18. Ciera
My heart was in shambles I needed my damn man home.
I knew I had to have faith, and everyone was saying stay strong.
But they didn’t see the scene, the day they shot up everybody and took Juelz.
No one had to go through that shit, I have so much respect for Juelz that man made sure I was safe and was willing to die to protect me.
If anything could give me the push, to love him even more that shit did it for me.
I saw my phone light up, and it was my mother calling.
“Hey mom, how are you?” I asked as I answered the phone.
“I’m good baby, how you doing?” my mother asked.
“We are well mom, how is your friend holding up? When will you be back home?” I responded, my mom was doing good she had been released from the drug facility and was now home.
My mom was drug free and taking good care of herself.
I got her a three-bedroom house out in Queens, and she loved it.
Ari, Grams, and I were making sure she was ok, I haven’t purchased a house for her yet, we wanted to make sure she was going to stay off the drugs, so I rented the house she is in now.
She was currently, down South visiting a friend of hers that lost their mother.
“She is holding up baby. I will be heading back tonight,” My mother replied.
I wanted to have a dinner and invite my mom over, it was time that she met Juelz and talk to Zelan.
I believe she just didn’t know how the guys would treat her, but she was going to have to let that shit go and sit down with them.
“Ok, call me when you get in tonight mom,” I stated.
“It will be late baby, so I will call you and Ari tomorrow,” she said and ended the call. I got up and went to check on Kari she has been asking for her daddy, and we all thought it was best that we said nothing around her.
“Hey munchkin, what you doing?” I asked Kari.
“Nothing, just playing with my dolls. CiCi, do you know when daddy is coming home? I miss him, and I want to see him,” Kari whined.
“Soon sweetheart,” I said, as a sharp pain shot straight through me. “Urrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhh!” I screamed.
“CiCi, what’s wrong?” Kari ran up rubbing my back, I was almost eight months pregnant it wasn’t time for the babies to come yet.
“Ahhhhhhhhhhh,” I screamed again, tears rolling down my face. Another pain had shot through me, just as Ari came running in the room with Grams on her tail.
“Ohhhhhhh Ari, I need help!” I yelled, and Kari was back at my side with a face full of tears as well. “Oh god, Ciera we have to get you to the hospital you are in labor,” Ari yelled.
“No, no, noooo I’m not having these babies without Julez, and it’s too early Shiiiiiiitttttttt!” I screamed out, the pain was getting more intense and coming quickly.
“Girl, you can’t tell these children when to come.
They gone come with or without your permission, you acting slow as hell again Ciera!
” Grams said. Ari ran out the room, and I was in so much pain.
I just cried because I know that Juelz wouldn’t make it to witness his babies being born, the card’s we were dealt was just fucked up.
“Ciera, we are going to the hospital, can you stand up?” Ari asked as she came in the room with Kile, one of our guards.
“Hey Ciera, Can I lift you and carry you to the car?” Jason asked, and I just nodded my head the pain was just too much for me to handle.
“Ari grab something to keep Kari occupied I yelled out as we were leaving the room.
Jason had put me in the truck, and the rest of the family got in and we headed to the hospital.
It took us about fifteen minutes to get the hospital, and Ari ran in to get someone to help me.
A nurse came out with a wheelchair and took me in to labor and delivery.
“Ma’am, we are going to get you in a room and get you hooked up to the monitors. We want to check on the babies, and to see how far your contractions are apart.
“Ok,” I spoke, the contractions seemed to be coming quick and I couldn’t do anything but cry. Ari, Grams, and Kari was in the room with me.
“I tried to call Zelan, but his phone went to voicemail,” Ari stated.
“Let’s find out what’s going on before we call back,” Grams told us.
“CiCi, are we having our babies?” Kari asked still looking a little sad.
“We may be having them soon, we just have to wait and see what the doctor says, baby,” I responded.
“Ok,” Kari said and leaned on Grams.
“Ms. Voss how you holding up?” the doctor asked walking in the room.
“I’m in pain,” I told her.
“Well, we are going to check you to see how far you have dilated. Why don’t you lean back and let us check you out,” She stated as I let out another gut-wrenching howl. The doctor waited until the contraction was gone, and she proceeded to check me.
“I’m a little nervous, I’m only seven and a half months pregnant,” I said.
“Sometimes when having twins, the babies may not go the full nine months, we will check them out to make sure they are ok to be born prematurely. You are in good hands, and your doctor has been called and is on the way,” Dr. Shannon stated.
Alright,” I said, and I felt a little better knowing that my doctor was on her way.
“Ok, Ms. Voss, we are going to go ahead and call to get anesthesia down to get you an epidural started. You are four centimeters dilated you need to be at ten, it will be up to the babies for us to know how long it will take before it’s time to push.
The epidural will help with the pain, so I will get them here as soon as possible.
I will be back to check you again in about an hour,” Dr. Shannon said, and walked out.
“Awwww, hell, we getting ready to have us some babies,” Grams yelled.
“I’m scared, Grams, and I need Juelz here.
This shit is not fair to us, we both deserve to be happy during this time, and this Kenya bitch is still giving us hell from the dirt,” I yelled, I had to calm down because Kari was in the room, but lord knows my heart was fucking broken, I pray they find Juelz and get him here to his children come in the world.
I’m truly praying that my children can be born and will be alright.
I hope Zelan can get him, out and make it back in time to see our babies be born.
I really don’t want to have them without Juelz being here.