Chapter 21 - Klaus
I missed Aubrey. She would come to visit me every day, and the times she wasn’t here, I felt like I was a caged animal slowly losing its sanity. She helped. I hated to admit it, but she helped. I found myself looking forward to when she would arrive because my mind wasn’t so harsh.
I stared out the window, taking in the calmness outside. I could hear the workers outside the hallway, the beeping of the machines. There was talk sometimes. Whispers about what was going on and if I was getting any better.
I tried to sleep, but that wasn’t any better. My mind was constantly going, and the dark thoughts only got worse when I shut my eyes.
I’d dream that I was getting free and hurting people.
Members of my pack didn’t stand a chance against me.
Blood covered my clothes and went down my hands.
Innocent people who deserved so much better.
But the worst ones were me finding Aubrey.
Some of them were me hunting her in the woods and catching up to her.
Others were me going home and raping her. My animal side did not seem to know whether it wanted to fuck her or kill her. I hated how my mind was twisting things, and I couldn’t make it stop.
I hated it. I would never lay a finger on her in the wrong way, but my mind wouldn’t stop picturing it. All the different ways I could make her cry, hear her whimper in pain, begging me to stop.
There was a soft knock, and the door opened. I could smell her right away as she took a step inside. She always stayed by the door, but I could see she wanted to come further in.
I turned to her, taking in the tight jeans and the loose shirt. She had her hair pulled up in a messy bun. She looked like she hadn’t slept, circles starting to form under her eyes.
“Hi.” She leaned against the door. “Did you sleep well?”
I shook my head. “Not really.”
“Me neither. Cal kept me up.”
I ground my teeth together. The sudden thought of Cal putting his hands on her filled my head. The thought of him fucking her was even worse.
My nostrils flared, and I tried to take a breath. I knew Cal. He would never. And Aubrey would never. At least, I think she wouldn’t. But that didn’t stop my head from picturing them in my bed, entangled in the sheets. Her whimpering his name while he took her from behind.
I knew what Aubrey looked like when she was shattering apart, and now I was picturing it with him. Her body limp while he held her, his lips kissing her neck. Her smiling at him while she ground her hips.
“Klaus.” Her voice was soft, yanking me back. “He snores. I could hear him through the walls of your bedroom. I was up all night. I even tried to drown him out with the TV, but it’s like he has sonic volume.”
I paused at her words. “My bedroom?”
She nodded, her lips curled up. “It smells like you. It helps me sleep.”
My shoulders relaxed a little. I leaned back, pressing my back firmly against the wall. I focused on her words.
“Your Beta takes your words very seriously. He’s like a dog that follows me everywhere.”
“I want to make sure you’re safe.”
“I am safe. Even when I’m around you.”
I opened my eyes and stared at her. She leaned against the doorway, her head tilted to the side.
“You’re not safe with me, Aubrey. If you were, I wouldn’t be in here chained to the ground.”
“You are chained to the ground as a precaution.”
“Do you know the damage I could do if I weren’t in here? What goes through my head?”
“Likely dirty thoughts.”
“I’m not joking, Aubrey.”
Her smile slipped. It wasn’t that I wanted to scare her, but I wanted her to know this was real. Whether she believed it or not, I could hurt her. I didn’t want something to happen because she didn’t understand how bad this was.
She grabbed the door and slowly shut it. She leaned against it for a moment before she took a step further into the room. I flattened my back against the wall, feeling my nerves tense up.
“Aubrey, what are you doing?”
“Proving a point.”
“Let’s not.”
She took another step in, and I knew I could reach her with the chains.
“Aubrey, stop.”
“Klaus, I know you aren’t going to hurt me.”
“You don’t know that! You don’t know what I could do. What goes through my head.”
“You haven’t done anything.”
“Because I’m here. But that doesn’t stop my head from thinking about everything else.”
She took another step, just standing at the edge of the bed. “Tell me.”
I frowned. “You want me to tell you the thoughts?”
She nodded. “I’ve always believed saying things out loud helps the mind catch up. So, tell me.”
I couldn’t. I didn’t want to put the words out there.
“Fine, I’ll talk. I spoke with Riley and Troy. And they told me what goes through heads when you’re in this state. You think of murdering people, dark scenarios. But you don’t act them out.”
“I’ve thought of raping you, Aubrey.” It came out like a cold bath fell over me. “Over and over. Mix that with smearing your blood all over the floor. That’s what goes through my head.”
She frowned. “But you haven’t. You haven’t done anything to me, Klaus.”
“Because I’m locked up.”
“No, because you wouldn’t. You haven’t gotten off that bed. You haven’t even come near me, and you could have tried. But you haven’t.”
She placed her knees on the bed. “I know you have dark thoughts and that you’re not entirely yourself. But you are still Klaus. You still have control, and you’re not going to hurt me.”
I ground my teeth together, taking her in. Her scent clouded my senses, and her eyes softened. She gave me a gentle smile as she sat down. “See, I’m within arm’s reach of you.”
I watched as she placed her hands on her lap, rubbing her fingers together. She tilted her head, and her hair fell to the side. I took in her neck and the way her skin looked so smooth.
I reached a hand out, curling a strand of hair around my finger. She smiled, pulling a hand up and placing it around mine. “I’ve missed you.”
I stared into her eyes, watching the way her eyes looked at me longingly. I ached to hold her, to feel her skin against mine again. It was wrong because so much could happen. Chaining myself up was the best and right decision for us.
Her fingers were soft, and her other hand reached up, placing against my chest. She moved it further up, running her hand over my neck. Her fingers ran over my chin and grazed across my lips.
I watched her shoulders relax, and I reached out, tugging her into my lap. Her body pressed against mine, and I couldn’t fight it. I held her close and kissed her. Her lips were rough, her mouth morphing into mine.
She panted as I flipped her, pinning her against the bed. I grabbed at her jeans, pulling them off. She grabbed at my shirt, her fingers pulling at the fabric.
“You smell amazing,” I growled as I kissed her neck. I could hear her heart racing as I yanked her pants off, tossing them to the ground. I slid my hand up her shirt, grabbing at her breast.
She hissed, “Your hands are freezing.”
I couldn’t help but smirk, feeling her nipples harden from them. I tugged at them, watching her mouth drop open in that perfect O shape.
I wanted so badly to use her mouth for so many things. I wanted to listen to her moan my name as I took her. I wanted to watch as she gasped for air while my dick was in her mouth. I wanted to make her lose her mind.
I kissed her roughly, raking my teeth over her lower lip. She softly moaned, her hands pulling at the buttons of my pants. I felt her tug them loose, and her hand slid between. Her fingers curled around my already hard dick, giving it a stroke.
I inhaled sharply, leaning my forehead against her chest. “Fuck.”
She moved her hands slowly, one stroking my cock while the other rubbed her thumb over the tip.
“I missed you,” she whispered. “And you’re not the only one that’s had dirty thoughts.”
I looked up at her, taking in her eyes and the hunger that sat there. I knew this was wrong, and at any moment, things could go south. But I couldn’t deny her this. Not with her looking at me like this, not when her fingers were wrapped around my dick.
I slid my hand down, sliding two fingers into her. She was soaking wet, and she bit her lip as I curled them up. She nodded her head, her hips moving in slow grinding motions.
I tugged my pants off, kicking her thighs apart and hooking her legs. I grabbed her hips, sliding my dick against her entrance. I watched her chest rise and fall as she stared at me. Her hands ran over my stomach, her nails leaving little marks. “Klaus.”
I looked into her eyes, and she softly smiled. “You’re not going to hurt me.”
I slammed into her. Part of me wanted to prove a point, and another part hoped she would beg me to do it again. Her head rolled back, and she moaned loudly, her voice echoing around the room.
I didn’t try to cover up the voice. I curled my hands, getting a better hold on her, and slammed back into her. I did this over and over, watching her face twist as she took me. She panted, her hands grabbing at the sheets as the bed shook.
“Oh god,” she said, her entire body shaking. “I’m close.”
I hadn’t been this deep in her before. I could feel her tightening around me, her legs shaking against my arms.
I kept moving, thrusting into her like the animal I was. I kissed her neck and grabbed her hands, pinning them above her. The bed shook violently as I pulled her up at an angle.
“Oh god!” Her eyes rolled back, and her body spasmed. I felt her tighten even harder as she orgasmed. My cock hit deep before I had my own release.
She sank against the sheets, but I wanted more. I needed more.
The scent of her felt stronger, and the room seemed to be vibrating. She softly giggled, her head looking at me. “Damn, Klaus, I think that’s the strongest orgasm I’ve ever had.”
But my eyes were on her neck. I could feel how fast her heart was racing, how her blood was moving. I leaned down, biting onto her neck.
“Klaus, that tickles.” She tugged to free her arms. “Come on, let go.”
But I didn’t. I tightened my hold on her, biting harder against her neck.
“Klaus! Stop!” Her voice shifted now, her hands yanking even harder on mine. “Stop it! That hurts! Klaus!”
If I put a little more pressure, I knew she’d bleed.
You want to spill her blood. Take her over and over. Bend her until she breaks. She’s yours after all. Do what you want with her. No one will stop you.
“Klaus!” Her voice hit me like a punch, and my hands finally released. Aubrey shoved against me, pushing me up as she scooted back. Her hand reached up toward her neck. I could see a mark forming, not like a hickey but rather a black-and-blue mark. My teeth imprinted in the middle.
I swallowed. “I told you this was a bad idea.”
Her eyes softened. “Klaus.”
“I could have hurt you!” I snapped. “I told you that I would! But you didn’t listen.”
“I’m not hurt, Klaus.”
“You are! And it’s not worse because I moved away. You’re not hurt more because I’m thinking smarter than you are right now.”
The smell of her was filling the room. I moved off the bed, pulling my pants back on. “You need to leave.”
“Klaus.”
“Now!” I snarled.
I watched her grab at her pants, tugging them back on. She shook her head as she looked at me. “I’ll come back later.”
“Don’t,” I snapped. “Because one of us needs to have some self-control since it’s clear you won’t.”
She paused for a moment before she turned to the door. She pulled it open and stepped out without saying a word.
The moment she left, I felt the tug. My insides curled up, and I missed her. I sat on the edge of the bed, suddenly wanting to take my words back.
You idiot. Do you have any idea what you just did? She was trying to help you. She was being honest. Why couldn’t you return the favor?
Because I was trying to protect her, I never wanted to hurt her, even in a minor way. I would never forgive myself if I hurt her.
It hit me just how badly I wanted Aubrey. Not in a physical way but emotionally. How I looked forward to seeing her smile and listening to her voice. I’d known for a while that this wasn’t something simple. I loved her. And that scared me more than anything else.