Chapter 19
Her
It has been a week since the incident near my house. The night with the drunk man should feel far away by now, but it isn’t.
The fear from that night follows me into sleep, waiting patiently for the moment I close my eyes. Every time I drift off, it’s there, pressing against my thoughts, refusing to let me rest.
I force myself out of bed anyway. I remind myself that today is my day off. No newsroom. No files. No deadlines screaming my name. No headlines to chase. Today is supposed to be quiet.
But my mind doesn’t listen.
No matter how hard I try to push my thoughts aside, they keep sliding back to the same place. The same image. An alley replaying itself in my head like a broken clip. The concrete looked darker than it should, slick with shadow. The air felt heavy, even in memory.
And there, near his body, lay a single iris flower. Crushed. Placed there on purpose. It didn’t belong. That’s what makes it worse. The more I tell myself not to think about it, the clearer it becomes.
I decide to distract myself. Chores usually help. Normal, boring things. Laundry. Dishes. Cleaning. Things people do when their lives are ordinary. Maybe if I keep my hands busy long enough, my mind will finally let go.
I start in the kitchen. I pick up a cloth and begin wiping down the counters, moving slowly from one end to the other.
Dust has settled over the last few days, thin but visible.
I focus on the movement of my hand, the back-and-forth motion, hoping the repetition will calm me. For a moment, it almost works.
Then it hits.
A sudden tightness spreads across my chest, sharp and uncomfortable.
My hand stills. Something feels wrong. I don’t know what, only that the feeling is strong enough to make me stop.
I look around the kitchen, scanning every corner.
The sink. The stove. The doorway. Everything looks normal. Too normal.
I move on to the laundry, carrying the basket into the next room. I sort the clothes automatically, separating colors, folding what needs to be folded. The familiar routine helps. My breathing slows. My thoughts quiet down just a little.
That’s when I notice it.
The living room curtains shift at the edge of my vision. Just slightly. Barely enough to be sure. I look up at once, my hands freezing mid-fold. There’s no breeze. The windows are shut. I stare at the fabric, waiting for it to move again. It doesn’t.
But the unease doesn’t fade. It grows heavier, sinking into my stomach like a stone. I swallow and shake my head. “It’s just my imagination.” I say out loud. I need to hear the words. I need them to sound real. They don’t help.
The alley flashes through my mind again, sharp and sudden. The fear I thought I had buried rises back up, raw and familiar. My heart beats faster. My skin feels tight, like it’s bracing for something.
I grab the duster and step into the living room, running it along the shelves and surfaces. Dust lifts into the air, floating slowly as it catches the light. I try to focus on that. On something small and harmless. But the feeling comes back. The sense of being watched.
At first it’s faint, easy to ignore. Just a thought. Then it grows, inch by inch, until my skin prickles and my shoulders tense. I don’t turn around. I don’t know why. Maybe part of me is afraid of what I might see if I do.
“Stop it, Iris.” I mutter. “You’re safe here.” The words feel hollow.
I turn on the vacuum cleaner, the loud hum filling the flat. For a while, it helps. The noise drowns out my thoughts. Then I hear footsteps. Slow, back and forth. I turn off the vacuum to listen. But the footsteps stop immediately. The silence that follows is heavy, pressing in on me.
The quiet feels deliberate, like someone stopped moving because I noticed. A chill runs through me, dragging old fears to the surface. Memories of the stalker’s messages flicker in my mind.
I try to keep going, returning to the kitchen to scrub the sink. The watched feeling follows me, room to room, persistent and patient. Anxiety tightens my chest, making it hard to breathe evenly.
I keep glancing over my shoulder. The room is empty every time. “This is ridiculous.” I mutter, frustration mixing with fear. But the feeling doesn’t fade.
Later, while dusting near the window, I glance outside without thinking. And freeze. Across the street, near a parked car, I think I see someone standing still, half-hidden in shadow. And my heart jumps violently. I lean closer to the glass, squinting. But nothing.
Confusion crashes over me, mixed with rising fear. "Was that someone watching me?" I think low, my voice filled with doubt.
The incident shakes me, and paranoia intensifies, making me question if my mind is playing tricks or if the danger is real. Tears prick my eyes as frustration builds.
I step back from the window, my hands shaking now. The chores feel overwhelming, but I force myself to gather the trash bags and head outside to the bin. As I walk down the path, that watched feeling returns stronger than before, like someone is tracking my steps intently.
I glance around nervously, and at the far end of the road, I spot a man standing too still, his face obscured by distance and shadow. Alarm explodes in my chest, making my pulse race with terror. "Is he staring at me?" I whisper to myself, fear gripping me tightly.
He does not move or follow as I hurry back inside, but the sense of being observed lingers like a weight on my shoulders. I lock the door with fumbling hands, my breath coming in short gasps. "This cannot be happening." I say aloud, trying to calm the panic rising inside me.
The fear refuses to leave, leaving me shaken and doubtful of my own perceptions. I lean against the door, tears welling up as paranoia takes hold.
Throughout the afternoon, the pattern repeats in ways that heighten my distress even more. I try to organize the bookshelf, but I catch reflections in the glass cabinet that seem off by half a second, like a shadow not quite matching my movements.
Confusion turns to outright fear each time it happens, making my heart pound. "What’s that?" I mutter, staring at the glass with wide eyes.
The unplaced footsteps return sporadically from above, echoing just enough to make me freeze and listen, only to vanish when I focus. Anxiety builds with every instance, turning into a constant thrum in my veins.
I pace the room, frustration mixing with the terror. "Why is this happening today?" I ask myself, my voice breaking slightly.
The awareness of being observed grows heavier, deliberate in its persistence, making me feel trapped and exposed. Tears stream down my face as the emotions overwhelm me, leaving me desperate for it to stop.
I try to distract myself by folding clean laundry, but the feeling intensifies, like someone knows exactly where I am without making it obvious. Paranoia peaks, and I whisper, "Please, just leave me alone."
As evening approaches, the light in the flat begins to fade, and the tension inside me reaches a breaking point that I can no longer ignore.
I turn from the kitchen counter where I was putting together a grilled cheese sandwich, and my blood runs cold with instant horror.
He is standing several feet away, near the doorway. Fully visible. Perfectly still.
For a second, my mind refuses to accept what my eyes are seeing. Then realization hits, slow and brutal, as I take in the hood and the white mask. Horror rushes through me. What I saw that day was not a dream.
He was real. He was always there, watching. Now he is standing inside my flat, several feet away near the doorway, fully visible and completely still.
My thoughts spiral. The stalker has finally reached me. I finally understand that what I saw that day at Ryan’s was not imagined, not a trick of fear. It had been hazy before, unclear, but now there is no doubt.
He is here.
It feels as if he has always belonged in this space and simply chose this moment to be seen. Fear explodes in my chest. My breath catches in my throat.
I scream. Short, sharp, instinctive. The sound bursts out of me and echoes too loudly in the small flat. My heart slams wildly as panic floods every part of me, leaving my body trembling and out of control.
He reacts immediately, lifting a gloved finger to his mask in a quiet, commanding gesture that silences me more effectively than any force could. "Shh." He says, the sound sharp and piercing through my fear.
I freeze in place, my breath hitching as the terror does not fade but intensifies, making my body shake even harder. The command in that simple sound leaves me paralyzed.
He does not rush toward me, and that lack of urgency frightens me most because it shows he is in complete control of the situation. He starts walking slowly, deliberately, each step measured and unhurried as if he is intentionally letting my fear rise to the surface before he does anything else.
I back away instinctively, my hands shaking so badly that I can barely keep them steady at my sides. My heartbeat is so loud in my ears that it drowns out everything else, thundering with raw panic.
"Who are you? How did you get in here?" I cry out, my voice breaking with terror as tears stream down my face.
He shushes me again, firmer this time, the sound cutting through the air like a warning. "Shh." He repeats, and the authority in his tone makes me freeze completely, my body obeying against my will despite the fear screaming inside me.
The knife appears in his hand only when he is close enough for me to see it clearly, not raised to strike immediately but held with calm, unnerving precision.
He does not rush to touch me or harm me right away, and that pause lets the fear settle deeper into my bones, making my stomach churn with dread and anticipation.
"Please, don't come any closer." I beg, my voice trembling as sobs escape me. "I don't know what you want from me. Please just leave. I won't tell anyone."
He studies me for a long, silent moment, his masked face giving nothing away about his intentions.
"You look beautiful when you're scared, Little Prey." He says finally, his voice low, sending a confusing shiver through me that mixes terror with an unwanted spark.
He lifts the knife then, and I flinch hard, my body tensing in anticipation of pain.
But he does not press it against my throat or pull me close aggressively.
He draws a slow, shallow line along my cheek, the sting sharp and immediate, more painful in its controlled precision than in the depth of the cut.
I gasp loudly, the pain mixing with my fear in a way that leaves me breathless and shaking. "Why are you doing this to me?" I whisper, my voice barely audible as tears continue to fall.
He lowers the blade after studying my reaction closely, stepping back without a single word of explanation. The retreat is quiet and deliberate, leaving me standing alone in the kitchen, shaken to my core by the entire encounter.
I realize then, with a wave of horror and confusion, that this was not an attack fueled by blind impulse but a calculated demonstration of his power.
He could have killed me at any point today, with all those moments of feeling watched and the subtle signs I dismissed. He chose not to, and that understanding terrifies me more than any immediate violence could.
The fear from the hunt, the strange sense that he might actually want me in some twisted way, all of it swirls inside me, building into an unexpected feeling that confuses and shames me.
My body reacts in ways I cannot control or understand, leaving me breathless and conflicted as he disappears from view completely.