Prologue #2
The paparazzi are a ragged, restless encampment in the public easement, at least thirty strong.
They’re a colony of cargo shorts, sunburns, and relentless ambition, armed with telephoto lenses long enough to capture a stray tear from a hundred yards.
They’ve been baking on the asphalt since dawn, fueled by stale donuts and lukewarm coffee, all for a stolen glimpse of Annemarie Collier.
According to this week’s Vanity Fair, I am the star of “The Wedding of the Decade.” Old Hollywood Royalty Meets New Money Empire.
It reads less like a society headline and more like a studio logline for a summer blockbuster.
Everyone wants to see it. Everyone except the girl in the dress.
I have this wild, animal-like impulse to disappear.
I want to hike up this forty-two-thousand-dollar dress, silk train and all, kick off the crystal-embellished heels that are already pinching my toes, and climb out of the window like some deranged Cinderella in reverse.
I would scream into the Pacific breeze, sprint barefoot across that flawless lawn, a streak of ivory against the green, past the startled quartet and the gaping guests, through the gates, and into the anonymous, forgiving dusk.
I would run until the salt air burned my lungs and I was just a girl on a beach, watching the ocean bleed into the sky, belonging to absolutely no one.
Least of all to the man waiting in a tuxedo by the altar that I’m pretty sure I don’t even like anymore.
The Colliers are Hollywood royalty—or at least that’s the line people feed me right before they ask for a favor.
An introduction to my dad. A script read.
Box seats at the Dolby. My grandfather, Clive Collier, was the golden boy of Golden Age actors.
His cleft chin was said to be carved by Michelangelo himself and his baritone voice could apparently melt butter through a drive-in speaker.
He sparred with Lucille Ball in screwball comedies, broke hearts in sweeping epics, and shared a scandalous, eight-second kiss with Ginger Rogers in The Venetian Affair that had the Hays Office clutching their pearls.
He was a friend to giants—Audrey Hepburn, Marilyn Monroe (whom he always called “my good friend, Marilyn” with a wistful shake of his head), Elizabeth Taylor.
His Oscar for The Last Gentleman sits on a velvet dais in my father’s study, a secular relic.
I was thirteen when he died, and my memories are sense-impressions: the spicy-sweet scent of his Creed cologne, the booming laugh that shook his broad frame, the illicit thrill of him sneaking me the maraschino cherries from his old-fashioneds at the Polo Lounge when my mother wasn’t looking.
My father, Graham Collier, took the family torch and ran behind the camera rather than in front of it.
Sixteen films in thirty years—sweeping, gorgeous, impossible-to-ignore movies that win everything and make money hand over fist. The Distance Between swept the Oscars in ’79.
Fields of Fire took seven statues in ’86.
Last year’s The Burning Season had think pieces for months about that ambiguous final shot.
He’s Spielberg-famous, Scorsese-respected.
When Graham Collier releases a movie, the entire industry rearranges its calendar to see it.
I grew up on his sets. I was seven on Winter’s Gate, sitting in a canvas chair with my name stitched on the back, watching him coax tears out of Meryl Streep for the fourteenth take.
He put me in The Memory Keeper when I was ten—a flashback scene, two lines, me in pigtails looking terrified.
I threw up twice in the wardrobe trailer from nerves, but Dad knelt in front of me, wiped my mouth with his own handkerchief, and said, “Just talk to me like we’re at home, kiddo.
Pretend the camera’s not even there.” The scene stayed in the movie.
My mother still has the framed Variety review that called my performance “heartbreakingly natural.”
He’s in Rome right now, directing his new film, but he promised he’d be on the red-eye and here to walk me down the aisle. He always promises. And he usually keeps his word. Eventually.
My mother, Elaine Granger Collier, was the wide-eyed ingénue of the late fifties and early sixties—Hitchcock’s final blonde in The Glass Hour, Golden Globe winner for Summer’s Daughter.
She gave it all up when I came along in 1969, but people still stop her in restaurants, still ask for her autograph and photo.
She’s probably downstairs right now, gliding between tables in her dove-gray Chanel, making sure every peony is facing the right direction, every flute of champagne perfectly chilled, every crisis invisibly solved.
I’m their only child. You’d think that would make me the sun in their world, but really I was more like a quiet moon—orbiting two very large, very bright planets. I grew up as the curator of their greatness—expected to carry the torch, but never allowed to strike the match myself.
And then there are the Golightlys. If we are the “Old Hollywood” prestige, they are the “New Money” muscle.
Daniel’s father, Martin, spent the seventies and eighties paving over Orange County’s soul, turning orange groves into sprawling glass towers and shopping meccas.
He bought up thousands of acres of dirt when it was dirt-cheap, waited for the freeways to catch up, and then sold it back to the world one luxury zip code at a time.
They’re rich enough that they don’t just own the land, they now own the politicians who zone it.
They’re so rich that it makes even my mother’s most affluent friends whisper into their martinis, a mix of envy and disdain for money that hasn’t been aged in a cellar for three generations.
This wedding is the ultimate merger—a strategic alliance of dynasties. the Collier name and the Golightly capital. It’s a political marriage disguised in tulle and flowers.
My hands still won’t stop shaking. It’s my wedding day.
According to every movie, magazine, and piece of advice ever whispered in a bridal boutique, this is the moment I should feel buoyant.
Effervescent. Certain. I should be fluttering with those delicate, hopeful butterflies everyone writes songs about.
Instead, the feeling is a leaden, sickening plummet in my gut, as if I’m teetering over something irreversible, toes curling over empty air. One breath, one nod, one step forward, and the ground will vanish. Forever.
The door to the suite swings open without a knock—privacy in my family is a quaint concept, easily overridden by urgency and ownership.
My mother sweeps in first, a vortex of purpose that smells of Casablanca lilies and the sharp, familiar spice of her Shalimar perfume.
Her dark hair is a flawless helmet of blown-out waves, her makeup a masterpiece of neutral tones designed to look like she isn’t wearing any.
The very atmosphere seems to contract around her, as if the room is sucking in its gut.
Trailing her is my grandmother, June Collier, and the room seems to dim a little in deference.
June is seventy-two going on fifty, with hair that’s a crisp, expensive blonde, not a strand of silver in sight, and eyes that can deconstruct your entire life’s choices in a single blink.
She’s wearing an ivory Escada suit and pearls the size of jawbreakers.
She is Grace Kelly if Grace Kelly had ever won two Oscars and terrified directors for sport.
Most of the famous faces mingling downstairs are here, ultimately, for her.
They crave proximity to the woman who shared martinis with Katharine Hepburn at the Ritz, who effortlessly charmed Gregory Peck into being her escort for an entire awards season.
But her most celebrated role was off-screen: she was the luminous starlet who achieved the impossible.
She caught Clive Collier. He was Hollywood’s most elusive, celebrated bachelor, a man whose beauty seemed destined to remain a solitary monument, until June.
Their 1947 wedding at Lake Como was a three-day, transatlantic event that still lives in industry lore—a royal union that anointed them the undisputed king and queen of a glittering empire.
“There’s my beautiful girl,” she says, her voice a polished silver bell. She kisses my cheeks—one, two—her hands cool and papery on my skin. “This dress is divine, Annemarie. Absolutely divine. Though I still say the Dior would have given you more help up top.”
I love the woman, truly. But loving June Collier is like running a marathon across a desert without a drop of water—it’s thrilling, it’s overwhelming, and you are always, always one step away from collapse.
She’s perpetually appraising, offering “improvements” that feel like tiny, precise paper cuts.
She’s taken me to Gstaad and Kyoto, bought me clothes by designers whose names I couldn’t pronounce, taught me to differentiate a Sancerre from a Pouilly-Fumé before I could drive.
But she’s also the woman who took me to Paris at eight and spent the entire afternoon at the Louvre correcting my posture in front of the Mona Lisa.
She’s the one who bought me an Hermès scarf for my twelfth birthday just so she could tie it around my neck and tell me that pastels made me look “vaguely unwell and a touch anemic.”