Chapter Five
Reckless
When Marteinn entered the courtyard, Kara sprang to her feet. She must get the inevitable over with.
“The sun is good for you, Kara.” He smiled.
She held out her hands. He received them, holding onto her tightly. “Twirl about, send me away with a pleasant memory of you.”
She humored him. There was a reason she had dressed so carefully this morning.
Most assuredly, it wasn’t for Marteinn’s benefit.
He didn’t need to know she wore one of her best gowns, the pale yellow silk with silver lace edging the tight bodice, so her age couldn’t be mistaken.
Jarl McNally would be forced to admire her.
Half his age. How could the numb-minded fool mistake her for a shapeless child?
Kara better understood what her father had been trying to teach her all along after she’d kissed Aaron, savagery existed in every man.
His unrestrained passion confirmed it. As did her own feelings. She wanted more.
“Shall we walk about the house? Or do you wish to explore the forest?” Marteinn asked.
She didn’t want to look at him any longer—she desired to see only one man.
Guilt racked her mind and heart. Marteinn openly adored her, loved her unselfishly.
Her father would approve of a match between them.
She couldn’t. No conscionable reason existed to deny him.
Women flung themselves at him, stalked him like hounds follow a bitch in heat.
It made no difference to her. He lacked something she couldn’t quite name.
When he touched her, she didn’t feel a spark of lust. The world didn’t cease moving when he gazed into her eyes.
As ridiculous as it sounded, she knew there was more to marriage than simple friendship.
She grimaced, bedding Marteinn would feel incestuous.
They rounded the southwest corner of the keep, the island coming into view.
Odin curse that grey-eyed interloper. Without warning, she grabbed Marteinn by the shoulders.
She stood on her toes and pressed her lips to his.
His body tightened in her grasp. When they broke apart, she stared at the ground, ashamed of her action.
“Kara,” he said, his voice a ragged rasp. “What is this about?”
How could she answer? She scuffed at the dirt with the tip of her slipper.
“Look at me.”
She did.
“I know when something isn’t right with you. I’ve been trying to get you to kiss me for three years. Now, because I’m leaving, you decide to throw yourself at me?”
She couldn’t bear to look at him and lie at the same time. The truth would destroy him and dishonesty would blacken her soul. She couldn’t hurt him. “I cannot deny it.”
“It is not the right time to explore our feelings,” he advised. “Wait for me until I return.”
She shook her head. Wait? Never. “I’ll try.”
He lifted her chin and gave her a sad smile. “You’ll try?”
“Please, Marteinn . . .” Leave me alone you beautiful man. I’ll never admit why I cannot love you the way you need me to. “Let me think about it, alone.”
Anxious, she waited for his reply. He eyed the pathway around the keep.
“It appears safe . . . stay close.” He planted a firm kiss on her lips.
“Don’t mistake my hesitation as rejection.
I’ve wanted you for as long as I can remember.
A man knows the woman destined to be his wife. ” He left her in peace.
The second kiss infuriated Aaron. His body convulsed with jealousy.
He’d followed Marteinn after he left the hall, knowing where he was going and who he intended to see.
Perhaps their affection was purely innocent, the kind that existed between a brother and sister.
As much a chance of that as flies not being attracted to a sack of shite.
He’d been here long enough to overhear the whispering thralls.
Truth told, men squawked more than women when they were drunk.
Erik the Bald intended his daughter for the chivalrous captain.
Although he was a foundling with no home, holdings, or wealth, Aaron understood why the jarl might consider it an advantageous match.
Marteinn’s loyalty would never falter. Aaron truly admired the man’s tenacity, his abilities as a warrior.
Nothing more. Once he touched the girl Aaron intended to have for himself, it changed everything. He growled.
Kara’s kisses on the beach were an unspoken troth. Her body belonged to him now. Carousing with harlots was one thing, but when a noble woman abandoned her virtue—any man of title must stand up for her—claim her. That’s what he intended to do. Save her—have her—own her completely.
Assured she was alone now, Aaron stepped from the cover of the trees, revealing his presence.
She stared at him, stunned. “Jarl McNally.”
“Shame on you, Lady Kara . . .” Her cheeks flushed. “Didn’t my kisses satisfy you?” He stalked closer.
She crossed her arms over her chest. “What would you have me do, send him away with a punch instead? Didn’t seeing me kiss another man end your interest in me?” Her eyes glistened in the sunlight.
He chuckled. “I’d have you reserve your lips for me.”
She rolled her eyes, thrusting her hand on her shapely hip. The dress she was wearing left little to his imagination—it hugged her feminine curves too well. “Why do you presume you can determine my future without knowing what I want? I’ll kiss whoever I wish.”
The muscles in his neck and shoulders tensed.
Did she really think she had a say? Look how poorly she handled herself alone with him—what else was she willing to do without proper supervision?
In reality, Aaron mistrusted her because he didn’t trust himself.
This realization intensified his feelings.
“Save your complaints for another time. What I need to know, what I must know, do you have any attachments to Marteinn?” He desperately hoped she didn’t.
“Of course, you fool.”
Perplexing wench. He’d end her free-speak with another kiss. His jealousy overtook him. Naturally she felt something. “A familial tie?”
“Call it whatever you wish.”
The lass countered everything he said, wore bloody armor, toyed with weapons, and stole his breath every time she flashed those liquid eyes his way. A smart man would abandon her. “Lass, I leave soon, but rest assured, I will return.”
“How fortunate for my father.”
“Your father?” He remained fascinated with her wit. “This has nothing to do with your sire.” He bowed; there was not enough time to further explain himself. The king’s affairs could be put off no longer.
Late afternoon sunlight filled the unusually quiet hall.
Kara sat alone at the high table. Servants scurried by preparing for the evening meal.
Why did her father join Aaron and Marteinn?
With Geilir restricted to bed after tearing some of his stitches, Gunter was left in charge.
Gunter! Nothing felt right. Especially after she watched Aaron ride away.
Already confused by her reaction to him, his absence increased her discomfort.
“Kara?”
What was it about that accursed man that made her act so brazen and hesitant at the same time?
“Kara.”
She jumped. “Amelia?” How long had her maid been standing there?
“What grieves you?”
Kara feigned a smile. “Private thoughts.”
The maid grinned, revealing a slight gap between her front teeth. “Shall I guess? Six and a half feet of perfect male?”
Kara flushed. Did everyone think she wanted Marteinn?
If she possessed the courage to tell the truth, she’d admit she was daydreaming about a Scot whose stormy eyes revealed everything he felt.
She’d do anything if he spoke to her in that same velvet tone he’d used when they’d met on the island.
Crossing her arms over her chest, she exhaled exaggeratedly. All the servants missed Marteinn.
“No,” she disagreed. “I’m glad he’s gone.”
Amelia frowned. “You couldn’t possibly mean it, child.”
Kara gritted her teeth. “Why ask if you refuse to believe me?”
For all the qualities her father lacked, Erik the Bald treated his servants well, especially the women.
They spoke freely. Kara appreciated it, but wished they would keep their personal opinions to themselves.
Her ideas differed from most women’s. Life didn’t stop at the gates.
An expansive world lay beyond Lagenheim, and she wanted to see it, experience it firsthand.
Not rely on men’s tales for glimpses of what the world was really like.
“We all love Marteinn,” she soothed. “He is like my own brother.”
The maid wiped her hands on her apron. “I’ve suspected something was amiss between you two for a long time.”
Kara stared at her, surprised. “What?”
“Only what you’ve now admitted—you do not love him as a man. Your heart and mind are elsewhere.”
By Odin, hadn’t she concealed her interest in Aaron well enough to keep anyone from seeing it? “Who else—”
“Be at peace, milady.” The maid patted her arm affectionately. “Tis my duty to keep watch over you. I’m no muddleheaded girl.”
“I know.” Truth be told, Amelia had always been her favorite.
Nearly ten years separated them, but Amelia’s sisterly affection added happiness to her life.
She ran her father’s household so efficiently, Erik valued her above most warriors.
Her husband had perished at Stamford Bridge, along with so many others.
“A girl’s wandering eye is hard to miss at a feast. That Scottish rogue is handsome as the devil, but not as tempting as Marteinn.”
That observation made Kara blush. “I would never compare them.” She covered her mouth, ashamed of her near confession. “I’ve revealed too much.”
The older woman smiled. “Passion.”
“I don’t like how it feels.”
“Aye, you do.”
Kara smacked the table with her palms. Since she’d opened her big mouth, why hide anything? She needed someone to talk to. “Before I met Aaron, I never felt the slightest inclination to know a man intimately. Now my insides are churning.”
“When a girl meets the right man, the tiniest spark between them ignites the fiercest flame. There are no words to describe it. One night you go to sleep a girl, the next day, you wake up a woman. I felt that with my blessed husband.”
Halfway across the room, Gunter stood glaring. “Has my sister suddenly blossomed into a woman?”
Four days of riding with Erik the Bald as your companion could inspire a man to fall on his own sword.
At first, Aaron suspected he’d joined them to undermine everything he had planned.
But they’d picked up twenty more recruits along the way, relying on contacts the elder jarl had in the region.
And fifteen more from Floro. Grudgingly grateful for Erik’s assistance, Aaron could hardly ask the man to leave.
But telling him to shut up was another thing altogether.
Why did he insist on engaging in conversation at full gallop?
And if Aaron didn’t answer his questions, the jarl called him a rude bastard.
Along with his present issues with Erik, Aaron also contemplated a location for their permanent encampment. He finally selected a spot near enough to the coastal village of Alesund, where they could regularly buy supplies. A seasoned rider could make the round trip in two days.
The tents were pitched along the edge of the forest, where the soldiers would find relief in the shade. A large clearing provided ample space for training. Archery targets were constructed on the far side. The female thrall’s quarters consisted of two tents segregated from the men’s.
A hundred yards inside the tree line, Aaron constructed an altar for the pagans to sacrifice on.
Although his Christian captains disagreed, Erik approved.
It was the first of many actions Aaron intended to use to demonstrate that this was a collaborative effort.
King Olaf might kneel to the cross, but he valued all of his subjects equally.
The night before Erik the Bald’s departure, Aaron invited him to share a meal in his tent. “I cannot say I’ll be sorry to see you go.”
“It’s good we understand each other now,” the old man said with a broad smile as he scooped some fish onto his plate, then sat on a stool across from Aaron.
Mutual toleration doesn’t equate to friendship. But Aaron preferred this version of Erik over the one he met in Lagenheim. “When your eldest son heals, I’ll be sure to send for him.”
“Why?” There was a long pause. “Haven’t I been generous enough?”
“Rest easy, old man. Marteinn is worth his weight in silver. If your sons want to serve the king, I’d welcome them.”
Erik poured himself another measure of wine. “To the gods.”
Aaron raised his cup. “Aye,” he said. “And to King Olaf. May this country finally flourish under his tender care.”