25. Bree
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Bree
I watched Rafael stand up to his father.
I watched him choose me, out loud, in front of the man whose approval he’d spent his whole life chasing. I watched Warren Grant’s expression shift from disappointment to confusion to what looked almost like wistfulness.
And then I watched Warren Grant tell his son he was proud of him.
I was standing in the doorway of the study with Sylvia beside me. We’d followed the sound of voices, curious and worried, and we’d heard everything.
Sylvia’s hand found mine.
“He’s never said that before,” she murmured. “Not once in thirty-six years.”
I looked at her. At this woman I’d assumed was my enemy, who’d spent four years grieving a daughter-in-law she thought she’d lost forever.
“I need to tell you something,” I said.
The words were out before I could stop them. Before I could think about timing or consequences or all the reasons I’d kept this secret for so long.
Sylvia turned to me. Warren and Rafael, hearing my voice, looked over.
“When I left,” I said, “when the marriage ended and I disappeared, I didn’t know I was pregnant. I found out in a bus station in Pennsylvania, alone, scared, with nowhere to go.”
Sylvia’s hand tightened on mine.
“I had a baby. A girl. She’s almost four now.” My voice cracked. “Her name is Rosie, and she has Rafael’s eyes, and she’s the best thing I’ve ever done. And I’m sorry I kept her from you. I’m sorry I let you miss four years of her life. But I was so hurt, and so angry, and I thought-”
“You thought we were the enemy.” Sylvia’s voice was soft. “You thought we’d take her from you.”
“Yes.”
“Oh, darling.” She pulled me into her arms. “We’d never. Never. She’s your daughter. You’re her mother. Nothing in this world could make us try to change that.”
I was crying. I couldn’t stop.
Warren crossed the room. He stood beside his wife, looking at me with an expression I’d never seen from him before. Tenderness, concern, and love, almost.
“A granddaughter,” he said quietly.
“Yes.”
“A girl.”
“Yes.”
His face broke into a smile. The first genuine smile I’d ever seen from Warren Grant.
“I always wanted a granddaughter,” he said. “Boys are tedious. They argue about business all the time.”
I laughed through my tears.
“When can we meet her?” Sylvia asked. “When can we see her? We could fly out tomorrow, we could-”
“Not yet.”
Rafael’s voice. He’d crossed to stand beside me, his hand finding the small of my back.
“Rosie is still getting used to me,” he explained. “She only recently started calling me daddy. If we overwhelm her with grandparents before she’s ready, we might set back the progress we’ve made.”
“But-” Sylvia started.
“Mom. Trust us. When she’s ready, you’ll be the first to know. But we need to do this on her timeline, not ours.”
I looked at him. At this man who’d learned nothing about parenting four weeks ago and was now advocating for his daughter’s emotional well-being with the intensity he’d once saved for boardrooms.
I almost cried again.
“He’s right,” I said. “She needs time. But I promise you’ll meet her soon.”
Sylvia nodded, clearly disappointed but accepting.
“Stay the night,” Warren said. “Both of you. It’s too late to fly back, and we have plenty of room.”
Rafael looked at me. I nodded.
“Thank you,” he said.
They showed us to Rafael’s childhood bedroom. It was exactly as I’d imagined it: shelves of books, a desk covered in old papers, a twin bed with a navy blue comforter. Trophies from science fairs lined one shelf. A telescope sat in the corner by the window.
“I can take the room across the hall,” Rafael said as his parents retreated down the stairs. “Give you some privacy.”
“Okay.”
He nodded. Started to turn away.
“Rafael.”
He stopped.
“Thank you,” I said. “For what you said about Rosie. About waiting. About not overwhelming her.”
“She’s my daughter.” His voice was simple. “Her needs come first.”
He went to the room across the hall. I heard the door close.
I showered in the adjoining bathroom. Put on the borrowed nightgown Sylvia had provided. Climbed into Rafael’s childhood bed and stared at the ceiling and tried to process everything that had happened.
Camille was gone. The truth was out. Sylvia was innocent. Warren was proud.
And Rafael had chosen me. Again and again, in front of everyone, he’d chosen me.
I got out of bed.
Crossed to the door. Opened it. Walked down the hall to the room where Rafael was staying.
I knocked.
The door opened.
Rafael was standing there in his boxers and nothing else. My name stared back at me from over his heart, the ink dark against his skin.
“Bree?”
“I owe you an apology,” I said. “And if I kiss you first I’ll lose my nerve, so let me get it out.”
He went still in the doorway and waited. He’d gotten good at waiting.
“The photos were fake. I heard her say it in the diner, composites, and I kept waiting to feel vindicated, and instead I just felt sick. Because I used them. Not to leave you, I was already leaving, you’d made sure of that.
I used them to keep her. Every time Rosie asked about her father, I had the pictures to point to, proof that he’d cheated and we were better off without him.
Four years of telling myself that, and it turns out I built half of it on a lie Camille put together in a computer.
” My voice wasn’t steady, and I let it not be steady.
“I told myself I was the one who got wronged. The clean one. And I don’t think I get to say that anymore. ”
“Bree.” He stepped forward, then stopped himself, hands loose at his sides. “You checked what you had. You had photographs, and a woman who knew exactly which wound to press. Anyone would’ve believed them.”
“You wouldn’t have.”
“I’d have believed anything that confirmed what I already thought I deserved.
” He said it plainly, without flinching.
“That’s the part I need you to hear, so you stop trying to carry all of this by yourself.
Camille didn’t build the distance between us.
I did. For years I looked straight through you, and then a stranger handed you a reason to run, and you ran through a door I’d already left open. The lie is hers. The exit was mine.”
I studied him. Four years I’d spent sorting the two of us into a villain and a victim, and here he was in his parents’ hallway in his underwear, quietly refusing to let me keep the roles that clean.
“So we’re both guilty,” I said.
“We’re both guilty.” A corner of his mouth moved. “It’s the first thing we’ve ever completely agreed on.”
That undid me more than any apology could’ve. Not him taking all the blame, and not him handing it back to me. It was him splitting it down the middle, fair, the way I’d wanted to be treated the whole time I was married to him and never once was.
So I kissed him.
He made a sound, surprised and hungry, and his hands came up to cradle my face. He kissed me back with four years of longing, with the desperation of having waited too long for what he thought he’d lost forever.
Then he stopped.
“Wait.” He held me at arm’s length. “Wait, I need to - before we do this, I need to say it out loud.”
“Okay.”
“I don’t want just sex.” His voice was raw. “I want you. All of you. I want all of it, not just the parts I can put my hands on tonight. I want to wake up next to you. I want to fight with you about compost ratios. I want to watch Rosie grow up and have more children and build a life that lasts.”
“Rafael-”
“I’ve been a fucking asshole,” he continued.
“A terrible husband. A stupid man who couldn’t see what he had until it was gone.
I regret every single thing I did during our marriage, every missed dinner, every forgotten birthday, every time I made you feel invisible.
And I’m trying to make it better. I’m trying to be the man I should’ve been from the beginning. ”
“I know.”
“I need you to know out loud. I need you to hear me say it.” He took a breath. “I’m trying to get you back, Bree. Not the version where we just sleep together and hand Rosie back and forth. All the way back, for real. That’s what I want.”
I looked at him. At this man who once couldn’t name his own feelings, standing in front of me in his boxers, laying his heart bare.
“Yes,” I said. “It’s been clear.”
He laughed, the tension breaking. Then he pulled me against him and kissed me again.
We moved toward the bed. He lowered me onto the mattress with careful hands, settling over me, his weight a comfort I hadn’t known I’d been missing.
“We have to be quiet,” I whispered. “Your parents are down the hall.”
“I know.” He kissed my jaw. My neck. The hollow of my collarbone. “I’ll be quiet.”
“You’re never quiet.”
“I’ll learn.”
He pulled the borrowed nightgown over my head. I had nothing on underneath, and the sound he made was wrecked.
“God, Bree.”
“Shh.” I pressed two fingers to his mouth.
“I can’t - you’re so-”
“I know. Now be quiet and put your mouth on me.”
He didn’t need telling twice. He drew me down under him and kissed his way south, unhurried, relearning me with his hands and his mouth, the jut of my hip, the dip of my waist, the soft underside of my breast. This wasn’t the stable.
In the stable I’d been furious, using him, giving nothing back.
This was the opposite of that, and it undid me worse than any anger ever had.
When he settled between my thighs and put his mouth on my clit, I had to jam the back of my hand against my teeth to stay quiet.
“Let me hear you,” he murmured into me. “Just a little.”
He worked me slow and patient, reading every sound out of me and chasing it, and every time I got close he backed off and dragged me down again until I was trembling and cursing him under my breath.
My fingers knotted in his hair, my hips lifting for his mouth. He pinned them with a forearm across my belly and kept me exactly where he wanted me.
“Please,” I whispered.
“Please what?”
“Please, Rafael.”
“Say it.” His voice was gravel against me. “I want the words.”
“Please make me come.”
He did. I broke apart with my hand clamped over my own mouth, my whole body bowing off the bed while he held me through every last wave of it.
When I came back to myself he was braced over me, his cock in his fist, his eyes gone black.
“Can I-”
“Yes. God, yes.”
He pushed into me slow, one thick inch at a time, giving me every second I needed to stretch around him.
“Bree,” he breathed. “You feel - I can’t-”
I hooked my legs around him and pulled him the rest of the way home.
He started to move, slow, and then not slow at all, driven by a hunger that matched mine exactly. The old bed knocked against the wall and neither of us cared.
His forehead dropped to mine. Our eyes caught and held.
“I love you,” he said, the words wrenched out of somewhere deep. “I love you, I should’ve said it years ago, I’ve never known anything the way I know this.”
He watched me while he said it, buried inside me, both hands framing my face so I couldn’t look away.
I came a second time, harder, his name breaking apart behind my teeth.
He followed a stroke later, shuddering, his face dropping to the curve of my neck.
We lay there wrecked in the dark, his heart slamming against my ribs.
“I meant it,” he said quietly. “Every word.”
“I know.”
“Do you-” He stopped himself. “Never mind.”
“Do I love you?”
Silence.
“I’m not there yet.” I wasn’t going to lie to him about it. “I might be. I think I’m getting close. But I won’t say it until it’s true, because you taught me what the words cost when they’re not.”
He didn’t say anything for a while.
Then he kissed my shoulder, soft and gentle.
“Then I’ll be here when you are,” he said.
I fell asleep in his arms, in his childhood bed, with his name inked over his heart and my name on his lips. He’d said he loved me and I hadn’t said it back, and he’d held me anyway. For four years I’d braced for the moment a man’s patience ran out. His didn’t.
And for the first time in four years, I wasn’t afraid of what that meant.