Chapter 13
When Law didn’t answer the phone, I had no choice but to get my ass out of bed and go to the club.
Before I started showing out, I searched high and low for him before I made my assumptions.
Yea, I even went into the men’s bathroom.
The only other place his ass could have been was with Pinkie’s hoe ass.
She been trying to sink her claws in him for a while now.
All the DM’s, Facebook messages, and shit she was sending was left on read, I guess tonight his ass fell weak.
He could think what he wanted to think, but I never crossed the line with Trey.
I almost slipped up, but I didn’t. The nigga gave me head, and that was the last time I was alone with him.
I blocked him and ain’t said shit to him.
It’s partially because of the positive pregnancy test that I was carrying around in my purse.
I had to give it to Pinkie; she had security in that bitch that would put you on your ass.
Once they put me out of the club, I pulled up on Law shit and busted out his window.
It was all I was able to do before they said something about calling the police.
I was already on probation for the last bitch I fought at my shop for paying me with a fake hundred-dollar bill. We both got charged.
Walking into my apartment, Jill wasn’t home, so I threw my purse and shit on the sofa, and it fell to the floor, spilling everything out of it.
I walked in the kitchen and grabbed the first thing I saw cold which was a bottle of wine I had opened the night I took the test. I took a few swallows before running my bleeding hand under the water.
My phone continued to ring, but I wasn’t in the mood.
Law could call all he wanted to, he didn’t want to answer when I was calling, so now it was my turn.
“Summer! Open the door,” Law knocked on the door. “I hear your fucking phone ringing, so I know your ass hear me.”
I should have just let him stand out there but when Jill came home, she was only going to let him in so I opened the door and stood there with my arms folded.
His whole appearance was sexy, but he smelled just like her.
My heart started breaking just thinking that he was just giving her what belonged to me.
I had to walk away before he saw the tears in my eyes.
All the days of sharing him were over years ago and here I was again, just like old times.
“Why you bust my window out?” Was the first question he asked as he followed me around the sofa.
“Law, you fucked her didn’t you? You intentionally went to that club and fucked that bitch. Why the fuck would you do some shit like that to me?” I fought the tears.
“We single, Summer. You made it that way when you gave that nigga what belonged to me.”
I started picking up the stuff that fell out of my purse.
Now I knew where he stood. I rushed and placed the pregnancy test in my purse before he laid eyes on it.
He wasn’t ready, and I wasn’t in the mood to bring a child in the midst of our confusion.
Four years wasn’t something to just throw away.
It was time for me to get my shit together without Law.
“Okay, I’ll pay for your window, but since we’re single, why are you here?” I stood up to look at him.
“I was coming to check on you.”
“For what?” I waited, but he didn’t say. “You saw all that shit going down in the club and now you feel guilty and coming to make sure I’m good.”
He ran his hand down his face, and I saw the pink lip-gloss stain on his chain. I always told him that big ass Cuban link was going to tell on him one day.
“I’m good, Law. You can leave.”
He was confused that I was giving up so easily.
I exerted all my energy in busting his window and fighting against security.
There was no more energy to give to this situation.
Pinkie won and she could have him. She just better hope she could keep him.
Just like you get them, you lose them. I walked to the door and opened it for him to leave.
“Summer, I’ll come so we can talk tomorrow.”
“No need when you single. There’s nothing to clear up or say. Enjoy it.”
“Man, I’ll be here tomorrow and don’t be on that bullshit.”
“Zip your pants up, Law. You could’ve at least pulled the fucking condom off before you came bringing your ass over here,” I told him and watched him turn red. “Don’t worry about showing up.” I slammed the door in his face and locked it.
I flipped the light on in my bathroom and stripped out of my clothes to take a shower.
Standing in the mirror, I rubbed the stomach and let the tears fall from my face.
I was finally going to break the news to him that I was going to give him what he wanted and he was fucking a bitch in the club.
Was it even worth it? I damn sure didn’t want to carry this baby, and he feel sorry for me.
I made enough money to do the shit on my own.
How long could I hide it from him if I was to keep it?
I didn’t want to be one of those girls that hid it and then made the nigga want to question the paternity.
My heart was broken once again by a nigga that played with my heart.
My insecurity ran so deep that I doubted that I loved myself like I loved these niggas.
This was going to be a difficult journey for me.
If I got rid of it, I would never forgive myself.
It was time for me to have a talk with my mama; she was like my best friend but it was shit I was hiding from her, and it was time to let it all out.
After taking my shower, I climbed in bed and cried until I fell asleep.
I woke up wrapped up in the cover and a pillow full of slob or maybe it was still my wet tears.
Throwing my feet off the bed, I was met with a bare back.
I rolled my eyes because from the tattoos, I knew it was Law’s dumb ass.
He fucked up and now he couldn’t handle the fact that I was done.
As soon as I got rid of him, I was checking Jill about letting his ass in.
“Law, get your ass up off my floor.” I kicked him. He woke up and yawned. He went home, I assume, and showered before he came back because he was wearing basketball shorts and a wife beater.
“You ready to talk?”
“What the fuck didn’t you understand last night? I don’t want to talk, ever! We single which means we are over. We can talk about you getting your shit from over here and me getting my shit from your spot. Now that’s something we can sit and talk about, but me and you are done.”
“I’m really not trying to hear that shit you talking about. You fucked, I fucked and now we even.”
“No, nigga we not even. I didn’t fuck! All this time, you thought I fucked, but I didn’t. Now since your assuming ass was mistaken, you went out and fucked and now I’m done.”
His face was red as hell. He was either pissed off or embarrassed, that was the only time his face turned red.
Since we were ending this shit officially, I grabbed a bag and started putting his shit in it.
Law didn’t argue or anything. He grabbed it and left.
By the time he went through it and found that pregnancy test, either the baby was no longer going to be in my stomach or I was going to be so far gone that I wouldn’t even remember who he was.
After getting a quick cry out once Law walked out the house, I was now parking at my mama’s house. I had already called her and told her I was coming to talk, so I’m sure she had tea and food ready. This was a conversation that was long overdue.
“Why you looking so pale in the face?” She asked as she opened the door for me.
“I don’t feel too good, but I just need to eat.”
She closed the door behind me and fixed me something to eat while I took a glass of water down to keep from throwing up. When Law left, I became so sick that I could barely move but I managed to push through because I had promised my mama I was coming.
“What is going on with you?” she asked as she watched me slowly try and eat the food.
“I’m pregnant, mama. Before you get excited, I don’t think I’m going to keep it.”
“Summer, ain’t no way in hell I’m about to let you sit here and talk like that. You and Law knew exactly what y’all were doing to make this baby.”
“We were careful, though, unless the condom broke or something. I don’t know, mama, but I can’t have this baby. Law and I aren’t on good terms.”
“Y’all go through shit all the time, but it’s obvious he loves you. We all go through rough patches but we stick it out.”
“See, mama that’s why I’m like this now. You stuck it out with daddy while he had fun. You stay in the house and wait on him hand and foot then argue because he came home smelling like a woman. I don’t want to be like that. Seeing you do that scarred me.”
“I’m sorry, but I wanted you in a home with both parents. When you become a parent, you make decisions that aren’t always best for you but for the family. I’m suffering from it now, but I can say you turned out fine. Feisty but fine.”
“I’m not fine, though, mama. I’m insecure as fuck. It was from watching you and then letting Trey dog me out. I’ll be damned if I go through it with Law.”
My mama lifted my head with her hand. “I’m sorry, but getting rid of a baby won’t solve your problem.
You got time to learn how to love yourself.
I have some things you can do that helped me over the years.
It took me years to start putting myself first. One thing about men, they love you but it’s totally different than the love we give them, and that’s why we feel empty even after we have sex with them.
Men don’t understand for us it’s more than sex; it’s the things that are said throughout the day and those simple gestures, so when it’s time we don’t feel like an object to them.
You are a pretty girl and Law will miss out if he’s messed up but you damn sure don’t have to be a fool for him. ”
As she was talking, my phone was going off with text messages from Law.
Law: Answer your phone.
Law: Can I explain?
Law: Don’t be putting nobody in our damn business if you going to take a nigga back.
Law: Man call me goddammit.
I left my mama’s house feeling better now that I told her how I felt. Everything else I had planned was cancelled; the only thing I wanted right now was my bed.