Chapter twenty one
Three weeks later, I had still tried calling her phone number but she wouldn't pick up her phone as I even tried to talked to her friends to get them to explained why she had been avoiding me and all of them told me to just give her some space except for Rochelle. Her roommate say that she doesn't want to talked to me as my worried started to grow tremendously huge had left me wondering what had i done wrong?
because the last time that i had saw her, she had looked very happy after thanksgiving dinner at my house.
We kissed then the week after the holidays she had been avoiding me too. I had gotten dumped by her two weeks ago on text.
During hockey practices i had kept on thinking about her as much as i had tried to stay more focus on the sports also she had changed her pair skating partner to her roommate including friend Rochelle at the last minute.
Although, i would always tried to find ways to support her in her routine at the ice rinks for example, i hidden my identity as a shark mascot last thursday cheering her on like a fanboy not to mentioned that i had my team to warned all the campus boys to stay away from her.
As i went to pay a little visit to her old skating partner before me and her ex-boyfriend never to go near my Jessasnym flower again or i might just break every bone in their bodies.
In the back of my mind we were still together and it had always been her. I worked on a plan to get her back in my free time putting all of my effort into making her love me again.
"Boys, good work and go hit the shower will you!"yelled our hockey coach.
My team and I walked into the locker room getting changed or taking a shower hearing some of the boys talked about our next opponent's rival team. However, she was all I could think about at this moment and I'll wait for her every morning or night.
If she ever wants to fall in love, if she ever wants to bet on us, if she ever wants to be my one then I'll be waiting.
"Mason and Wyatt, I've got a plan but first I might need your help to do it."
I know she was a fan of 1975 and Arctic Monkeys in case anything goes wrong.
I was going to get her choreographer to choreo our routine to the song called I Wanna be yours with my best boys on the hockey team to help me out.
I planned on wowing her or making her heart swoon for me by going the extra mile.
I was pretty sure she won't say no to me figure skating out my heart for her.
Nevertheless, i had to convince the boys to make a banner for her since you know that saying go big or go home, especially when i was forever undone by Jessasmyn Burke laughs, smiles, her skating routine every single time that i had watched in the rink performance whenever she thinks no one else was at five am in the morning during the sun setting outside glowing on her perfect tan skin and i was no fan of sharing too.
Moreover, I was fully aware that she changed her seat in the classroom purposely to not come in contact with me at all.
Moving on to another topic, i was drafting out an ideas on the playout whiteboard to all of my teammates who were very supportive of my plans as they kept on adding their on inputs on the dance though some may say that i might have went above and beyond for her because how special she was to me.
Subsequently, i must admit that i was hurting for something that i didn't do even though my dad was really grilling her, i stood up for her after driving her back to her house i drove back to mine to tell off my dad for all the things he says to her knowing she didn't need to hear what my dad thinks of her.
"Let's guess you want our help to win her back." said Mason.
Everything i was planning right now, i was doing it all for us never going giving on us as she had stole my heart in the palm of her hands leaving me not wanting it back since it was always her and i would continuously keep trying to get her back gaining her heart.
Therefore, i would search for the reason why she had given up on us even if she did deserve better than me but that doesn't mean that i was going to given up on her. We could fix us especially when my heart was still utterly, irretrievably and completely in love with her. She brings out the best of me, making me change every single rule that I had for her was worth it in every way it was.
How can I give my entire universe the world when she was at the center of my universe?
I brought up that I needed all of my team's help for my seven steps plan. "Yeah, I need you all to do me a favor and I will pay you back for it."I saw all of them agreeing collectively to help me win my flower heart back.
A funny thought came to my mind when she told me that her favorite flower was jasmine even though her name was Jessasnym saying how cliques it was but she doesn't care at all saying that daisies and jasmine flowers were the best. If anything she wasn't a normal flower.
She was a wildflower that the light would constantly shine on her every single day almost like an ominous glow even setting everything that she came in contact with ablaze.
For example, she started a fire ignite in my heart.
I get nothing.
It took everything.
After all my dad was continuously hellbend on putting himself on a high pedestal where everyone else to him were like his puppets which brought me back to my fifteen birthday when he wake me up early to run around laps in the park and then took me to the rink to skate fifteen laps reminding me that i would never be the world greatest hockey player compared to him as he told me that break were weaklings instead of handed over a present to me like any other normal parent would.
Anything or everything? My mum once told me if something or someone means the world to you then you would be willing to risk your entire heart to your one to completely love them to be your everything.
There was a difference between those two words: anything meant that a person was anything that you want them to be or doing anything to the one person but everything meant that the said person was your whole universe doing whatever it takes to see that person happy.
Thereafter, i had realized that along Jessasnym my flower or my princess was my everything i couldn't even concentrated during hickey practices including classes as she made me believer being a dove in a form of a glaciers princess who was the smartest girl who i had ever met not beauty but brains as well as being my lucky charm.
"Whatever it is, we will do it,"said Mason.
On the other hand, she didn't gave me back her necklace as i was guessing that it must had been a good thing that she hadn't thrown it away in the trash can giving me hope to restored our relationship and if she wanted space then i would give her it totally respecting what she want but not giving up on her because what type of boyfriend would i be if i did that to her.
Respectfully, speaking i don't know what she thinks she did saw in all of her ex-boyfriends to be frank, all of her exes were completely douchebags, liars, cheaters, narcissist and all of the above. Nonetheless, i was kind, compassionate, charmingly handsome of course, trustworthy not treating this cold distance between the both of us like it was break or a break-up very much believing that Jessasnym Burke, my love was still my girlfriend now especially thinking that her parents must had named her after both the flower and a disney princess regardless of this she would forever remain my number one queen. The moment where I met her I was a retired ladies man within one glance at her and I was so done for.
"I often feel like we are skating around the problem instead of facing it." Wyatt said jokingly with an unintentional ice sports pun.
Three of heard the sound of someone closing their locker as our head instantly span around to face Holden who walked up to the play board reading all of our plans quietly reading it without any signs of expressions on his face if it was something great until he said "Lads, I have got an idea that could save both of your relationship problem-."
We both interjected Holden acting cool and casual like we were both eager to hear it "Like what?" Wyatt and I said in sync with each other.
Any suggestions that might be helpful I was open to it not dismissing any of those knowing that I would probably go back to the hockey house reading a load of her favorite books and movies just be the highest standard that she deserves becoming everything in a man that she could ever want in a guy.
Holden writing the answers to our question on the whiteboard in a blue whiteboard pen spelling it out for us as we were thinking weren't he in the shower an hour ago, anyways i needed for him and Natiala to be on great terms in order for this plan since everybody were going to team up in pairs to helped me set this up.
Those words on the whiteboard that he must've written, read, get a bouquet full of books, spend out her name with her favorite flowers and remind her that you were never giving up on her. For Wyatt one, he wrote: stop beating around the bush because we all know you like Avena so maybe get those red M&Ms only or any red sweet spelling out her name asking her out even do some gesture to get her to agree to be your girlfriend by wooing her.
"You sure this would work?"Asked Fletcher
.
Firstly, i planned to everything to the maximum which had me started to think that i haven't done a single thing wrong as all she kept on giving me excuse on why we couldnt be together instead of telling me the actual truth we need to solve this problem now that the swan lake competition for pair skating was coming up including the valentine dance was in a few days before it which made me want to talked to her figure skating coach to arrange a sort of romantice plan to surprise her. I thought to myself that something isn't adding up either way.
I wanna be her so desperately bad that it almost broke me when she dumped me so I was left with no choice but to make her emotions that she had for me, salvageable in repairing what was broken that could be fixed to remind her of the good times.
Secondly, the door to the locker room squeak opened to one of Jessa's friends, Nataila , narrowing her eyes searching for someone in the boy locker room and luckily for her we were all already dressed then she muttered a word underneath her breath until she locked her eyes on me. I knew something was wrong instantly when her friend didn't even bother to insult Holden, not even sparing him any glances.
"And who even says wooing anymore like we were somehow all born when the renaissance first started?" asked Natalia.
Shortly after i had heard my phone vibrated in my locker quickly walking over to check it i saw so many missed hearing her voices sounded a little bit shaky with harsh breathing at this moment immediately began to packed up all of my stuff out of the locker hoping that she would be alright as i speed walked to the door waiting for her friend to end her conversation with Holden.
The automatic machine on my phone said " you have five voicemails from Jessasnym, my flower." I pressed a button on my phone to hear all of them.
"Asher, there was a rumor about the day that I had a head injury saying that I used some drugs to enhance my performance and that I was a lost cause but there were more nasty rumor-."
Another voicemail played "Asher, I need your help... Please help me."
"You like me just admit it to yourself Talia." smirked Holden.
Instantly, i felt my heart sank for Jessasnym wanted to shield her from all of this pain, hurt, heartbreak and putting her first to prevent her crying at all cost she would be protected that was the thing about someone who once used to be at their lowest other people might end up using it against them especially in sports to bring you down.
"Please stop flattering yourself." Nataila rolled her eyes at Holden before she turned around to focus all her attention onto me and then she continued to say.
"I only came here for Jessa to tell you that she had a panic attack in the rink and she has not been herself ever since." she said to
me.
Never in my life had i ever seen my beautiful flower so crumbled in her bedroom floor tucked up in a fetus position with tears rolling down her face when i finally got to her accommodations room she was in absolutely pieces even if we weren't no longer together in her mind. I would always be there for her to offered her a shoulder to cry depending on whether she needed it the most or not. I quickly rushed to her side aiding her bed by carrying her up in my arms slowly yet gently lowering her down onto her bed because I would do anything for her without her even asking me to.
Constantly, I kept on reassuring her that everything was going to be okay when i pulled her into a hug to comforted her while silently raging with rage at how could a person be this cruel to the most amazing kind-hearted girl that had brought me nothing except for completely joy and happiness in the world, she was my universe full up with a billion stars in my constellation as they were all being powered by her light energy.