Chapter 65
Chapter Sixty-Five
ROMAN
Sleep evades me all night long. At four in the morning I give up and move over to my piano, playing the song I composed for Clover over and over again, losing myself in the notes until the sky lightens.
Blinking and coming back into my body, I look over at the clock and realize I need to get in my car and head down to San Diego.
This afternoon, the Darkness Rising cast and Arnold have a panel at San Diego Comic Con, where we’ll be screening the first teaser trailer for the film and answering questions and doing a meet and greet with fans.
I was so excited about this event a few weeks ago. It’s the first chance to really interact with the fans of the franchise and to share what we’ve been working on for them.
Now it feels pointless.
Everything is pointless without Clover. Knowing I’ll be seeing her today is the only thing that’s propelling me forward.
It feels wrong here without her and that damn cat. Sure, I’m not itchy and my eyes aren’t red, but I miss that crotchety little thing, and I sure as fuck miss her owner.
Without Jill here, it’s been painfully quiet. I didn’t realize how accustomed to her presence I’ve grown. Now, I’m left with only my misery for company.
Although it’s lonely, I am happy that Jill is with Clover. As shit as it is for me to be on my own right now, the idea of Clover being alone is impossible to stomach.
I fucked everything up, she shouldn’t have to lose Jill too because of my mistakes.
Swiping my keys off the counter, I head down to the car as anticipation swirls in my stomach.
It’s been two weeks. Two weeks without hearing her laugh. Without seeing her smile. Without so much as a word from the woman who’s come to mean everything to me. I know what I need to do today. I don’t dare dream of it winning her back–I don’t deserve her. But I hope it’ll fix the mess I’ve made.