9. Ciera
Ari, Grams, and I were on our way to the facility my mother was transported to the other night. They said she would have to stay here for forty-five days, and if she has improved she would be able to leave. If she feel she needs more time, then they would give her an option to stay longer.
“Ci, this car is nice as hell. I think I need me one of these here,” Grams spoke as we were headed to upstate New York.
“Thank you, Grams, and I need you to move out of the hood before you buy one of these cars,” I told her, as Ari was sitting in the back seat laughing her ass off.
“Look you lil pregnant heifer, I don’t need to move to get me one of these bad boys. I wish a nigga would touch my car in the hood, the gang bang crew would be all over their ass!” Grams yelled.
“Grams who the hell is the gang bang crew?” Ari asked, and I shook my head.
“Ari, ever since we went to Angela’s house and confronted Mark. Grams has been on this gang bang crew thing, it’s just her and Ms. Cynt,” I told Ari.
“No, the hell it’s not just me, and Cynt we got more members. You just a hater Ciera because I won’t let your pregnant, scary ass in the crew,” Grams said laughing.
“Grams, can I be in the crew?” Ari asked, laughing.
“I will think about it, you got potential to rock with us. Go online and submit your application to and we will get back to you in two business days with a denial or acceptance,” Grams said to Ari, and we all fell out laughing.
I really hope our mom gets better after this, I really want her to be a part of her grandbabies lives.
Juelz has never met my mother, and she met Zelan on some really bad terms. Zelan, said he would support our decision, but I know he is not feeling our mother right now.
We finally made it to the facility, and we all headed inside to see what was going on with Angela.
“Hello, how can I help you?” The receptionist asked, when we walked up to the desk.
“Hello, we are here to get some information on our mother, Angela Voss,” I stated.
“Give me one second to have someone come down to talk to you,” she stated.
“Okay, thank you,” I said, and we walked over and took a seat.
“This is a nice-looking place, where did you find this Ciera?” Grams asked.
“I didn’t, Juelz had his assistant work on getting everything setup for us,” I responded. “Ohhh, rich people shit,” Grams said.
“Grams you are truly too much,” Ari, stated, and I agreed with her.
“Hello, are you all here for Angela Voss?” Some woman asked.
“Hi, yes, we are her daughters, and this is her mother,” Ari stated.
“Okay, right this way. My name is Kelly, I’m Ms. Voss’s counselor,” She responded as she led us into a room.
“When Angela came in last night, she was in bad shape. She is going through the detox process and today she is going through the motions. I will let you all see her, but if she gets irritable, we will have to end the visit,” Kelly said, and we nodded.
She made a call, and about ten minutes went by before the door opened, and Angela walked in.
“Hi, Mom. How are you holding up?” I asked her, and she just stared at us for a few minutes.
“Not to good, Ciera. But I’m going to get through this and get home.
I just want to apologize to you and Ari, I know I have been a horrible mother this past year.
Ari, I’m sorry for being so weak, I never would have let anyone harm you if I had been well.
The drugs just took over, and I let a man come in and take advantage of that.
I’m sorry to all you and only asked that one day you all will forgive me,” Angela stated, with a face full of tears.
Ari, Grams, and I were crying with her. I wanted nothing more but for her to get herself together.
“Mom, it is going to take some time to forgive you. But I’m with you, and I just want you to get better,” Ari said.
“Everything is going to be alright, Angela. Just fight through this, and continue to pray. I want to see you win, and I love you enough to help you through this. You’re my only child, and I will walk through this with you, just as long as you do right by these girls.
They come first in my life, and I will not allow anybody to hurt them.
Not even you, get right and everything else will fall into place,” Grams told my mom.
“I know mom, thank y’all for not giving up on me,” Angela said. We ended our visit with our mother and headed to drop Grams off.
“I think mom is going to be ok,” I spoke.
“I hope so, she can have a good life with us,” Ari stated, and Grams agreed.
“I hope she does the right thing, because damn, she look bad. If I ever get hooked on drugs, I give y’all permission to whoop my fucking ass.
I’m a beautiful woman, and if I start walking around looking like Celie from The Color Purple, babbbbyyy tear my ass up!
My daughter was a very beautiful woman, just like we are now.
But now, those damn drugs got her ass walking around here, looking like a damn orangutan,” Grams said, shaking her head, and we all burst out laughing. This lady had no damn filter at all.
“Well tell us how you really feel,” Ari said, still laughing at our grandmother.
“Heifer, that’s how I really fucking feel!
Hell, I have gone through some shit in my life.
I lost my husband and didn’t have money to bury his ass.
No food to feed my child, and no damn job to pay my bills, when he died.
But a woman will G up and handle her business any day.
You can’t let the stress of life take over your mental state, and you lose the most important thing in your life, YOU!
” Grams said, and I agreed with her. We made it back to Harlem and dropped Grams off.
About forty-five minutes later we had made it back to Zelan’s house, and Juelz car was in the driveway.
“Looks like your baby daddy is here,” Ari said as we pulled up and parked.
“Yeah, I guess he is,” I stated as we got out of the car and headed inside. We walked in and the guy’s, was at the bar drinking. I walked up to Juelz, and kissed his lips, and Ari greeted Zelan the same.
“How was the visit with your mother?” Juelz asked.
“Very emotional for her, and us,” I stated.
“If this is going to be stressful for you Ciera, you can’t go back. I can’t have you stressed, I don’t want anything happening to you or my kids,” Juelz said, getting up from the bar grabbing my hand to lead the way to the bedroom.
“I will be fine, Juelz, I promise,” I stated. Once we were in the bedroom, he went to the bathroom, and I heard the water running.
“Go ahead and get undressed, I’m running you a bubble bath,” Ju stated, and I did as he requested. After, I undressed I walked in the bathroom and Fortunate by Maxwell was playing.
“Juelz, why are you staring at me like that?” I asked.
“Baby, I’m just thinking to myself that I have never met a woman as beautiful as you are.
Everything about you is perfect to me and for me, beautiful,” he spoke as he walked up to me, grabbing me by the waist and pulling me in for a kiss.
I swear this man’s kisses are everything to me, just having him near puts me at ease.
“Thank you, I have never had someone tell me I’m beautiful the way you do,” I said to Juelz smiling.
“I will be the only one telling you that shit for the rest of your life; there will never be another man after me, Ciera. You are going to be my wife one day, and that shit is going to be the best day of my entire life, besides having my children,” Juelz stated.
I smiled, and he kissed my lips, I turned to step into the warm water.
“Hmmmm, this water is so soothing. Do you want to join me?” I asked him.
“Only if you want me to beautiful,” he stated.
“I do handsome,” I responded, and he began to remove his clothes.
Damn, the man above took his time creating this work of art.
Juelz Kassom was indeed a very handsome, intelligent man and any woman would be blessed to have him.
It just sucks that Kenya, and his best friend was so evil to him.
He doesn’t have a hateful bone in his body, but I understand why he had to kill them.
Shit, if someone came for my family the way they did him, I would have done the same damn thing.
Well with a little help from the gang bang crew, I could only laugh at my grandmother.
She is definitely one of a kind, for the rest of the night Juelz and I talked and made sweet love all over this bathroom and bedroom.