Chapter 36
Desperation pawed at me. I wanted Wyatt, and dammit, I was determined to have him no matter how nervous I was about it. Climbing a little higher to meet him, I let my pussy drag over him on my quest to kiss him again.
The friction was a tease for both of us; not enough, but delicious all the same.
His kiss tasted like me. Having my own peach blossom on his tongue mixed with his rich black currant scent was almost as effective at turning my mind into a haze of lust as the tip of his stiff cock tapping at me. I wiggled back a bit, letting myself rock against it.
Pulling away from the kiss, I sat up. Wyatt’s gaze on me was hungry, a reverent craving dancing over my skin.
With his cock pinned between us, I allowed myself the luxury of experimentation.
Bracing my hands on his chest let me set a smooth rhythm, grinding my slickness up and down his length.
His breath kept breaking and his eyes fluttered closed, his hands twitching against my hips.
It wasn’t the same as being buried inside me, but it was nice to know he was still enjoying himself while I figured out what the fuck I was doing.
I lifted higher, determined to move forward. “Hold it for me.”
Wyatt nodded with another low moan, fisting the base of his cock to keep it in place for me. Physically I was ready, my pussy aching to be filled, my slick already dripping. Emotionally I hadn’t quite wrapped my head around willingly putting an alpha cock inside of me.
It helped that it was Wyatt. Sprawled out beneath me, his cheeks still shining from tongue-fucking me over the edge, and his eyes watching me with a mix of compassion and deep-running desire.
“Slow,” he reminded me. “Only go as far as you want.”
I rolled my hips, dragging my clit over his tip, angling until it caught where I opened for him. My breath stilled.
Wyatt stroked a soothing hand over my waist. He didn’t apply any pressure, just offering comfort. He was bigger than Carter, and not something I could rush.
I whimpered as I rocked harder, easing my way over the first inch.
“Fuck, that’s it. Good girl, you feel fucking incredible.”
My pussy squeezed at his words, both of us moaning.
“Deep breaths.” He traced little patterns on my hips.
I followed his instructions, focusing on breathing and progressing as my body relaxed.
“Gentle,” he purred. “Yeah, just like that.”
I’d have thought coming on his face would have loosened me up plenty, but apparently my brain had tightened everything back up.
Rocking down on him didn’t hurt, thankfully.
He stretched me to the limits of what I could comfortably endure, the building pressure nudging little whimpers out as I eased down by fractions of an inch.
“I think I might have the best view in the world right now,” Wyatt said with a rapturous smile. He slid one hand down, stretching his thumb to reach my clit. “See if that helps.”
Now each rocking motion came with the two-fold pleasure of him filling me up and grinding my clit on the pad of his thumb. I nodded hastily. “Green.”
My thighs shook from the effort of keeping myself suspended. I lifted all the way off to give them a break, sinking back onto his hips for a rest while I stroked his cock.
He groaned, rising up on his elbows to look at me. “Too much?”
“My legs aren’t as strong as I’d like.”
Wyatt wiggled farther up the bed, bracing himself against the headboard. “Come here. I can hold more of your weight in this position.”
I crawled after him, getting back on his lap and bringing us nose to nose. Being this close let me huff the sweetness of his black currant scent. I let it weave through my system, soothing some of the tension my body refused to let go of.
“Better?”
“Much.” Now I could kiss him while I worked my way back down. If my arms were locked behind his neck, and his were wrapped around my torso, then my legs didn’t have to work so hard. Plus, I got a front row seat to every delicious sound I coaxed out of him on my quest.
I buried my face against his throat, panting into his skin.
His patience was a treasure. I knew if I climbed off right now and said I was done, he would still take care of me.
I wanted to be as close to him as I was with Carter.
I wanted to take a sledgehammer to all the stupid walls holding me back from this pack.
I mumbled curses, trying to push myself faster than my body was a fan of.
“Don’t rush.” Wyatt’s words rumbled in my ear, washing over me. He held me right where I was so I couldn’t lower myself anymore. His mouth turned to my throat, teasing and sucking while I squirmed in his arms. “I’ve got you. You’re doing so well.”
He managed to wedge his fingers against my clit, letting me rock on them while he focused on unravelling me with that wicked mouth. Each brush with my clit had my pussy tightening around him. He moaned in my ear, the sound joining forces with his current arsenal.
Pleasure coiled hot and tight as Wyatt dragged me to the peak. None of the sounds tumbling out of me were remotely coherent. I rode his hand and the first few inches of his cock until I burst, my back arching and slick dripping down the rest of his length.
He loosened his grip and I melted, my cunt pulling him deeper with a breathless moan. Every inch of him shivered beneath me.
“Perfect,” he crooned. “So perfect.”
“Green.” I claimed his mouth again. This time he didn’t stop me from sinking farther. I rose up and melted down.
This was what I needed. Teaching my body it had nothing to fear might take extra time, but Wyatt was patient with me, so I could be patient with myself.
He supported my weight and my movements, helping me find a rhythm that swept us both away. When I tired, he slid his back down to our original position, bracing his feet so he could fuck up into me. Now that I was ready for all of him, my eyes nearly crossed at the surge of pleasure.
“Green,” I whimpered, helpless to do anything but take what he offered. I wanted all of it, I wanted him. Surrender was easier now.
Wyatt set a pace that pulled me to the peak. “Tell me right now if you don’t want a knot.”
Indecision flickered through me for a half a second. “I want it.”
His palms pressed down on my hips, my pussy absorbing a few more strokes before he buried himself to the hilt, arching with a desperate groan. The pressure of his knot filling me up blew me over the edge. A ragged cry tumbled out of me, the pleasure choking me.
Wyatt captured my mouth again, the slow roll of his hips blitzing every thought out of my head. A knot was all consuming, forcing my body to pay attention. I tested the give, finding myself thoroughly locked in place, and focused on the gift I had been given so I couldn’t spiral into panic.
Too much had been taken for me, but I was relieved that while this may have been locked away, it wasn’t lost forever. If I could be with Wyatt, then I could be with Bryan and Colt too, without compromising because I was too afraid to push forward.
I savored the taste of Wyatt on my tongue. His patience made him all the sweeter.
He broke away to nuzzle his nose up my cheek. “How are you feeling?”
“Good.” I didn’t want to lose a single inch of contact with him so I pressed closer, making sure we were cheek to cheek. “The knot feels amazing but it still makes me nervous.”
“I’m right here.” He held me like I was a priceless treasure.
“You were magnificent. I know it might sound facetious to say that I’m proud of you, but I mean it.
I’m not taking a single second of this for granted.
You’re so brave and beautiful, I keep wondering what I did to deserve this moment with you. ”
Shock cascaded through me. “You don’t have to wonder. You’re incredible, and you’ve been a lifeline keeping me afloat. I haven’t willingly shared this with anyone before, just you. I could do that because of who you are. You saw what I needed and made sure I could reach for it on my own.”
He flexed his hips, stealing my breath with the movement.
“I love you.” His words tumbled out in a barely audible but still fervent declaration.
I froze. “Wyatt?”
He lifted his gaze to meet mine. “Maybe it’s too soon to say, but from the first moment I saw you, your gentle courage was a beacon, calling me to cast out a lifeline even when there was nothing I could offer, nothing that could be done at the time to save you.
I saw the strength of your soul and fell for you before I ever got the opportunity to know you. ”
I shivered, trying to process everything he’d said.
My heart pounded like it was trying to kick its way straight through my ribs.
I had known from the start, too. One smile from him had been all it took to start our connection, to have me craving to know a life with him.
What he had shown me, even in these early days, was a life of stars lighting up the night.
It didn’t matter how dark it got for me, he was right there to shine until I found my way to the path that led me to where I was always meant to be.
“I love you,” he said again, louder this time. “I love your bravery, your gentleness, and that you’ve held onto your kindness despite everything. You deserve the world, and I hope that you’ll stick around so we can do our best to give it to you.”
My bottom lip wobbled, tears slipping over my cheeks. “But…”
“No buts. I don’t need a list of reasons to love you.
I know that fate chose us all for each other because there were facets of our character that would build each other up, and become the foundation for the life we’re meant to have.
I may have found you because of fate, but I love you because you’re you.
” He traced his fingertips over my cheek.
“The love will grow. However much I feel right now, there will always be room to expand, and I know that as we have more time and learn more about each other, that I’ll only love you more in the days to come. ”
I choked on a sob. “Is it really that easy? I could just say it right now?”
“Only if you feel it.”
“I do,” I promised, drawing in a shuddering breath. “I do love you. Even when I was scared, I knew you were safe. When I needed somewhere to hide away in my head, it was you and Carter who held my broken pieces together. I think maybe I was practicing loving you this whole time.”
This kiss was the sweetest yet. Then he cradled me, his purr filling my ears, keeping me steady and relaxed until his knot finally went down.
He sighed, loosening his hold only enough for me to lift and see his face. “Do you suppose we should go check on everyone?”
I brushed my lips against his. “In a minute. I think the world can wait a little while longer.”