Chapter 3
(My Little Secret/Xscape)
“See, baby you’re my little secret, secret. If you don’t tell I won’t tell, and that’s how we got to keep it.”
“Shhh.”
“I can't.” I panted.
Jahrein smiled as he placed his hand over my mouth. We were on the floor, and he was sliding in and out of my wetness. He was going deep, knowing that always made me squeal. Most times I could barely handle half of him.
“You gon cum for me?” he whispered in my ear.
My eyes were far back in my head, as he assaulted my kitty.
“Huh, Raven, you gon cum?” he asked as he pulled out, and kept my legs open. He eased his head between my thighs, tasting me. Knowing what he liked, I flipped him over, and switched my body upside down, in 69 position. Just as he taught me, I took him into my mouth, while he sucked my clit.
Not long after we both busted. I was out of breath, as our bodies laid sprawled out on the floor. Jahrein pulled me in by the waist. He gently stroked my cheek, before placing his soft lips on mine. He slid his tongue into my mouth, sucking my lips too.
“Umm.” he moaned. That's when I had to pull away. He was catching another hard-on, and the sun was coming up. I couldn't have him getting caught coming out of my room.
“You gotta go.” I whispered.
He climbed on top of me. “Just one more time.”
“Nooo, Jahrein. You know Ray-Ray goes to pee around this time.”
He sucked his teeth. “Alright.” he lifted off me. I watched him step into his boxers. “I'ma let your scary ass make it this time.” he pulled his Jordan basketball shorts up.
“Okay.” I giggled as he stood in my doorway. He looked so tempting, standing there with those bowlegs, shirtless. “Bye.” I waved as I hopped onto my bed. “Sleep tight.”
He stared at me as he grabbed his piece through his shorts.
“Yeah, whatever. Sending a nigga to bed with blue balls.” he quickly leaned back, checking the hallways.
I guess the coast was clear. He refocused on me.
“That's why I'ma murder that pussy the minute they leave.” he said without a hint of laughter, before finally closing my door.
I had to shake my head, as I thought about our situation.
Things were somewhat weird. He was no longer seeing the bitch Ciara.
He broke up with her after the day he fought Dough Boy.
I refused to have sex with him, while he was still with her.
He dropped that bitch so fast that she probably had whiplash.
I sat and listened to their entire conversation on the other phone, as she cried her little heart out.
She was actually begging him. Then she got to asking him if it had anything to do with me.
I wanted to interrupt their little conversation so damn bad.
“It’s that little bitch aint it? I know you’re fucking her.” Ciara shouted into the phone.
“Who are you talking about?”
“Your little stepsister!”
“What? Man, you tripping. This aint got shit to do with her.” Jahrein claimed, with a smile in his voice.
“Yes it do! I am not fuckin crazy! I saw how that little bitch was looking at you. And I saw how you was looking at her. You barely know her, but you was outside fighting over her like she’s your fucking real sister.
When your mama’s last boyfriend’s kids came over your ass never gave two shits about them. ”
“That’s different.”
“Nigga please! You fuckin that little girl. I’m not stupid.” Ciara blasted. “What is it? You like her because her hair is longer? Or is it because her ass is bigger? Tell me, Jahrein!”
“I just told you…I need some space.”
“Space? No, that in-house pussy is clouding your judgment. That’s what it is, but you just don’t know. That bitch aint nothing but a little freak. All the niggas be talking about how they fucked her.”
“What?” Jah sucked his teeth. “You aint heard shit like that.”
“How do you know? You defending the bitch?”
“Cause I fucking know, and why she gotta be a bitch? You gon just disrespect my people like that?”
“Yo’ people? That lil’ nasty hoe aint ya people!”
“Man…you gon make a nigga hurt your feelings. I’m trying to be nice.”
“Whatever. Why don’t you just admit it? You fucking her. You over there running up in that little girl. She probably sucking your dick right now.”
“What, you mad cause I won’t let you suck it?”
“Hell nah! I’ma save that for the little muskrat you got ova there.”
“Muskrat? Come on, man, be for real. She aint got you, Ciara? Look at yourself and then look at her. I’d be crazy to choose you. She can stand next to you and make you look less than shit.”
“FUCK YOU! I hope your dick fall off!”
“You know what, you pathetic, man. Just don’t call my phone no more.” Jahrein sighed, as he hung up the phone on her.
I was still on the line so I whispered, “Bitch.” Then I officially ended the call.
Other girls would call with the same cries.
Jahrein must know voodoo, because everyone was crazy over him, including me.
What I felt for him had to be love, as far as I understood it.
He was a cool person, and together the dullest day was transformed into something special.
We didn't have to have two cents between us and we wouldn’t care.
Jahrein would get me anything I asked for, by hook or crook. And when he did have money to go shopping, he would buy him and me some shoes or whatever else. I guess that Ray-Ray thought that he was taking his big brother role seriously.
The only thing that got on my nerves was his jealousy.
It was crazy, because he always seemed so nonchalant when it came to those girls he messed with before me.
However, no one could even look my way, without him spazzing out.
He even got my daddy to whip me one day, because I was hanging out with the girls down the street.
And he didn’t want me going anywhere with them.
He actually lied, telling my daddy that we were hanging in the house with boys, and there was drug use going on.
He was telling bold faced lies, but my daddy believed him.
Jah just didn't like that I was hanging out with those girls, who were a couple of years older, and often chilled with the boys in the neighborhood.
They were all mostly attractive chicks, and they were exposing me to life outside of Jahrein. He cut that short, though.
At that point, all I did was lie in the bed, with him all day. My daddy hustled from dusk ‘til dawn, and Red worked during the day, so Jah had all the time in the world to have me to himself. I got used to him regulating my day, so I went with the flow.
He didn’t even like his friends hanging around for too long. If they did visit, he would either accuse them of watching me too hard, or demand that I stay inside my bedroom.
“It aint nothing but niggas in here, Raven. Take your ass in the room somewhere.” He’d always say.
Usually, my come back was, “Well, I’m about to go outside. You don’t run me.” That would result in him shoving me in my room or putting his friends out.
Jalero was the only person in the house that knew our little secret. He idolized his big brother so much that you would have to pull teeth to get the truth out of him.
I eventually fell asleep with Jahrein on my mind.
By that morning, I was fully energized. I planned on leaving before Jah woke up and catching the bus to the mall with Shell from down the street.
She was a real cool chick that just walked up to me one day, and asked me if I wanted to hang with her at the park.
Ever since that day I would kick it with her.
I think that Jahrein disliked her more than any of the other chicks I hung with.
I knew that he probably would try to stop me from going anywhere with her, but he was overruled this time.
My daddy said that I could go, and he even gave me three hundred dollars to shop.
Just when I thought that I was having a carefree day, Ray-Ray announced that I would not be catching the bus, and that Jahrein and Jalero would be coming along. I was a little disappointed, because I was looking forward to catching the bus. It made me feel a sense of independence.
Not even all of that was going to stop me from going, though.
I put on my lime-green and blue plaid shorts, my white halter-top, and some mid-rise blue, white, and green Jordans.
I placed the top part of my hair in a ponytail and let the rest hang.
Lero was so cute with his little Nike outfit with the same Jordans as me.
Jahrein was wearing a blue and green FUBU jersey, with some FUBU blue jean shorts, and the same Jordans as mine.
My friend Shell rode with us as my daddy dropped us off at Sharpstown Mall. He told Jahrein to call him when were all ready to go home. There was a movie theater there and several restaurants, so there were plenty of reasons for us to be there for hours.
"Raven, don’t leave out the mall without telling me.” Jahrein commanded, as if he was somebody’s daddy, while we entered the mall.
“Whatever.” I waved him off.
“Yeah, whatever my ass. You better not leave out of here, girl. And don’t let me catch you talking to no niggas, either.”
“Jahrein, I got her.” Shell offered, like she was somebody’s baby-sitter.
Jahrein frowned at her, almost like the notion of her speaking to him was offensive.
I was so glad when we separated. However, Shell’s mood seemed to change once we were alone. As we were walking through the mall, she started talking about Jahrein, who had taken Lero to the barber’s shop inside the mall.
“Girl, Jah’s bitch ass is trying to ignore me on purpose.” she complained out of nowhere.
“Why do you think that he’s ignoring you?” I asked her, because as far as I knew she had no reason to be concerned about him, or him about her.