31. Chapter 31
I clung to Angel on the boat, uncaring who stared at us. My face was probably green as the boat rocked. At least it felt that way in my stomach.
He pressed a kiss to my head. “Look at the horizon straight ahead. It’ll help. I should’ve given you some Dramamine. Stupid that I didn’t think of that, since you’ve never been on a boat before.”
“It’s okay. I’m excited.”
I wasn’t really that okay, hating to feel sick. Hopefully, it would be worth it to swim with the Stingrays.
I choked back an acidic burp, praying we’d get there soon.
What felt like forever turned out to be only twenty minutes before the boat anchored. The Captain of the boat and his crew gave us all instructions before entering the water and how to handle the animals. And if we wanted to, we could feed them.
The boat being anchored was even worse than when it traveled over the water.
I could feel the swells even more. Instead of letting it take over my fun, I glanced over the side to see the stingrays, looking like fantastical creatures with wings and long tails.
Some were massive, and some were tiny. All were beautiful.
I had grown to love all animals and was probably driving Angel crazy with all the animal documentaries I was addicted to.
“Ready?” he asked.
When I nodded, he reached a hand out to me, and I took it. The boat wobbled, and I had no idea how people stood and walked around, but Angel had a good hold of me, so I didn’t fall.
He eased into the water first using the stepladder, and I followed.
The water was shallow and only came up to his stomach, so I breathed easier, but water deeper than to my knees scared me a little.
While the water came to his stomach, it came up to my chest. I tried to be brave, but we were out so far into the ocean and surrounded by too much water.
“Angel?”
He heard my panic and reached out to me, pulling me against his body with strong and secure arms. “I’ve got you, Sunshine.”
With a deep breath, ignoring the other people staring at us, I wrapped my legs around his waist, and he held me as he trod the water until we reached several stingrays.
I reached out as one swam by, feeling the smooth surface of its skin.
My grin was wide, and I shoved away from Angel, feeling braver.
Others fed them, but I just wanted to pet them. They swirled around us like a watery dance, leaving me in laughter. God, I was in love. Angel took several pictures from a waterproof camera he bought as I played with the gorgeous creatures.
“Having fun?” he asked.
“It’s the best.”
“I knew you’d enjoy this.”
I waded over to him and wrapped my legs around him, and my arm looped around his neck. “Thank you, Angel. I love you so much.” Then I kissed him, and it was perfect, surrounded by a gorgeous sunny day, stunning teal water, and fun animals with my favorite person in the world.
He didn’t tell me he loved me back, but I knew he did. He never had to say it because I felt it.
***
After my shower, I lay on the bed naked with my arms spread out with the fan on full blast, covering me in cool air. The bed swayed and rocked as if I was still on the boat, and I hated it. “Ugh, why do I still feel like I’m on the boat?”
He laughed. “It will take time to go away, but I have an idea to distract you from it.”
I raised my head to his glorious naked body, so full of pretty muscles. He had been smiling a lot lately, too, which made my heart burst with happiness. It was a gorgeous smile and was such a rare thing when we first met, now he did it all the time. Just more proof he was in love. I knew it.
“What do you want to do?”
His smile dropped for some reason, which made my stomach twist around. “What do you think about being inside me?”
I scrambled to sit up as he sat on the edge of the bed. “You… want me to be inside of you instead?”
He nodded, looking insecure for the first time ever.
I swallowed hard, unsure of how I felt about it.
I had never been inside a man before. Would I be really bad at it?
Would I even enjoy it? Other men seemed to love it, but I had no other reference to go by.
But if he wanted me to do this for him, I would. “If that’s what you want.”
“I do. It’s been a very long time, but…” He cupped my face with his hand, and I leaned into his warm touch.
“I don’t know why I want this. It’s not like I’m a bottom.
It’s just you. Not only do I want to feel you this way, but I want you to experience sex in a different way. A way where you’re in control.”
My hands grew clammy, and my heart beat too hard against my chest. What if I messed it up? What if he hated it? “I’ve never had control like this before. I’m… scared.”
Angel’s smile was soft and reassuring, which quickly put me at ease. “Sunshine, you’ve had control over me since the day we met.”
I covered my mouth and giggled. “Not really.”
One of his brows rose, and his face turned serious. “Yes. Really.”
“What do I do?”
“You know how to prep with your fingers, right?”
I nodded.
“Then, when I’m ready, you simply enter me. I’ll help guide you.”
With a deep breath, I tried not to worry about it. If this was what he wanted, then I would give it to him and not stress out about how bad I would be at it.
He lay on his back in the bed and opened his legs for me.
Seeing his hole did something to me. This feral side came out, wanting to claim him as mine in a primal way, even though he already belonged to me.
I had been in this position enough to understand the vulnerability of it, and this killer, my dark angel, was willing to do that, making my heart hammer in nervous excitement.
I poured some lube into my hands and worked him with my fingers. He closed his eyes and breathed through the intrusion. He also looked nervous himself, so I planned on making it as good of an experience for him as possible.
His cock deflated a little, reminding me that this wasn’t normal for him, so I stroked him with my other hand and murmured encouraging words as I inserted another finger. He finally grew hard at my touch and relaxed.
By the third finger, he told me he was ready.
I trusted him at his word, so I kneeled between his legs and hovered over him, trying to line myself up with his hole.
It was awkward, and I missed a couple of times, but he finally grabbed me and guided me inside.
As I pushed in, he bore down, and his hole swallowed me up.
I watched my penis… cock get lost in him, leaving me in awe.
He was so tight, smooth, and hot. I had no idea it would feel this good. How different from a hand or a mouth.
I suddenly understood why men loved being inside so much. It was like my cock got wrapped up in love and squeezing hugs. My sensitive nerves fired everywhere all at once.
“Oh, god. I’m going to fail. I think… I’m going to let go too soon.”
He cracked an eye open and smirked. “Then we can try again. Don’t stress out about this. This is for your pleasure as well as mine.”
Angel reached for my hands, threaded our fingers, and moved them back onto the bed, so I used them to brace myself as I moved in and out of him.
“You feel so good, baby,” he said.
“Do I?”
“Yes.”
“You feel good, too. Your hole is giving my cock hugs.”
He laughed, putting me more at ease. “That’s one way to put it.”
Soon, I moved faster and harder, finally finding my rhythm. We groaned in unison, and he started to pump into me, too, so we met with hard slams. The pleasure sent waves of electric pressure down to my core.
“I’m not going to last long, Angel.”
He grabbed his cock and stroked to our movements, and when he spilled over, his hole went from a hug to a tight vise, making my toes curl.
“Oh, god…”
Moments later, I, too, spilled, but inside him.
He was now mine in more ways than one. My body was covered in that familiar numbness, but I refused to fall on him and instead watched his blissed-out face, still breathing hard, with his eyes shut.
Suddenly, they popped open, and those bright greens bore into my soul.
He gripped the back of my neck and pulled me into a heated kiss full of tongue and owning.
When I sat back up, I pulled out of him and rested my body next to him. “How was it?” I asked.
“Different. Amazing. It was you.”
“Same. Can we do that again sometime? I may need practice.”
He laughed again, and the sound always sent goosebumps across my skin. I wish he’d do it more often.
“Yes, we can practice more.”
Angel rolled over to face me and placed a hand on my face. “You’ve… healed me, Sunshine. My heart. My soul. No longer do I see my death on the horizon, but instead, see you and your life-giving love.”
His words made my eyes water, and I pressed a hand to his face, too, but said nothing.
“I love you, Luca.”
My eyes closed to his words. He said it. He actually said it, and while he didn’t need to, my heart burst like the sun that he did.
“I know you do.”