Chapter 65
Astor
I drivelike a madman over the dirt roads, slicing through the sheets of rain, fishtailing around corners, almost blind by the rain streaking across my helmet. I am out-of-my-mind psychotic, a feral combination of rage and desperation driving me past the brink of insanity.
All I can think is, Sabine has to be okay.
She has to be.
I can’t lose her. Not now. Not before I’ve made things right. Not before giving her a chance to see who I can be for her.
Sabine can’t be Valerie. I can’t let another woman down. I can’t lose another person in my life without making things right.
Sabine can’t be my mother. I can’t lose the only other woman I’ve ever loved.
And finally, Sabine can’t be Chloe. I can’t lose the light of my life again.
I cannot fail her like I have everyone else in my wretched, warped, screwed-up excuse of a life.
Sabine has to be okay.
She has to be okay.
There can be no other outcome.
Because I will burn down the entire fucking world if she’s not.