Chapter 15
“Here. You look like you could use this.” Sean handed Katt a cold beer.
Dressed and lounging on the sofa, Katt accepted the offering and downed half the bottle before rubbing the chilled drink across his forehead. “Thanks.” He wiped his mouth. An intense heat lingered in his face and body, and the haze around his mind had yet to clear.
Sean sat next to him. “How are you feeling?”
Katt smiled uncertainly. “Not sure. Kinda weird, I guess. I don’t know.”
“Does it bother you that you might be gay?”
Katt dropped his gaze to the bottle he held in his lap. “I don’t know. Maybe.” He sighed. “I spent almost a decade not thinking about what happened in that fort. But maybe, subconsciously…” He shrugged and took another drink.
“The mind can play tricks on you,” Sean said. “I’m pretty sure I was gay all along, but had no clue until just before I came here.”
“Why did you come here?” Katt asked. “What made you sign up for this?”
Sean chuckled lightly. “A girl I really wanted to fuck wouldn’t let me unless I let her fuck me with a strap-on dildo.
After we went at it that way, I discovered I really liked it, and I wanted her to do it all the time.
I mean, it felt great. The first time about blew my mind.
Then I found myself browsing gay porn sites online and started to imagine getting pounded by a real cock—and a strong man.
I finally ended up here to test if that’s what I really wanted. ”
Katt smiled weakly. “And it was?”
“I’m still here.” Sean grinned and raised his beer bottle. “I haven’t regretted it or looked back.”
“So… just like that… you knew you were gay?”
“I mean, I was a little nervous and scared when it came to that moment. But once I relaxed and finally did it, I knew there was no going back.” He bumped Katt’s arm. “As much as you seemed to enjoy all of us blowing you, and the way you were kissing the twins, I’d bet you’re at the very least bi.”
How could Katt deny it? After everything?
Did he even want to deny it? Being here with these men felt…
good… like he was part of something that truly wanted him.
Todd had lied to him and used him to make “Todd” feel better about himself.
Maybe. Katt didn’t know why his former best friend had done this.
But the speculation that Todd had realized he was gay all those years ago and now wanted to prove Katt was, too…
possibly as some form of revenge?… it kind of made sense. What other reason would he have?
“Hey,” Sean said. “Take my words with a grain of salt, so to speak. When it’s all said and done, only you will know what you are and what you aren’t. And no one has the right to tell you different.” He patted Katt’s leg and stood. “Come on, how about a game of pool?”
Katt let out a slow breath, nodded, and left the sofa. The other guys had been giving him space to collect himself and unwind, but they eagerly welcomed him to join the game.
“Want to play partners?” Garrett asked.
Katt nodded.
“Hey, why do you get him?” Lucas scowled as he circled the pool table, the stick gripped in his hand like a weapon.
“Because when I won’t try to mount him when he bends over.”
Laughter rippled through the room, and Katt smiled, too. Glancing at each of the young men, he found his earlier thought resurfacing: he did kind of want to fuck every one of them.
He figured that alone should tell him which way he truly “swung.”
And it didn’t disturb him as much as he expected.
“I should probably go,” Daniel said.
“Now? We’re so close to the main event.” Gideon squeezed his waist, pulling him closer. “You don’t want to miss it.”
Drawing a deep breath, Daniel smiled, letting it out slowly. “I don’t, but…” He fingered Gideon’s shirt, where some of their “cocktail” had stained the fabric. “I’m not sure I can trust myself with you if I stick around any longer.”
Gideon kissed him, grinning against his lips. “I trust you.”
“You shouldn’t.”
“But I do.”
Daniel kissed him with warm hunger. “Then you’re a fool, Gideon Dodd.”
“Never claimed to be otherwise.”
Daniel chuckled. “Even so, I think it’s time for me to go.”
Gideon didn’t let him go as he pushed into another kiss. “Stay just a little longer?” He kissed him again to persuade.
Groaning, Daniel pressed his head to Gideon’s brow. “Someday I must learn to resist your charms,” he sighed, smiling. “But today is not that day.”
“Good.” Gideon sucked Daniel’s lower lip. “Very good.”
After roughly an hour of playing pool and light banter among the guys, Katt knew it was coming down to the wire and that, any moment now, the focus would return to him and the decisions he had to make.
When the current game ended, the twins latched onto him again, each grabbing an arm. “So…” Marcus smiled at him. “Are you going to do the shoot?”
“I…” Katt swallowed. “I think so.”
“Got anyone in mind for your co-star?” Marcus squinted. “You know, you don’t have to pick just one. You can have as many as you want.”
His words left a tingling sensation behind Katt’s belly button.
“It’s true.” Mickey hugged his arm. “You can have an orgy if you want.” His eyes sparkled with glee—clearly the option he was hoping for.
“Shit,” Derek laughed. “You two are incorrigible.”
“Oh, Derek.” Marcus rolled his eyes teasingly. “You know you love orgies.”
Derek grinned and scratched his temple. “You got me there, but I’m not sure Katt is ready for that his first time out.”
“I said if he wanted,” Mickey emphasized with a playful drawl. “I didn’t say he had to.”
“That’s why you two are my best boys,” Lucas smirked. “We are of one mind.”
“It’s a good thing you’re dating another porn star,” Garret laughed. “Or he might not be so understanding.”
Lucas had a boyfriend? He didn’t seem like the “settling” type.
“Right back atcha,” Lucas snorted. “Where is Jack, anyway?”
“In town with Van, Benji, and Patrick.”
“He’s missing all the fun.”
Garrett winked. “We make our own fun.”
Abruptly turning to Derek, Lucas asked, “For real, in private, how is Patrick coping with all this? You think he’s honestly cool with your job?”
Katt looked at Derek, assuming Patrick was his boyfriend. It felt surreal that so many of the porn stars had real boyfriends, all things considered.
“He’s getting more comfortable with it,” Derek said. “He doesn’t like to watch me do my job, which is fine. But he doesn’t make an issue of it, either. He knew I was a porn star when we started dating. We’re good.”
Lucas smiled and shrugged. “Cool. I like him.” He smirked. “I’m just waiting for him to join us.”
Shaking his head, Derek grinned. “I don’t think that’s going to happen. He still has just enough of a Godly spirit left in him to keep him from crossing that line.”
Lucas snorted. “What’re you saying? We’re all godless heathens?”
Smiling smartly, Derek nodded. “Something like that.”
“Even the twins?” Lucas challenged with a grin.
“Oh man,” Derek chuckled. “They’re the most devilish of us all.”
The two boys squeezed Katt’s arms. “Yeah, we are,” Mickey grinned wickedly, yet it still came off as cute and sweet.
Katt didn’t know about the rest of them, but he was convinced the twins could charm their way into heaven when the time came.
He couldn’t imagine anyone—not even the Host of Heaven—resisting them.
Despite their eagerness to share their bodies and love with seemingly everyone, they were fucking cherubs in the flesh.
As Katt’s gaze drifted from one porn star to the next, he wondered if Derek might be right that he wasn’t ready for an “orgy.” He was more than a little nervous about getting fucked and worried it might hurt a lot.
Comparing dick sizes hadn’t helped, because none of the guys were what he’d call small. And Samson… holy fuck.
“You look worried,” Marcus murmured. “Are you scared to go all the way?”
The short answer was yes. Sean, at least, had experimented with toys before taking the real thing. Katt hadn’t even done that.
“A little,” he admitted. “Does it… hurt?”
“Only if you have a selfish partner,” Mickey said. “But none of the boys in this house are selfish.”
Katt glanced at the other men, who had turned their full attention to him. “How do you make it… not hurt?” His face pinched. “It seems like it just… would.”
Some of the guys laughed lightly.
“When your partner prepares you properly,” Garrett said. “There is very little, if any, pain.”
“Prepares…” Katt frowned. “What does that mean?”
“He goes in with his fingers first,” Lucas explained with a half-smile, gesturing. “One, then another, then another. Gets you all loosened up and stimulated. By the time he’s done preparing you...” He smirked. “You’ll be begging for his cock.”
“Fuck,” Garrett laughed and rubbed his eyes, shaking his head.
“Nice,” Derek grinned, with a slight head shake of his own.
“It’s true,” Marcus smiled up at Katt. “It really works like that. You don’t have to be scared. Whoever you pick will make you feel so good. I promise.”
Katt had difficulty making his choice; he still kind of wanted them all—just not all at once.
His eyes darted to Samson, who sat on the sofa, simply observing.
Katt liked the man a lot, but that dick…
His asshole clenched reflexively in protest. There was no way a dick that size wouldn’t cause some level of pain, regardless of preparation.
Samson gazed at him with a small smile. He didn’t expect Katt to choose him; it was written on his face. Surely only a masochist would opt for that cock to de-virginize his ass. Still… something about him pulled at Katt.
The twins noticed him looking at Samson and smiled.
“I know he’s scarily big,” Marcus whispered into Katt’s ear.
“But he’s a gentle lover… unless you ask him not to be.
” He grinned at Mickey. “It’s kind of intoxicating to be fucked by someone so big and strong, someone who could break you in half, but knowing he would never, ever hurt you. ”
“He’s wonderful,” Mickey cooed. “And he likes you.”
Garrett and the others chuckled. “It’s up to you, Katt. We’ve all been with him, and Marcus is right. He can be quite gentle.”
Katt believed them, but even “gentle” didn’t downsize that monstrous dick.
“If you want to choose him,” Garrett said. “Why don’t you have the twins join you as well? Those three work quite well together. And these two boys are great at calming your nerves and helping you relax.”
“We would love to be your partners,” Marcus said softly, his blue eyes drawing Katt in as he pressed his eager body closer to Katt. He was already hard with anticipation, his erection firm against Katt’s thigh.
“We’ll give you so much pleasure,” Mickey moaned, nuzzling his neck.
His slender hips rolled gently along Katt’s leg, revealing his own arousal.
“So much more pleasure than any girl ever has.” The tip of his wet tongue flicked Katt’s earlobe, drawing it between his teeth where he nipped the tender flesh just hard enough to make Katt shiver all the way down his body.
“I promise,” he breathed, his warm breath cascading down Katt’s neck.
Katt swallowed hard a few times as the crotch of his pants tightened so fast he could hardly speak those two words trembling on his tongue: “Yes… please.”