Chapter 12 Shots And Surrenders
Shots And Surrenders
~OCTAVIA~
“The smartest woman in the room is always the one who makes the strongest man kneel.”
First: it had been a while since I’d had a drink.
Not in the casual, polite, “I’ve been cutting back” way that adults deployed when they wanted to sound responsible at dinner parties.
In the genuine, calendar-verified, my-body-has-forgotten-what-ethanol-tastes-like way.
Months before the incident, I’d gone dry with the disciplined, joyless commitment of an athlete who understood that the qualifying window was approaching and that every variable within her control needed to be optimized—including the one where she didn’t pickle her liver forty-eight hours before an audition that would determine whether almost two decades of training had been an investment or a hobby.
I knew how I got at parties. That was the issue.
The sober version of Octavia Moreau was composed, strategic, and maintained the kind of social perimeter that would have made a Secret Service agent nod in professional approval.
The post-tequila version was a different organism entirely—one who had no perimeter, no filter, and an absolute, unwavering conviction that the dance floor was her sovereign territory and that anyone occupying it was either an ally or an obstacle, and obstacles got danced around with a level of hip movement that had once prompted a nightclub bouncer in Montreal to ask if I was a professional dancer and, upon learning I was a figure skater, to nod slowly and say, “Yeah. That tracks.”
I wasn’t necessarily crazy.
Well.
Maybe.
The honest answer was that I could not reliably vouch for my own behavior once the combination of tequila, Ciroc, and the specific confidence that came from knowing I looked phenomenal converged into the cocktail that Candy had accurately described as “The Real Octaviana.” That version of me was the life of the party on the dance floor, and being the life of the party when you possessed a competition-trained body, a red lipstick situation, and a dress that made your ass look like it had been engineered by a team of specialists with advanced degrees in structural aesthetics—that attracted attention.
The kind that vibrated at a frequency only Alphas could detect and that turned every head in a room like a compass needle swinging toward magnetic north.
And I haven’t gotten high either.
The thought arrived with the sheepish, half-guilty energy of a woman who had accepted the joint that the gymnast from the Australian delegation had offered outside the frat house’s back entrance approximately twenty minutes ago, taken three long, slow, practiced pulls, and was now feeling the results settle into the muscles of her shoulders and the base of her skull with the warm, liquid, unspooling sensation of tension being dissolved at the molecular level.
Combining tequila, Ciroc, AND weed after months of abstinence is probably a terrible idea. The kind that comes with consequences and morning-after regret and potentially a hangover that lasts until Tuesday. But here I am.
Here I was.
At a frat-sorority mashup party in one of Olympia Academy’s off-campus houses—a sprawling, three-story Victorian that had been converted into a social space by the athletics department and was currently housing approximately two hundred aspiring Olympic athletes who had collectively decided that the appropriate way to process the stress of audition week was to compress an entire semester’s worth of alcohol consumption into a single Saturday night.
The bass from the sound system vibrated through the hardwood floors.
The lighting was dim, amber, atmospheric—the kind of strategic low illumination that made everyone look ten percent more attractive and hid the architectural sins of a building that had been constructed when electricity was still considered experimental.
Alphas and Omegas. Everywhere. The scent landscape of the room was a dense, layered, constantly shifting tapestry of pheromone signatures that my Omega receptors were processing at maximum bandwidth—Alpha cedar overlapping with Omega vanilla, Alpha musk threading through Omega citrus, the occasional spike of arousal cutting through the ambient mix like a high note in a chord.
The air was thick with it. Saturated. The olfactory equivalent of standing in a room where every radio was tuned to a different station and the volume was set to a level that the neighbors had opinions about.
This is what Olympia Academy was designed for, isn’t it?
The thought was cynical but not inaccurate.
An institution that invited Omegas into an Olympic training program populated predominantly by Alphas wasn’t just building a competitive roster.
It was building an ecosystem. A social infrastructure where designation dynamics were not merely acknowledged but actively cultivated—where pack formation, mate selection, and the biological imperatives that governed Alpha-Omega interaction were integrated into the institutional framework rather than treated as inconvenient distractions from athletic development.
The parties were the proof. Two hundred horny athletes in a Victorian house with a sound system and a bar wasn’t an accident. It was a feature.
I’d been asked if I was single approximately ten times since arrival.
Ten. In under an hour. A figure that would have been flattering if it hadn’t been exhausting, because each inquiry required a calibrated response—firm enough to communicate no without being hostile enough to create an enemy in a competitive environment where alliances mattered.
The Alphas asking ranged from the politely interested (a swimmer from the German program who’d offered me his jacket when I’d stepped onto the porch for the joint) to the aggressively direct (a wrestler whose opening line had been “You smell incredible, can I take you home?” and whose subsequent retreat had been hastened by a look I’d perfected for exactly this purpose).
For good reason, their interest was understandable.
The mirror at the dorm hadn’t lied. The black dress was doing its job with the commitment of an overachiever.
The red lipstick was catching the amber light of the party and glowing against the brown of my skin like an ember.
The loose curls bounced with every movement, and my legs—bare, muscled, twenty years of figure skating’s finest editorial—extended from the criminally short hemline with the kind of visual authority that made people forget what they were saying mid-sentence.
I look fucking good.
And I know it.
And the knowledge is doing more for my confidence than the tequila is, which is saying a lot, because the tequila is doing quite a bit.
I approached the bar—a makeshift setup constructed from sawhorses and a plywood countertop that had been dressed up with string lights and a tablecloth in what I could only assume was someone’s interpretation of “sophistication.” The bartender was a broad-shouldered Alpha from the track program—I’d caught his designation from the low, persistent note of territorial musk that clung to him like cologne applied with a heavy hand.
He’d been checking me out since my first approach, his gaze tracking my movements with the specific, unsubtle intensity of a man whose professional training in speed and explosiveness had not extended to the art of discretion.
“Another shot,” I said. Leaned my forearms on the plywood.
Allowed the posture to do what postures did when the dress was this short and the confidence was this high—which was communicate, without the assistance of words, that the woman ordering the drink was aware of exactly how she looked and was not remotely interested in pretending otherwise.
He poured with enthusiasm. The tequila exceeded the standard shot measurement by a margin that was less “generous” and more “judicially questionable,” which told me everything I needed to know about his interpretation of my bar posture.
The additional volume was his investment.
His opening bid. The liquid equivalent of a business card slid across a counter with a meaningful look.
He thinks the extra pour is going to translate to extra access later.
And honestly? Twenty minutes ago, I might have entertained the possibility, because the dry spell has reached a severity level that the Red Cross should be monitoring and I meant what I said about riding literally anything with a pulse tonight.
Desperate? Yes. Sue me. Or better yet, fuck me, because someone needs to before I lose what remains of my composure.
I inhaled.
Not deliberately. Not the conscious, measured intake of someone performing a breathing exercise.
An automatic, ambient, lungs-doing-their-job inhale that happened to coincide with a shift in the room’s scent architecture—a new layer entering the olfactory landscape with the quiet, certain authority of a tide arriving on schedule.
Rain-soaked stone.
The base note registered first, threading through the party’s dense pheromone tapestry like a single clear voice cutting through a crowded room.
Then the clove—warm, sharp, spiced—layering over the mineral foundation.
And finally, completing the signature with the precision of a final brushstroke: bitter dark chocolate.
Rich, complex, carrying the specific depth that came from high-cacao solids and slow processing and the kind of flavor profile that existed at the intersection of indulgence and discipline.
Luka.
I was smiling before I could stop it.