Chapter Fourteen
“READY TO GO?” IONIKO asked gravely even though he knew it was a pointless question. Katya had told him their sister hadn’t slept a wink, spending the rest of the night packing her things and making calls to ensure she no longer had any need to go back to Miami.
MJ nodded. “Ready as I will ever be.” She forced a smile, telling herself she had learn to do it sooner or later anyway.
Katya returned her smile, but her sister’s was an even bigger fake. MJ’s heart constricted, knowing how much Katya worried over her. But it was as if she couldn’t completely empathize with anyone. Walls around her heart had somehow come out of nowhere, preventing her from feeling as much as she wanted.
She could smile, but she couldn’t laugh. She could whisper, but she couldn’t shout. And she could care, but she could never love.
They stepped inside the elevator, the silence between them unbroken. She closed her eyes.
Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
She was doing the right thing.
She was.
MJ opened her eyes when the elevator chimed, and the doors opened to the lobby. Ioniko stepped out first and Katya followed. Only when she stepped out did she see the man standing at the very center, hair disheveled, clothes rumpled, but still looking like the most beautiful man in the world.
Oh God, God, God.
Why do you keep doing this to me, God?
Why?
“MJ,” he said hoarsely.
His voice snapped her out of her reverie, and lifting her chin, she forced herself to walk.
“MJ...”
Still, she didn’t falter, forcing herself to walk past him. But before she could, he had his fingers wrapped around her wrist. He spun her around, and she opened her mouth to tell him to let her go. But he beat her to talking, and the words he told her wrecked her world.
“I heard what you said last night.”
MJ almost fell back.
Oh God, no.
Helios never took his gaze off hers. “And I don’t give a fuck. Stay with me and torture me if it makes you happy. Just...stay with me. Don’t leave.” His voice broke.
She squeezed her eyes shut at the torment in Helios’ gaze. It wasn’t right to have someone so strong and proud like Helios begging her like this. “Please,” she said thinly, “please let me go.”
“Didn’t you hear me?” he growled rawly. “I want you with me, whatever the consequence, no matter what.”
She tried pulling away, desperate to put some distance between them. “I won’t ever allow that to happen. If you really heard me...” MJ gasped. She had to. She just couldn’t breathe, the pain inside her ballooning to such proportions it was as if she could no longer breathe without hurting.
“I can’t ever do that to you,” she choked out. “I can’t. I don’t want to.”
“But I want you to,” he said tightly. “I need you to. Because the alternative is worse. I don’t want to lose you.”
She shook her head and the tears started to fall. “Please. Just let me go.”
The hopelessness in her voice chilled and weakened him, but he rallied on, knowing he would fight for her until his dying breath. He had fucking faced a fucking nation of criminals for her. He would not give up now.
“Tell me,” he urged her tautly. “Just tell me what you want—”
Even knowing she was being unfair, she cried out, “Ioniko.”
In a second, her brother was there, pulling her away from Helios.
Helios went berserk as he found himself surrounded by Ioniko Vlahos’ men, all of them intent on keeping the woman he loved away from her.
“MJ, no! Don’t leave me!”
But still, he saw her sobbing as she turned her back at him.
If she disappeared on him now, he had a feeling he would never see her again.
Panic ate at him, driving him to his knees.
“What the fuck do you want me to do?” he shouted. “Do I need to get myself raped just to make us even? Because if that’s what it takes for us to be together again, then it’s what I’ll do.” His chest heaved, his emotions spiraling out of control. “How many men do you want? Five? Ten?”
MJ shuddered to a stop, crying so hard she could no longer make herself move. His words were so, so vile, but they were words of love, too, and she knew it.
Behind her, Helios’ voice was hoarse and panicky. “Tell me,” he shouted. “You want it done with a fucking GoPro? Anything. Just...” His voice broke. “Don’t leave me.”
And when Helios Andreadis crumbled in front of everyone, so did the walls around her heart. Everything just clicked, and it became so wonderfully, painfully clear.
All this time, she had pushed him away because deep inside, she was afraid he would do it. She had been afraid they would do it to her. That if she allowed herself to believe everyone would still love her...that was when they would turn their backs on her.
That was when they would realize she could never earn their love.
And so before that could happen, she had forced everyone to earn her love instead. Katya, Ioniko, and Helios.
“Please...MJ...what do you need me to do so I can deserve you?”
With a cry, MJ whirled around and ran to Helios, falling to her knees and pulling him into her arms. He gasped and shuddered in the circle of her embrace. The sound and feel of his relief made her cry harder. Made her hug him harder, too.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered. “I’m so, so, sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” She wept harder as she felt him tenderly cupping her face, and when their gazes met and she saw the unconditional love in his eyes, she sobbed, “I’m so sorry.”
He lifted one shaky hand to push away the wet strands of hair clinging to her tear-ravaged cheeks. “You never have to say sorry to me, brat. As long as you don’t leave me.”
She shook her head, pressing her lips to his. “Never.”
His control snapped, and he hauled her tightly to him even as he took her lips in a kiss. “I love you.”
She wept and laughed, loving the way her heart thrilled at his words. She was going to be all right now. She was really going to be all right. Wrapping her arms tightly around his neck, she kissed him back, whispering, “I love you.”