Chapter 12 Lev
Lev
My father doesn’t summon people. He convenes them.
There’s a massive difference, and every man in that room knows it. A summons implies you have the option to refuse. A convening means you’re held in place before you walk through the door.
I know something is wrong before I reach the top of the stairs. Ruslan clocked it, too. He fell a half-step behind me on the way up, something he does when he thinks I’m walking into something he can’t quickly pull me out of.
The study is arranged differently. My father’s meetings usually put him behind the desk with everyone else in chairs pulled into a loose semicircle, similar to how a professor sets up a classroom. Tonight, the chairs are in a line, facing the desk.
His two senior advisors, Gennady and Aleksandr, sit on the right side. Frol is on the left, with his jacket buttoned and one ankle crossed over the opposite knee.
My father doesn’t look at me when I walk in. That’s how I know he’s in on whatever this is.
He stands at the window with his hands clasped behind his back.
He’s still in a full suit despite the hour, something he only does to convey formality.
The fire in the grate is going, something he only lights when he wants a room to feel intimate.
Both at once means he couldn’t decide whether tonight was a reprimand or a lesson. In this family, it’s usually both.
“Sit,” he orders without turning around.
Every time he gives a command to the room before he’s even looked at who’s in it, I’m tempted to stay standing just to make him acknowledge me first. But I cross to the chair and sit. Tonight is not the night to pick that fight.
“We’ve been reviewing the operations calendar. There are gaps.”
He opens the folder on the desk. He is thorough.
He is always thorough. I’ve missed check-ins with the Tverskaya distributors and issued a delayed report on the Petrov situation, which arrived six days late.
Then there’s the matter of a territorial walk in the Zamoskvoretsky district that I assigned to a junior associate instead of handling, because I had somewhere else to be.
He reads each one without commentary. Just dates and facts, steady and without pause, and I sit straight and keep my hands on my thighs.
Gennady watches the middle distance. Aleksandr has found something fascinating in the grain of the floor. Neither of them is enjoying this, which means they understood what tonight was before they walked in. They were brought here to witness, not participate. The audience is the point.
Then, Frol speaks.
“I covered the Zamoskvoretsky walk.” He still hasn’t looked at me. His focus stays above my shoulder, aimed carefully at the far wall. “I also rescheduled the meeting with Karamazov’s people that Lev missed. Twice.”
“I wasn’t aware of the rescheduling,” I reply.
“Because you weren’t reachable.” He finally looks at me. There it is, the satisfaction he gets when he has finally been given the room to say what he’s been holding back. “I’ve been covering for you.”
“Then thank you.” I shrug. “I’ll return the favor sometime.”
He doesn’t bother hiding his offense. Frol has always worn his feelings the same way he wears everything else: openly, because nobody in this family has ever asked him to hide them.
He’s always been the one who got to exist in plain sight.
First son. Rightful heir. The face the organization puts forward.
He was handed everything that came with that position before he was old enough to do anything with it, and he has spent thirty-three years doing nothing to question it.
Gennady clears his throat. Aleksandr looks at the far wall. Neither is comfortable.
My father sits and folds his hands on top of the folder. “The question I’m asking is what’s demanded your attention to the degree that your work has slipped.”
“I had three bullets pulled out of me six weeks ago.”
“Seven weeks ago. And you were operational within two.” He sets the folder aside. “So that’s not the answer I’m looking for.”
“I’ve had personal matters to manage. They’re resolved. It won’t be an issue going forward.”
“Personal matters.” He repeats it without inflection and hikes an eyebrow. “Your brother doesn’t have personal matters that interfere with this organization.”
To his credit, Frol doesn’t react. He just sits there and lets our father hold him up as the standard, which is the only thing he’s ever been asked to do, and the thing I’ve watched him do my entire life.
“Frol and I have different roles,” I point out. “We always have.”
My father’s eyes stay on my face. “Meaning?”
“Meaning that when a job requires a clean record and a visible name, you send Frol. When a job requires someone expendable, you send me. Those jobs carry specific costs. I manage them.”
The room goes quiet.
Gennady lifts his gaze from the floor. Aleksandr stops breathing through his nose. Frol goes still.
My father says nothing long enough that the quiet takes on weight.
“See that you do,” he replies.
Then Frol leans back in his chair and says, “There’s another way to look at this.
Perhaps the role has become less engaging.
Perhaps Lev has outgrown what he’s being asked to do and might benefit from a reassignment.
Something with fewer moving pieces and fewer demands on his time.
Something more suited to where he seems to be. ”
He delivers it lightly, like a casual observation that only just occurred to him. In reality, he’s been holding that sentence in his back pocket for weeks, waiting for this room and this audience.
Everything I want to say to my brother stacks up at the back of my throat in a neat, vicious line. I leave it there, because saying any of it here means losing. As close as we pretend to be, Frol has waited his entire life to watch me lose in front of our father. I will never give him that.
“That’s an interesting theory,” I reply. “He should write it down. He’s got the time for it.”
My father watches me the way he always does, keeping an eye out for what surfaces against what stays buried.
He does it to everyone in his orbit, but he does it to me with a quality of attention that has never once felt like affection.
I spent years trying to figure out whether he respects what he finds or simply doesn’t know what to do with it.
At this point, I don’t care enough to keep asking.
“The Petrov matter closes by the end of the week,” he says. “Karamazov gets a personal visit, not a phone call. Weekly written reports until I say otherwise.”
“Understood.”
“That’s all.”
I stand, and Frol doesn’t. He watches me leave with the look of a man who considers the evening a success. I give him nothing. Not a glance, not a change in my pace. I walk out the way I walked in, because reacting to them is the same as giving him the win.
Ruslan is waiting at the car outside. After he opens my door, he gets in and pulls away from the estate, the gateposts disappearing behind us in the side mirror.
I wait until we clear the main road.
Then I put my fist through the dashboard.
The plastic cracks, a clean split across the center console. Pain drives up through my knuckles and into my wrist, and I breathe through it and keep my eyes on the road while Ruslan keeps both hands on the wheel.
We don’t speak for twenty minutes. The city comes back in pieces of traffic, lit windows, and ordinary people moving through a Thursday night with no idea what just happened in that room. I watch them through the glass and feel nothing like them.
Ruslan parks outside my building and kills the engine.
The quiet holds for long enough to mean something.
Then, he asks the million-dollar question. “Is she worth it?”
The question has been sitting between us for weeks. Every date on the operations calendar and gap my father read aloud to a room full of witnesses traces back to the same address.
I don’t answer.
He turns and looks at me. Not the way he looked at me in the hospital when he said she’d get us all killed. This is the look of a man who already knows the answer and is watching me arrive at it.
“Yeah,” he grumbles with a nod. “That’s what I thought.”
He gets out and walks toward the building entrance, but I remain in the car.
The cracked dashboard stares back at me. My knuckles have split along two joints, and a thin red line crosses the third. I look at my hand the way my father looked at that folder, damage assessment, noting what still holds.
My phone will have messages. Something from Frol with a peace offering that isn’t.
Something from Gennady about Karamazov. And nothing from Polina, who has been carrying tonight’s news of my family’s attack on hers while I sat in a room and got taken apart for wanting something that isn’t on the operations calendar.
I know what the broadcast said, and I know what it means that men with Kozlov ink wound up in an emergency room tonight because of a Morozov operation.
She knows, too. She’s smart enough to connect the dots, and I know she’s standing in her apartment right now, holding a book that arrived on her doorstep this morning and trying to figure out what I am.
I sent it before any of this.
I found the book weeks ago, the same afternoon she mentioned it in passing.
I tracked down a first edition that week and held onto it until the moment felt right.
It’s not something I have ever done for anyone, and I didn’t examine it too closely because doing that would have required admitting what it meant.
There was no strategy in it. Ruslan could ask me to justify every operational call I’ve made in the past decade, and I could give him clean answers that hold up under pressure.
But if he asked me to justify the book on her counter, I’d have nothing except the memory of her face when she described her mentor’s copy, and the fact that I wanted to give her the exact thing she talked about with nothing expected in return.
My father would call that a liability. He’d be right, but the book is already there. Whatever she’s deciding right now—alone, in her kitchen, while I sit in a cold car with split knuckles and a cracked dashboard—she’s reaching that conclusion without me.
I can’t take it back.
Nor do I want to.