Chapter 14
Chapter Fourteen
KILLIAN
Fuck, she feels good against me. I hate when people are close, but my Teddy Bear is different. When she asked me why, I didn't have an answer. I'm still trying to understand and reason with it myself, but the truth is, it doesn't matter.
It is what it is, and I know there is no going back at this point. I can’t imagine a life without her in it anymore. The thought of it makes me feel lonely. Something that I once enjoyed is now my worst fear since Teddy fell into my life.
Right now, I need to focus on keeping Teddy close and her wanting to stay that way.
I'm not sure what would happen if she did try to get away from me.
I've done a lot of fucked-up shit in my life.
It doesn't matter if it was for the right cause or not.
I did it, and more than a few times I enjoyed it.
Teddy presses her soft little body into mine.
I should shower. These are the same hands I used to beat the shit out of that toothpick-having carnie.
There had been blood on my shirt that my innocent girl thought was food splatter.
I suppose he might be food at this point. Wild animals move in quickly.
I'd given him a chance to make it right. Which I'd only done because of Teddy. I think that's what she would have wanted, but then he'd gone and popped off at the mouth, and I popped him back. I'll admit I was only going to rough him up, but when he commented on my Zolotse, I saw red.
I thought that shit was a saying. It is not. None of my hits or kills have ever been personal. They’ve all been jobs to me. The same way people go to their nine-to-fives every day is the way I normally approach my line of work.
What I told her has made her happy, and she wiggles in my lap. I fight a groan. I’ve never groaned in pleasure before.
“You want me to touch your knees again?” I tease her. My Zolotse bursts into a fit of giggles.
“I want to freshen up. I’ve been sweaty all day, and I want to, uh, do things.” Teddy’s cheeks start to pinken. “Way more than touching of the knees.” I need to shower as well.
“We’ll freshen up, then.” I stand with her in my arms. I could carry her around all day, and it wouldn’t bother me. Might make it harder for me to use my gun, but I’d figure it out.
"Wait," she squeaks, and I stop walking. "You really waited." Her little nose scrunches. "Green light."
"You want me to wait for a green light?" I might not have fucked before, but I'm not a total dumbass.
I'm guessing she wants to do the BDSM stuff.
The thought of tying her to the bed makes my muscles tight.
I could inspect and touch her all over. Memorize all the details of her body, down to every freckle.
The same way I have her face and expressions so far.
"No, it's a game." She shakes her head. "But back to this freshening up together. Like, you wanna get naked in the shower?”
"Yes." I start walking again.
"But I'll be vertical!" I sit her down on the sink counter. "With fluorescent lighting." She raises her hands over her head in a Y shape, positioning one of the lights directly above her.
“You make this sound like a bad thing.” I wish she was already naked.
“It is; you’ll see everything, and it won’t be good.”
“Oh.” I shake my head, my eyes roaming over her. “You’re right, because ‘good’ isn’t a word that should ever be used in the same sentence as you. Miraculous is way more fitting."
"Killian." Teddy's cheeks manage to pinken more.
"You're shy." She nods, so I step back and strip out of the rest of my clothes. I would have never pegged her as being shy. She’s so lively and full of life all of the time. Saying and doing whatever she feels. It’s one of the things I love about her. That thought shocks me for a brief second. I’ve never thought that word about anyone or anything in my life.
But my Zolotse makes it impossible to not feel it.
"What are you doing?!"
"Getting naked first." Teddy covers her face with her hands but then opens two fingers to take a peek.
When I'm completely naked, she slowly lowers her hands.
"So, it's—" Her eyes drop to my cock, and it jerks under her attention and wants more of it.
"Proportionate." Her eyes are round like saucers, and her little pink tongue comes out to swipe across her lips.
She likes what she sees, and that makes me want to pound my chest.
A bark of laughter leaves me. Only my Zolotse can get this from me. I never know what she might say next, and I suppose I let my guard down with her. I'm not trying to keep her at arm's length. I would have her attached to me twenty-four-seven if I could.
I wrap my hand around my cock and give it a few strokes. Cum leaks out of the head. I almost lose it right here when Teddy licks her lips again. I want those lips wrapped around my cock. To see those innocent eyes meet mine while she takes me to the back of her throat.
I never understood the appeal of a blow job. You put your dick in a person's mouth. No fucking way. But now, with Teddy sitting prettily in front of me, her legs swinging back and forth, I'd hand over everything I own to have it from her. This woman owns me.
"I won't hurt you."
"I know that." Teddy's face softens. "You're just so you, and I'm so me."
"You are perfection. I have scars.” I run my hand down a couple on my right side.
"Those are hot."
"You're the one woman I have ever wanted to see naked. That must show you what I think of your body already." A smile starts to return.
"But that could ruin it." I don't want to ruin anything. Not with her.
"I don't know how to fix the situation for you."
"But you want to."
"I want to fix everything for you, Zolotse."
"Kiss me." I do. I claim my girl's mouth in understanding.
She wants me to distract her. My lips move over hers as I reach up and remove her crown to slip it out of her hair before tangling my fingers into it. Slowly I remove her clothes piece by piece until my girl is in nothing.
I want to step back and marvel at her, but distraction is the key right now. I need to get her wanting more to push past any shyness. Teddy needs to get used to me seeing and touching her.
I lift her into my arms, carrying her into the shower. When I flip it on, I make sure the spray hits me first, not wanting her to get hit with the cold water. That might kill the mood for her. As for me, you could hit me with a dump truck, and I’d still be in the mood for Teddy.
My mouth travels down her jaw as I turn her when the water is warm enough. A happy sigh leaves her.
"I love your kisses." Teddy's entire body has now relaxed in my embrace. A rush of pride fills me that I have relaxed her and helped relieve the shyness that started to creep in on my normally bubbly girl.
"Then you'll let me place them everywhere." I slowly put her on her feet so that I can wash her.
"Yes, I approve of this." Teddy's eyes flutter open to meet mine. "We're naked," she points out as I grab the soap. I grunt a response as I soap up my hands. Fuck a towel or those loofah balls. I'm doing this myself. I’ve been dying to get my hands on every part of her.
"We are." Her fingers start to roam my body. Teddy's touch is feather soft. I fight the urge to close my eyes. I’ve never been touched by anyone like this before. As a matter of fact, human touch is not something I ever craved. Not until her.
"This is all happening so fast," she says as I cup her breast, enjoying the feel and weight in my hand.
"Do you want me to slow down?" I might kill myself if she says yes, but for Teddy I'd do about anything.
"No." She shakes her head. "I'm the most impatient person in the whole wide world.
" I stroke her nipple with my thumb, and it hardens more.
I make sure to pay attention to every single signal her body gives me of what she enjoys.
I might be new to all this, but when it comes to the human body, I know how it works.
"You have no reason to be shy," I tell her, dropping to one knee in front of her so that I can keep washing the rest of her.
"I'm not good with words but know I have never seen anything more beautiful than you.
" I glance up at her, and she rests her hands on my shoulders.
"Breathtaking. Now I understand this word. "
"Killian, you're so sweet."
"Only for you, Zolotse. Lean back, let me take care of you.”
Teddy rests her back against the wall as I continue to clean her, and I’m not going to miss one spot.