Chapter 19
HEX
Jay’s beauty is driving me crazy. It was hard enough to share my little one before, but now I worry I’ll go to bed every night with my aura solid bronze, and wake with it the same color every morning.
I don’t want to take the hybrid in my arms just to kiss, hold, or fuck the life seed out of him for the rest of our days—I want to own him, and share him with no one.
That is why I resisted joining with him so hard, even though I knew one time would not change him.
I feared sharing him afterwards would break something in me, but now, resisting that joining has broken me all the same.
I feel as though a fist the size of Leon’s has closed around my heart, and the pain of it makes me want to scream.
To release a great bellow every Earthling could hear across the stars.
“So, uh, is this facility where everyone sleeps or do they go somewhere else?” Jay asks when I grudgingly board the elevator with him, holding in my rage and hurt to the best of my ability.
It’s not going well.
“The guest quarters are down a few floors. We will talk there.”
“No, actually,” Jay says with an emphatic shake of his head. “We’re not talking. We’re going to do what we should have done the night you came into my room and cupped my balls.”
I give him a long look as his aura emerges and bleeds into mine. My first instinct is to resist what our auras reveal—that we both want to fuck more than we’ve ever wanted anything else—but I remind myself I am no longer bound by my duty to resist a forbidden joining at all costs.
Xan and Braxton broke that oath, and now everything has changed.
We reach our floor, and I sweep my little one into my arms and carry him out of the elevator.
He squeaks with surprise and grasps my shoulders. “So—blimey—this is happening.”
“It is,” I assure him.
The kitchen and sitting room are a blur as I move through them, so fast I get a little dizzy before I kick the bedroom door open and send it soaring through the air.
“Do you know how to fix that?” Jay asks, blinking up at me. “Or is it going to stay that way?”
“I’m sure I could figure it out, but at this moment I don’t really give a fuck,” I growl, as we tumble onto the bed and instantly start pulling at each other’s clothes.
The shorts that smell of Braxton come off first. The smell is still all over Jay, but when I’m finished with him mine will overpower it.
“Language, Captain,” he teases, as my coveralls come off next. “Do you want me to clean that mouth out with something?”
My givers throb at those words, so close to the ones I used before I “punished” his mouth, and watched him drink my seed.
“You are full of good ideas today, little one,” I tell him, sliding down between his thighs.
“Damn right I am,” he says, lifting his hips to encourage me.
Gripping those hips tight and holding them still, I lick his blue balls with my red tongue, and pre-seed spills from his big, beautiful cock. It gained extra girth and length with the change, and my mouth waters at how perfect that new form is. I need to stretch my throat with it.
Chasing that desire, I part my lips and wrap them around my little one’s arousal, careful with my fangs as I elicit a marvelous hitch of his breath. Then I take all of his velvet hardness, pressing my forehead to his firm abdomen.
“Nnn, Hex!” he cries, grabbing my hair so hard he pulls a few roots out of my scalp.
I flash him a heated look and his aura sways.
Then white bursts through it.
The river of seed that I swallow is the same color. I see that when I pull back, and squeeze another glob out to lap up.
“Oh, stars,” he groans. “It’s fortunate I’m in a body now that can handle how good you are at that, because that orgasm was intense enough to knock Human Jay out.”
“Did you pass out when the doctor and the commander did that?” I question, my voice barely above a whisper. “Or did they even…” He meets my gaze with dazed eyes as I trail off.
“Would it bother you if they did?”
“Yes,” I say, as honest as my bronze aura.
It won’t let me hide the truth, so I might as well be.
“Everything you’ve done with them bothers me—and not just because it was forbidden.
It’s hard for me to share you, Jaxus. Sometimes, telling myself I would be the first Giver to make love to you, when the right time came, was all I could do to keep my jealousy at bay—and accept that I would be sharing you for the rest of my life. ”
“Well, Xan and Braxton didn’t suck me off,” he says softly, “and Xan was my first in my human form—but you’ll be the first Giver who makes love to me in this new form.”
“Braxton might feel left out then.”
“I was the first person who ever topped Braxton, so we had our own unique first too,” Jay reasons. “In that moment he was mine, and right now I’m yours. And this moment will be ours forever.”
“Forever ours,” I agree.
He smiles and pulls me close, kissing me with urgency. His new, larger hands roam over my hot skin, and I can barely recall that there were any moments that existed before this one. “I love you, little one. I know I don’t say it as much as—”
“Braxton?” he supplies.
“Braxton,” I grit out. “But—”
“Shhh.” He kisses me again. “You don’t have to say it as much as he does. You’re different Givers, and I love that as much as I love you, Hex. Just don’t keep me out of your seven-year plans anymore.”
“Never again,” I promise him, draping one of his legs over my shoulder. “Are you ready for me to make this hybrid ass mine?”
“I’m so wet for you I can barely stand how ready I am, Hex,” he breathes. “Give me everything you’ve got.”
I’m not sure if he means he wants me to give him two givers, or all of my wild, lust-driven energy that is on the verge of plunging me into total madness. So, it’s only right for me to give him both, and to hold on to just enough sense to get myself back under control if it’s all too much for him.
He touches himself with one hand, and the other clings to the sheets as I press into what I can only describe as home: the one place where I truly belong and always will.
A place so perfect and right I feel myself doubting that I have truly earned it, but it is mine, all the same.
The certainty of that washes over me with waves of pleasure.
“God, I’m so full,” he moans, as I grunt with a testing thrust. “So full, and it feels so good.”
I thrust deeper into his perfect hole, and it begins to vibrate.
Hail to the stars. He has discovered the most wicked thing he can do with his new muscles. I let out a strangled roar, and his eyes gleam mischievously before I decide two can play at this game. Picking up my pace wipes away that mischievous look as he mouths Wow.
It’s too good for either of us to speak.
I fuck him so fast my givers stimulate his weak spot with vibrations that rival his own, and the bed shakes like an earthquake is rocking the building.
All the noise we make, however, does not quite match the intensity of our pleasure.
Jay’s expression is that of a lover who is utterly wrecked by it, and gazing down at him is my undoing.
I nearly pass out as our cocks swell and pulse with release, until our drained seed sacks leave us with a terrible, wonderful mess.
“Christ,” Jays says, his leaking hole still twitching uncontrollably around my shafts and heads. “How do you turn this thing off?”
I chuckle softly, shivers running through my body as I comb my thick hair back with my fingers, so it isn’t falling in his face. “Just let your hybrid body do what comes naturally to it. Perhaps it will help you get pregnant.”
And I must be a greedy bastard, because the incredible first we just had should be enough for me, but now all I can think about is my hatchling being the first hybrid baby Jaxus will carry.
His eyes shine at the idea of my seed taking root within him. “Do you think kissing, while we stay joined, could help too?”
“Probably not, but it couldn’t hurt.”
I lick the salty sweat that covers his neck, then capture his mouth, gentle and slow. The taste of his life seed is still in mine, and I like it so much it’s hard to resist breaking away, so I can clean up some of the stickiness that’s all over his abdomen with my tongue.
We both moan in our throats, and Jay grabs my ass, his touch telling me that new desires are in his thoughts too.
He may already have a hatchling growing inside him, or he may not. There’s no way for us to know yet, but I have to agree with Leon: With three mates, there’s no question that he’ll be growing a blue baby bump soon.