Chapter 60
While I waited for interview day to arrive, I started looking for jobs.
It felt much like the time I’d first come to Big Bear and started searching—extremely difficult.
After only a few hours of scrolling through listings and applying for a few dozen random positions, I was officially spent. I could only stare at a computer screen for so long before my head and eyes started to feel like they were melting.
I debated picking up a book. But something in me just couldn’t crack open a paperback. Especially not by Lindy, who used to be my escape, because now it made me think of Jay every time I read one of her novels.
But I did have a tiny, minuscule desire to write…maybe.
It had been a while since I’d had any desire.
I was desperate.
I opened All The Lights and stared at a blank cursor.
The story didn’t feel right as I stared at the last chapter I’d written a few months ago.
And then I had the inane thought that I needed to try something new. Start over. But I’d written almost fifty thousand words in this manuscript. I hesitated but then opened a new blank document and that felt better.
Maybe I just needed a fresh place to escape. Something that hadn’t been touched.
I started writing down my thoughts on everything that happened over the last few months. I didn’t think too much about it.
Before I knew it, I’d spent the entire afternoon writing.