Chapter 3 #4
I really didn’t mind being with Jahrein.
I felt extra special. I was able to get him in a way that all the other girls only dreamed about.
With every touch, I felt that our bond was strengthening.
He had a way of making me feel that no one else came before me.
I even loved when we had sex, but it was just that Jahrein was so nasty when we were behind closed doors.
There wasn’t anything that we had not tried; he would even lick my ass.
He said that my body was so perfect and he loved to taste it.
He was teaching me all kinds of things. He started shaving my coochie, which I swore was the weirdest thing ever.
He said that he preferred it bald, and of course, I went along with it.
Having so much sex with Jahrein made me feel different.
I saw things differently. I talked differently.
Hell, I walked differently. I had been staying with my daddy for two and a half months, and it seemed that my body have sprouted overnight.
I guess that's why the red bathing suit that I was rocking was killing everybody.
It was the end of the summer and Jahrein was having a pool party for his eighteenth birthday.
My daddy’s friend let Jah have it at his house.
It was a huge brick home with a humongous pool out back.
They were trying to tell us that the man had a record company or some shit like that, but that all looked like dope money to me.
Red had braided my hair in two big and neat French braids. I was looking like a real Cherokee Indian.
The music was bumping and there were people of all ages getting their party on. Many of Red’s home girls were there, and kept telling Ray-Ray to keep an eye on me. I knew what was being said, because I overheard them talking.
“Ray-Ray, is that your daughter?” Esha, Red's cousin, asked.
“Yeah, that’s my baby.” he beamed with pride.
“She is so pretty. She must get it from her mama.” she giggled.
“Nah, she looks just like his ass.” another one of Red’s girls interjected.
“Yes she does.” Red nodded in agreement.
“That little girl got a bad ass shape on her!” Esha exclaimed.
“Girl, do she.” Red nodded once again.
“Look at these mannish ass boys eye balling her. Ray, you better watch that one.” another light-skinned chick spoke up.
“And he need to watch these grown ass men. They be watching her too.” Red laughed while shaking her head.
“Yeah, y’all got y’all’s hands full. She gonna be a little heart breaker if she aint already one.” the light skinned chick, said as she sipped out a cup.
“Main, these muthafuckas got me fucked up. I’ll spend life in prison first.” Ray-Ray blurted.
A part of me just knew that I was about to be busted.
Jahrein and I had been doing our thing all summer long, and it was just a matter of time before we would be found out.
I knew that I had the body of an older girl, and I figured it was due to my sexual activity.
My body seemed to have matured overnight, and maybe that was going to be my dead giveaway.
I even caught a few of my daddy’s boys checking me out.
I was not too thrilled about that shit. Jahrein was enjoying his party, but he was watching me at the corner of his eyes.
He had forewarned me about my behavior, before we left our house.
“Don’t be talking to no niggas. You know that I can’t really say shit to you on the spot, but don’t test me. And keep your t-shirt on too.”
I wasn’t listening to that nigga. Although, he tried like hell, he could not run me.
I was going to do whatever I felt like doing.
That is why I took off my t-shirt the minute we walked to the pool area.
I hadn’t even gotten in the pool, because I was too busy showing off my fire red two-piece and pissing him off.
“Girl, come with me so that I can use the restroom.” Shell said as she pulled me towards the house. I had brought her, April, Le-Le, and Tiffany from the block with me to Jah’s party.
“Okay.” I nodded, as I let her lead me.
She found the restroom and told me to come in with her.
“Bitch, I need to change my tampon.” she sat on the toilet and pulled out a bloody stick from her coochie.
“Ugh. You walk around with that up your pussy all day?” I asked her in disgust.
“Hell yeah. How do you think that I can still walk around in this bathing suit?” she laughed as she wiped herself.
“Um umm.” I hunched my shoulders.
“What do you use?” she asked me.
“Pads.” I tried hold my breath. I don't know why she wasn't embarrassed about the odor her body was giving off.
“So, you been wearing pads all this summer? Even when your ass gets in the pool as you always do?”
I had to think about that. I could not recall having a cycle while living with my daddy. “I don’t think that I have had a period, since I’ve been living out here.”
“What? You haven’t started having periods yet?”
“Yeah. I’ve been having them since I was eleven.”
“But you haven’t had one since you moved with Ray-Ray?”
“Nope.” I told her. I didn't see what the big deal was. Any month without a period was a good month to me.
“Raven, are you sexually active?” she asked with a raised brow.
I really didn’t want her in my business, but she didn’t have to know who I was having sex with. “Yeah.”
“So, you don’t think that you could be pregnant?”
“No.” I laughed. That was ridiculous.
“You sure? I mean, you have gained weight. Your stomach is still flat but your ass and titties are huge for your size.” she pointed out.
I started posing in the mirror. I was looking at myself and loved what stood before me. I was still slim, but had gotten slightly thicker in certain areas. Still, my caramel skin did not have one stretch mark or scar. My stomach was still tight. Yep, Shell was losing her damn mind.
“Girl, I aint pregnant.”
“Whatever. Do that nigga Jah use condoms?” she asked, in a sarcastic tone.
“What?” my chest pounded.
“Does Jah use protection when he fucks you?”
“Why would you think that we’re doing something?”
“Raven, I am far from crazy. Every time I call you he is somewhere around questioning you. He don’t let you talk to no boys.
How many niggas have he beat up over you this summer?
How many passion marks have you miraculously had, even though he don’t let you out of his eyesight to do anything?
Why don’t you ever talk about any other boys?
Why in the hell did he pull your hair in the mall?
Why does he get mad when you wear short clothes?
Why don’t he want us hanging out? Don’t think that nobody notices how y’all barely come outside when Red and Ray-Ray are gone.
And why in the hell is he watching you with a frown on his face as you prance your ass around in this bathing suit? ”
She had a whole lot of questions and I didn’t have no answers. I was speechless. My shit wasn’t as tight as I thought.
“You don’t have to say shit. And don’t worry.
I haven’t told anybody. You are cool peeps and I see that you know how to keep your mouth shut.
That’s cool that you don’t like to tell your business.
I’ve told you plenty of shit and not once did you tell my business.
Loose lips sink ships. And then you didn’t trip out when I told you that I fucked him. ”
I still didn’t say shit.
“On the cool, aint nothing wrong with what you doing. It aint like y’all related. Jahrein got a big dick and can fuck. He just don’t eat no pussy. That’s the only thing that I didn’t like.”
“Well, maybe he just does that to certain people.” I told her as I exited the bathroom. I really didn’t care for how she just had to remind me that she had Jah first.
“What the fuck y’all in there doing?” Jahrein questioned. He had been standing on the other side of the door, and seemed it like he’d been listening to us.
“Nothing. Why, were you eaves dropping or something?” I sassed. Overtime, I had learned to assert myself with him.
“Shut up.” he smiled showing off the new gold pull-out grill that Ray-Ray bought for him for his birthday.
He even took Jah to the tattoo shop where he got Red’s name on his forearm and Sunnyside Soldier across his back.
He was looking good in his long red swimming trunks.
It was sheer coincidence that we were sporting the same color.
His abs was looking appetizing, and those bowlegs always did something to me.
“Whatever.” I shoved him playfully. He pinned me against the wall and wrapped his arms around my waist. Sometimes it felt like he'd forget that we weren’t supposed to be doing that.
“Jah, stop.” I whined
“No. Give me a kiss.” he laughed as he continued to hold me.
“See, you smell like weed. That shit got you tripping.”
“You love me?” he asked me as he kissed my lips. Just then Shell finally came out of the bathroom and gave us a mean mug.
“Move.” I whined.
“No, answer me, with your hard headed ass. You know I told you to keep that shirt on, but I’ma let you make it. Now, tell Daddy that you love him.”
I sighed. “I love you.”
“Ugh, you need to use the bathroom?” Shell questioned with a disgusted look on her face.
“Yeah. It’s about time. I thought you had fell in the toilet.” Jahrein muttered, as he pulled me in the bathroom and closed the door. I was a little caught off guard that he was being so open in front of her, but then I remembered that he was at the door listening to us talk.
“Ewe that bitch smell like fish.” he complained, as I giggled. “You need to be careful about what you tell that dirty bitch. Everybody aint really your friend, Raven.” He warned and then went right back to kissing me.
He wasted no time in lifting up my top and taking my nipple into his mouth. It was feeling good, but I was trying to be precautious.
“Jah, people are going to start looking for you.”