Chapter 50
Andrik POV cont
The sound of her breathing wakes me. We’re tangled together in the furs Saevel brought us—her back pressed to my chest, my arm wrapped around her waist. The Godfire has dimmed to embers, casting the clearing in soft blue light.
Her heat hasn’t broken. If anything, what we did last night has kicked it into full gear. I can smell it on her skin—that sweet floral scent that makes my kaev?n ache.
But she’s deeply asleep. The thraev?n I gave her last night is still working through her system, combined with the sheer exhaustion of everything her body has been through. She won’t wake for hours.
I should let her rest. I ghost a kiss over her shoulder, careful not to disturb her.
Her hand twitches in her sleep and falls to the snow beside us, fingers curling into the freshly fallen powder. And somehow... I feel it. A phantom sensation that races down my spine—cold and electric, like fingers trailing across my skin.
I freeze.
What in thal?n’s name?
She does it again, fingers dragging lazily through the snow, and this time the sensation is stronger. It wraps around me, tightening like a fist around my shaft.
I bite back a groan, hips jerking involuntarily against her. Every time she touches a piece of the forest. I can feel it.
My breath comes faster as I stare at her hand. She’s completely unaware, lost in dreams, but every unconscious movement sends pleasure shooting through me.
Is this... the bond?
My heart pounds as I reach over and guide her hand to a patch of frostvine nearby. The moment her fingers brush the delicate tendrils, pleasure explodes through me.
“Gods—” I choke out, pressing my face into her shoulder to muffle the sound,
She doesn’t stir. I must have given her more venom than I realized, or now that we’re fully bonded, it has more of an effect on her.
Which means...
I move her hand again—this time to the god-fire warmed moss. The sensation shifts immediately. Warmth seeps into my chest, spreading lower, sinking into my skin like her palms dragging down my torso.
My cock throbs, already painfully hard.
One more. Just one more test.
I guide her hand back to the snow and nearly come undone. The cold wraps around me, ghost pressure that feels exactly like her hand stroking me from base to tip.
“Lumi—” I breathe her name, hand trembling as I pull hers away from the snow before I lose control completely.
She makes a soft sound in her sleep, settling deeper into the furs. The bond... the forest bond. She must be connected to the land now. When she touches it, I feel her. And when I touch her...
My hand slides down her stomach, settling between her thighs. She’s dripping already. Even in sleep, her body wants this. Wants me.
I know I shouldn’t... I should let her keep resting. But gods help me, I can’t.
“Forgive me, lumina’ka,” I whisper against her neck. “I know you need sleep, but I need you too much.”
I trail my fingers through her vaeliss?n, and she lets out a sigh. Her hips shift slightly, chasing my touch.
“So responsive to your mate,” I murmur, trailing my fangs over the side of her throat. “Even dreaming, your body knows me.”
I slide one finger inside her slowly, and she clenches around me.
“I wonder if you’re dreaming of me right now,” I breathe, adding a second finger. “Dreaming of this. Of us.”
She’s so warm, so wet. Taking my fingers like she was made for them.
“Stay asleep, Sael?n,” I whisper, curling my fingers to find that spot inside her that makes her whimper. “Let me take care of you while you’re dreaming. Let me worship you.”
I pump my fingers slowly, watching her face for any sign of waking. Her hips roll slightly, little whines escaping her lips.
“So beautiful like this,” I rasp, thumb finding her clit. “Soft and warm and completely mine to touch.”
I can’t help myself... I need more of her.
I guide her hand back to the snow, and the dual sensation nearly destroys me. I feel her clench and flutter around my fingers, and simultaneously feel her phantom touch wrap around my aching cock.
“Lumi,” I groan, hips rocking against her back. “You’re going to kill me.”
I add a third finger, stretching her, preparing her, even though I know I shouldn’t.
But I’ve waited 3000 years for her. And right now, with her body yielding to mine and the bond singing between us, I can’t wait another moment.
“I need to be inside you,” I confess to her sleeping form.
“I need it so badly, lumina’ka. I’ll be gentle. I promise. I won’t even wake you.”
I ease my fingers out of her and position myself, lifting her leg over my hip. My cock slides through her wetness, and she lets out a sleepy whimper.
“Just let me...” I line myself up, pressing against her entrance. “I’ll make you feel so good, I promise.”
I push inside slowly—so slowly—watching her face for any sign of discomfort. But there’s nothing but a soft moan as her body accepts me.
“L?n’veshka,” I breathe, sinking deeper. “You’re perfect. So perfect. You’re taking me so well.”
I bottom out inside her and have to stop, forehead pressed to her shoulder, struggling for control. She’s so thrahking tight.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper against her skin. “I told myself I’d wait... that I’d be good for you. But gods—Lumi, your body asked so sweetly while you slept.”
I start to move. Slow, shallow thrusts that rock her body gently in my arms.
“I’ll keep it slow for you, little doe,” I murmur. “Keep you full and dreaming while I take care of you.”
I reach down and guide her hand back to the snow, and the combined sensation has drops of kaersin dripping inside her.
“The forest is ours now,” I tell her, thrusting deeper. “Both of us. You’re connected to it just like I am. When you touch it, I feel your hands on me. And when I’m inside you like this—” I groan as she clenches around me. “—the land feels us both.
My hand slides between her legs, finding her clit again. She moans louder this time, and her hips roll back to meet my thrust. But she still doesn’t wake.
“Ohh, look at you, my sweet sleepy girl,” I praise, picking up the pace. “Rocking back on my cock and you don’t even know you’re doing it.”
I can feel her getting closer even while she’s unconscious. Her walls start to flutter, and her breathing picks up.
“That’s it, my love,” I encourage, fingers working her clit in tight circles. “Come for me. You don’t even have to wake up. Just let your body give me what I need.”
I thrust harder, angling myself to hit her G-spot.
“I’m going to fill you,” I groan against her neck. “Going to pump you so full while you’re sleeping that when you wake up you’ll feel me dripping out of you.”
Her moans grow louder, more desperate. The venom is starting to wear off, sensations finally penetrating the haze of sleep.
“Wake up, Sael?n,” I murmur, thrusting deeper. “Wake up and feel what I’m doing to you. Feel how deep I am inside you.”
Her eyes flutter.
“That’s it, lumina’ka. Come back to me.”
“Andrik?” Her voice is heavy with drowsiness. “What—?”
“Shh,” I soothe, not stopping my movements. “I’ve got you. You’re safe.”
“I feel—” She gasps as I hit that spot again. “Oh God, you’re inside me—”
“I am,” I confess. “I couldn’t stop, Lumi. You were sleeping so peacefully, so beautiful, and I just—I needed you.”
“How long—” She’s more awake now, awareness flooding back. “Have you been—oh fuck, Andrik—”
“Not long,” I murmur against her ear, fingers still working her clit. “But long enough to get you right here. Right on the edge. Can you feel how close you are?”
She nods, hips starting to move with mine now, fully present.
“Then come for me,” I command, thrusting hard. “Let me feel your forgiveness run down my cock. Show me you forgive me for not being able to wait.”
“If you keep talking like that—” she pants, her speech broken. “I'm going to—
“Please,” I growl softly, losing rhythm. “Let go, Sael?n. I need to feel you choose me—again and again.”
I press her hand into the snow once more, and the instant the forest pulses back through me, she comes with a broken cry, body clenching around me so tightly my muscles lock.
Her orgasm crashes through her in waves, echoing through the forest, doubling back on itself until I can’t tell whose pleasure is whose.
“You're perfect, Lumi. I can feel you milking me—” I hiss, driving harder. “This come is for you. All of it. Every drop I've never given anyone else.” I come so hard my vision whites out. Cool seed floods into her on thick pulses, and she whimpers at the sensation.
We stay like that for a long moment, both trembling, struggling to catch our breath.
I should pull out, but I can’t make myself leave her body. Can’t bear the thought of not being connected to her like this.
“Andrik,” she rasps. “You’re still—”
“I know.” My voice comes out rough. “I just—I can’t. Not yet. Please, let me stay inside you. Just a little longer.”
She relaxes back against me. “Okay.”
The relief that floods through me is overwhelming. I bury my face in her neck, arms tightening around her.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper. “I’m so sorry. You were sleeping, and I should have waited. Should have been stronger. But I couldn’t—thal?n, I couldn’t stop myself.”
“Andrik—”
“You were so beautiful. So trusting.” My voice cracks. “And I took advantage of that. I know I did. I just—I needed you so badly, and I’m sorry... so sorry.”
She turns her head to look at me, and I can’t meet her eyes.
“Hey,” she says softly. “Look at me.”
I open my eyes reluctantly.
“I’m not mad,” she says. “I told you that you could, remember? The first time we ever talked telepathically? And I meant it.”
“I know, but—” I swallow hard. “You were helpless. Unconscious. And I just—I liked it, Lumi.”
“You liked your bonded mate who's in heat and desperately wanted you? That’s not a crime, Bambi.”She raises an eyebrow. “I’m not upset. I promise.”