Chapter 1 #4
Walking across the back of my classroom, he studies the nook in the corner Krisjen decorated with a worn leather couch and pillows slightly hidden from my view behind bookshelves.
There’s a carpet on the floor and art on the wall and a green plant, and I’d much rather have had a set of darts or a video arcade to let the students blow off steam, but they seem to like this room feeling like a dark academia library, and I don’t know why I like that they like it.
His stepsister graduated a couple of years ago—finishing high school online—but she spends her days here, “assisting” me.
Really, she just hides. I look him up and down, wondering if she hides from him like she does from his father.
He turns his head toward me. “What does she do in here all day?”
“Ask her.”
“I’m asking you.”
And the last person I’m going to fucking talk about her with is you. “I can’t explain anything for her.” I take a sip of my two-day-old bourbon, disguised in the coffee cup I left on my desk on Friday afternoon after the students left. “Anna-Katherine…”
Callum’s eyes darken at me using her new name.
“…lives in a world no one else sees,” I tell him.
Maybe he thinks I’m fucking her, but I don’t fuck people I like.
He shakes his head, drifting past her favorite place to sit. “No,” he says. “She retains what’s good and buries the rest.”
Is that what he thinks? I can’t imagine he’s spent any time trying to understand her.
But then he adds, “She must feel safe here if she keeps coming back.”
I start to narrow my eyes, but I stop, keeping a straight face.
He strolls, browsing the pictures on the walls, the stacks of books on the window ledges, and the marble busts of strong, admirable men he’ll never be. I want to know if he’ll be here all summer or take off like the rest of them do. It would help solidify my plans.
But I’m not asking him shit.
“What is this?” He gestures to a porcelain sculpture of two men.
I glance at it. “Seneca, the philosopher,” I tell him. “And his student Nero.”
He studies it again, turning a slight smile on me. “Nero doesn’t look engaged in the lesson.”
The two men sit together, the old philosopher on a bench and Nero on what resembles a throne, scowling and slouching with his fists clenched.
“No, he’s not,” I tell Callum. “He’s thinking, ‘Just wait till I’m emperor.’ ”
Just wait till I come back, Jaeger.
Just wait till I’m in charge.
Just wait…
“Why do you have it?” Callum asks.
“I like Seneca.” I set down my cup, looking at the philosopher still trying to get through to his student and starting to realize it’s no use.
“He was wise, but he wasn’t perfect. He was seduced by Rome—the wealth, power, and his position to the future emperor,” I tell Callum.
“He’s one of the only philosophers I truly respect, because he made mistakes, and I don’t trust anyone who doesn’t. ”
Or anyone who tries to hide them.
“And because I’m also a teacher,” I say in a low voice as I sit down at my desk, “I want to be reminded what can happen if nurture fails over nature.”
I’m no angel, nor do I want to be, but at least I’m not unoriginal, spoiled, or forgettable.
A gleam hits Callum’s storm-blue eyes, and I notice the slight scar at the corner of his eye, just above his cheekbone. Small, but I remember making him bleed there four years ago.
He walks slowly toward me, and I watch him draw closer, letting him. I won’t give him the satisfaction of evading him.
But just as he closes in behind me, between me and the chalkboard, I catch figures outside both of my classroom doors. The one to the left of my desk and the other, which I came through minutes ago.
In a moment, Callum’s hands wrap around my forearms and slide to my wrists as he pins my hands to my desktop.
I ball my fists, resisting, but the dark forms in the doorways loom heavier, and I refuse to look to see who it is. I can guess. Milo Price. Jerome Watson. Vincent Law.
Callum leans into my ear. “You’re right.”
I glower, staring straight ahead.
“Seneca was seduced by Rome,” he whispers into my ear. “Oh, he liked it there. I’ll bet he loved patrician pussy, didn’t he?”
I clench my teeth, rage coursing through my blood, but my pulse races in a way it didn’t in Mrs. Coldwell’s bed an hour ago. All of a sudden, I don’t know what I was expecting after years of preparing for his return, but I’m so glad we’re not going to play nice.
Callum goes on, “But his biggest mistake of all was trying to leave.” His hot breath falls across my skin. “No one leaves Nero.”
I can’t help but smile a little.
“Have you ever seen the real sculpture in Madrid?” he asks me.
I tighten my jaw again. He knew what the sculpture was when he fucking asked.
“The artist never created a final version of it,” he tells me. “It was a plaster rendering. Beautiful, though. Truly a lesson in conveying an entire relationship in one cast…of body language.”
My eyes instinctively fall to his fingers wrapped around my wrists.
An entire relationship…
“It has nothing to do with nurture or nature, Dallas,” he taunts me.
“Seneca gave the world Nero. Marcus Aurelius unleashed Commodus. The great King David and his wicked offspring.” His mouth brushes my ear.
“Great men produce the worst sons—and students—because if they can’t crawl out from underneath their teacher’s shadow, they’ll have to outdo him in horrors. ”
And to my fucking disgust, chills break out down my arms.
I’m not a great man.
And I didn’t teach you everything I know, you little shit.
He inhales through his nose, taking in my scent. “It’s good to see you.”
Releasing me, he walks around my desk, sliding one hand into his pocket as he leaves.
But before he goes, I call out, “Nero might’ve ordered Seneca to commit suicide,” I warn him, “but it took a lot for him to die.”
Callum turns his head over his shoulder, and déjà vu slams me in the chest, making me falter.
Instead of countering with another threat, he simply smiles. Big. White teeth flashing like a joyful kid in a candy store.
And Nero didn’t outlive his teacher for long, either.
“I never thought your father would be the easier one to make suffer,” I taunt.
His eyes dance. “But, Dallas…” he whispers. “Nero’s father wasn’t around to stop him.”
My lungs constrict, insufficient air pouring in. Nero’s father died when he was a child, and he murdered his mother. Callum’s mother died when he was a child, and…
I force down the lump in my throat. He has plans that don’t just include me.
Callum leaves, his crew disappearing with him, and I grab my coffee cup, dumping the liquor in my trash can.
I am going to need a clear head.
Let’s see what you’ve learned, Callum Ames.