Chapter Fifteen
Gianna
We arrive at another motel. Will pays for the room himself while I stay in the car to avoid anyone identifying me.
The last thing we need is Nico finding us.
If my brother found me, I know I’d be all right, but with Nico?
I’m worried that he’ll try to hurt me again.
There’s so much uncertainty from what Nico will do if he gets me, what Marco will do if he finds me, what my brother will do if he gets me back.
And there’s also my growing feelings for Will. I let him touch me in a way no one ever has. Knowing that he saved me from Nico again… it only makes me feel closer to him. It only makes me want him more.
If this is my one chance to live my life for myself, I am going to take it. No more hesitation.
Once Will buys the room, he comes back for me and he makes sure I get into the room safely. No Nico. No Marco. But they could find us at any moment.
I throw my arms around Will the second he closes the door.
“What’s this for?” he asks, holding me close.
“Thank you for saving me from Nico again. You didn’t have to. You could have just given me back to him. Your life would be easier if you did that.”
“It would be,” he admits. “But I care for you, Gianna. I’m… going to fight for you.”
I stare up at him in shock. “Really? Why me?”
“Because the moment I first laid eyes on you, I knew I made a mistake in helping Marco kidnap you. You were just an innocent. You still are. You haven’t deserved any of this.
I want to make sure you’re ok. I’ve never been honest with anyone about my life before.
You’re the first. You make it easy to talk to. ”
“You’re the first person I’ve ever told my secrets to as well. I never knew a hitman would be the one I would find solace in.”
“We live in a crazy world.”
“We really do,” I murmur, still keeping my eyes glued to his. My heart skips a beat, knowing I’m going to ask for something I can’t come back from. But the fact that Will could have died from Nico’s hand and survived means that I can’t hold back any longer.
This is my one chance to live my life for myself and I have to take it.
“Kiss me,” I say.
His eyes soften as he cups my face and does as I ask. The kiss starts off tender and sweet but soon a darkness overtakes it. There’s a desperation to Will’s kiss. Life and death. We both know we might never get this chance again.
He backs me up until we reach the bed. We laugh together as we fall down on the mattress, still kissing and clinging to each other.
I know that Will and I don’t really have a future.
Not unless I can convince my brother to let Will live.
But that doesn’t mean I would get to be with Will.
Most likely when I return to my brother, he’ll lock me up for my ‘safety.’
But I’m tired of being safe. I’m tired of being controlled. I want to make my own choices so I am making this one.
“Touch me,” I say into Will’s ear. “All of me. Everywhere.”
He goes still for a moment. “Gianna… are you asking me to…”
“I want you to take all of me. I know before I said I wasn’t ready. But I realize that I am now. I want to experience this with you in case anything happens.”
“If we weren’t in a life or death situation, would you be making this choice? I don’t want you to regret it.”
“We are in a life or death situation, Will. So I can’t tell you what choice I’d be making otherwise. But I won’t regret this. I want to experience life. I want to experience sex. I want this.”
He stares into my eyes for a long moment before he nods. “Then if you’re sure…”
“I’m sure.”
He leans down to my ear. “Then I’ll make you mine.”
I shiver at his words. I know I can never truly be his – at least not right now. But for this one moment, I want to forget everything. I want to get lost in Will’s arms.
He makes quick work of my shirt and bra, kissing along my breasts. I let out a moan and arch into him. No more being shy. No more hiding myself away. Will makes me feel seen so I’m going to be seen.
His lips wrap around my nipple, licking and flicking it. A flush of arousal hits me between my legs and I press them together to help with the friction. Never in my life have I felt this alive.
Will locks his eyes with mine as he kisses down my body. When his lips brush over my stomach, I suck in a breath at how much it tickles. He smirks, making me blush. The way he smiles only makes his face more handsome. It only makes me care for him more when I know I shouldn’t.
I let out a gasp when his hands rip my pants down, leaving me in nothing but my underwear.
“You’re so fucking sexy,” he growls as his hands find the waistband of my panties. I arch my hips, trying to get closer to him. Slowly, he brings my underwear down my legs, running his hands along each of my calves as he does it.
Another flare of arousal hits me, soaking my inner thighs. Will parts my legs and gazes down at me.
“I get to be the first man to touch you,” he comments, sounding in awe. “I don’t deserve you.”
“No, you don’t. But I don’t care about that. You put your life on the line to save me. That means something.”
He leans down and kisses my stomach before moving lower.
When his face is between my thighs, I moan.
His lips find my nub, suckling it and flicking it and pleasuring it.
My hips arch up to meet his mouth. Never in my life did I think I’d let a hitman put his mouth on me this way but here I am.
Maybe because Will is someone I have no future with, I am allowing myself to get lost in him.
Though, I do wish we had a future together. I have to find a way to make it happen.
But for right now I just want to get lost in his arms.
He licks me harder and harder. I can’t stop sighing and moaning and gasping. The pleasure is too intense. Too much. I feel lightheaded, like I’m going to pass out from the excitement of it all.
It’s too much, too much, too much…
“Will,” I gasp out when his tongue finds my entrance.
He pushes it inside. The sensation of his soft tongue inside of me is more than I can handle.
Another pulse of arousal hits me. Wetness seeps out of my body and I try not to feel self-conscious knowing that Will’s face is right there.
He lets out a low growl, telling me that he’s not bothered by what my body is doing. It helps me relax into the mattress.
His tongue pulls out of me and finds my clit again. He licks it over and over and over, getting me closer to my edge with every flick of his tongue. I can’t hold back any longer.
My legs clamp around his head as my orgasm hits me. He grips my thighs with all his strength, making me come even harder.
“Will,” I moan. He smirks as he kisses back up my body. When his lips find mine, I can taste myself on him.
“I could eat you out forever,” he says darkly against my lips, sending more heat through my body.
He stands up and strips his clothes off. The sight of his naked body is just as sexy as I remember. But this time when my eyes find his length, I know he’s going to put it inside of me and I’m ready. I’m scared but ready.
He grabs a condom from his wallet and slips it on before lowering his body on top of mine. Will grabs my legs and hoists them around his waist.
“Are you ready for me, baby?”
I can only nod. Words have escaped me at this point. I’m really doing this. I’m finally letting myself experience life to the fullest.
Will steadies my hips before he thrusts forward, entering me. He’s slow to start as he sinks deeper. There’s the smallest bit of pain before it’s replaced with pleasure. My body opens up for him. Accepting him. Accepting this.
Because I know it’s right. That’s the scariest feeling I’ve ever had. Knowing that I feel so good with Will and knowing that I most likely won’t get to be with him forever. It’s heartbreaking but I push those fears from my mind. Right now, I just want to be in the moment with him.
He settles all the way inside of me as he lets out a groan. Seeing the vulnerability on Will’s face makes me feel closer to him. He’s in this moment right along with me. Two people who found each other in an unlikely situation.
“Gianna,” he sighs before kissing me. It helps ease my body even more.
Soon, he begins rocking his hips back and forth. It doesn’t take me long to match his pace. Sex isn’t hard to figure out. It just… is.
Our bodies move as one, finding our perfect rhythm.
Will grips my thighs and brings them higher around his waist as he thrusts into me. A choked gasp escapes my lips. The pleasure is too much. I feel like I’m barely hanging on.
“God, Gianna,” he groans, thrusting into me harder. The firmness of it lights me on fire. It’s just what I need. Will is being gentle but there’s a darkness to his touch that excites me.
“Will,” I gasp. My hands find his chest to steady myself.
His heart beats fast underneath my hand.
Knowing he’s just as affected by this as I am only turns me on more.
My thighs clamp around his waist, holding him closer to me.
I don’t want there to be any space between us. I think I might die otherwise.
Each of his thrusts hits me harder and harder. I let out a moan. That spurs him on, sinking into me deeper. I never knew a person could feel this full before. I never knew a person could feel this alive.
“Come with me,” he groans. “I need to feel you come on my cock.”
His words send a thrill through my body. My pleasure intensifies.
He thrusts into me over and over and over…
Our bodies become frantic. There’s a desperation to each of our touches. A desire to be as close as we can. A need to never leave each other.
And that’s what sends me over the edge.
“Will,” I cry out when my second orgasm hits me. He quickly follows after, finding his release. I can tell from the way he shudders and moans. He’s just as affected by this as I am.
His face finds the crook of my neck as he breathes in deeply. I stroke his back.
“That was…” he says into my ear.
“I know,” I sigh. It was everything. Magical. Exciting. Pleasurable.
Having sex with Will has changed things between us. A closeness that neither one of us expected.
I’m not sure we can ever come back from this again.