed to disclose they were here.
Sniper problems.
The light returned to his window. “Get out of the car, sir.”
“I have a firearm holstered at my waist, officer.”
The sound of the cop pulling his weapon and releasing the safety was like a drum roll in Noah’s head. A prelude to what, he had no idea.
“Keep your hands where I can see them and get out of the truck.”
Noah lifted his hands and got out, the wind catching the truck door and slamming it past its natural open angle.
The cop shined the flashlight in Noah’s face. “Hands on the vehicle.”
He complied, the officer quickly taking his weapon. “What seems to be the problem, officer?” he repeated calmly.
“You are aware that this area is under mandatory evacuation order from the governor?”
“Yes, sir. I’ve chosen to stay in my home.”
“According to your license, your home is in Atlanta.”
“I have a condo here.”
“Where, exactly?”
Noah rattled off the address as thunder cracked and rolled. “I thought the precinct closed more than an hour ago.”
“How about you tell me why you stopped back there?”
“I thought somebody might be in trouble.”
“So you were just being a good Samaritan, is that right?”
“Trying to be, yeah.”
“You can turn around now, sir.”
“Thanks. I thought maybe that medical supply truck was having mechanical problems or something. With the storm coming, I just figured it was better to stop than keep going.”
Thunder rolled and the rain came down harder, the drops now covering his skin constantly like a faucet.
He stared at the lights of the bodega. Any second now this douche was going to stop pulling his chain and let him get back in his truck, and Noah could only hope that store would still be open when he did.
“The medical supply truck,” said the officer. “Did you get a good look at the guys?”
“Just one, and you.”